"I saw him again today. I want so badly for him to notice me, but to him, Im just another co-worker who always messes up." I can feel my thoughts going through my head a mile a minute. "All I ever do is mess up. He could never be attracted to a freak like me.." I realize Im speaking to myself. For some reason that I cannot explain, I can never open up to anyone, unless it was my best friend, Aaron. I'm sitting on my bed cross-legged as I realize how ridiculous I sound talking to myself like I'm going to somehow get some type of response from the gods about what to do. "I don't blame him, I wouldn't even be attracted to a freak like me. I just got dumped for being too boring." I look out my window and see the raindrops hit my windowsill. I glance at my alarm clock on my night stand that reads 11:30PM. "Guess I should go to bed.. I'll see him again in the morning. We both open with the same shift.." I brush my teeth, staring at myself in the mirror trying to find the slightest bit of beauty in myself, to which I fail miserably. I climb into bed, pull the covers over my head, and fall asleep.
"Hey!" I look up and see Jason running towards me. "What's up?"he asks. I look around, thinking he's gotta be talking to someone behind me or something, but there's nobody around but me. "You okay?" he asks while looking at me like I'm a deer in headlights.
"Yeah," I say, shaking my head clear. "I just wasn't expecting anyone to say anything to me.. haha.." I hate how awkward my laugh is. He nods and laughs a little seeing my discomfort.
"Should I let you go on with... Whatever it is you were going to do?" He looks at me waiting for a response when all I can do is melt and stare into his eyes.
"Uh. No. I wasn't doing anything special.. What'd you need?" I am trying so hard not to sound like a total idiot, probably not succeeding at all.
"Oh, I was just walking to the corner store and saw you. Was wondering if you wanted to hang out of a bit?"
"Really? Sure! I could always use some company." My heart is pounding. "Want to go to the park down the street or something?"
"We could," He said smiling. "I kind of had something else in mind..."
"Like what?"
He takes a step toward me and puts his hand on my shoulder. I try my hardest to not let my knees go weak. His hand slides from my shoulder, down to my elbow, to my wrist and then he grabs my hand. "Well, I was going to the corner store to buy a lighter, but then we could go over to my place and hang out."
"Okay, that sounds fun." I'm screaming with excitement on the inside and hoping he doesn't see how excited I am.
We walk to the corner store, he grabs a lighter and wanders to the other end of the store. I don't want to be nosy, so I don't follow him, but I do want to know what he's looking at. I see him grab something and walk to the cash register. I'm standing by the door and get a quick glimpse of what he had picked up. I see a label that says 'Magnum ultra-thin'. "Oh my God," I whisper to myself. I try to convince myself they aren't going to be for us. He's probably got some kind of friend with benefits. I watch him pay and walk towards me, reaching for my hand again. We start walking down the road and all I can think about is how he bought those condoms. "Hey, Jason?" I say trying to keep calm.
"Hm?" He says as if caught off-guard that I said anything
"I couldn't help but notice that at the corner store, you purchased a box of condoms.. And I was just wondering—"
