We had been dating for four months but we hadn't yet "done the deed", so to speak. You know what, I hate that phrase, but it's something my friends are always asking me.
"Have you done the deed yet?" They'd ask with a broad smile across their face. And I'd come up with a reason why we hadn't. "Nah we both too pissed", or "It's the time of the month could you believe..."
But the truth was that we were just waiting until the time was right, for both of us. She'd had boyfriends before, so far as I can tell she had at least five or six. But I'd only ever had one, and that ended years ago. Her last partner was quite abusive towards her and treated her like a sex object. She doesn't tell me too much about those times, but it's taken her a while until she has felt able to trust anyone enough to let them get close to her again.
And myself, I'd lost a lot of confidence over the years. I'm 27 now and the only action I've seen over the last five years has been with my hand. So, my friends play me about teasing me about why we haven't had sex yet, but the real reason was that we were both a bit nervous about it all. Silly really I guess, but the longer it goes on the least likely we are to actually do it.
So we have decided this is it, today is the day. We are going to "get it on"... which is another of my friend's sayings, so you're going to have to forgive me as I know how cringe worthy it sounds!
Anyway, we booked a hotel for the night. We wanted to get away from home and a place where we couldn't be disturbed by anyone. During dinner we didn't talk too much but we couldn't keep our eyes off each other. We were both excited about what was to come and I felt myself getting easily turned on as she delicately brushed her hand through her blonde hair.
"Shall we go?" I asked as we paid the bill and I gently took her hand in mine as we walked out of the restaurant. The air was cool and the night was dark, but the hotel was just a short walk away so I kept Amanda warm by wrapping my arm around her waist.
"Are you warm enough?"
She looked at me and smiled. It wasn't quite like any smile I'd seen from her before. With her eyes shyly dancing between the ground and my own eyes, she said, "I will be soon", and giggled, dancing away a couple of steps ahead of me.
It was then that I knew I didn't have to be nervous about tonight. Amanda was the woman I'd always wanted to meet. She was kind, caring, intelligent and not to mention sexy. She has strikingly blue eyes and a kind of radiance about her that you can't really describe in words. It was just like you always wanted to be around her, and that she somehow made you feel good even if she wasn't doing anything to make you feel that way.
We talked a little as we made our way up the stairs to our hotel room, but we both fell silent as we closed the door and looked at the bed in front of us. I walked over to the window and closed the curtains as Amanda settled herself down on the bed, resting her head against the soft pillow.