I'm six foot three. At the time I met Andrea I had been in physical therapy for over six months recovering from a spinal injury. I was a former Marine, a Former firefighter and ruggedly good looking. I was in good shape, but I couldn't work manual labor any longer. I'd only had my desk job for a little over a year and I'd finally settled into it.
My injury had given me a radar for a new kind of women. I've had the worst luck with women. I've always dated bitches. It's not that I like bitches, I like adrenaline junkies! I was an adrenaline junkie. But, most adrenaline junkies are assholes or bitches. I was the exception. I knew how to fight but didn't ever want to hurt someone. I was a Marine but I was a firefighter in the Marines. My older brother once told me I was, "hard core but not a hard ass." I never could find a girl who was my kind of adrenaline junkie. They all turned out to be the hard ass kind. They liked to take risks. They liked to fight and I didn't like them.
My injury had taken away my need for another adrenaline junkie. I wanted something different now. I'd wanted a peaceful girl. I wanted a comfortable girl. I wanted a girl with a thousand hobbies that didn't involve rocks, or parachutes, or martial arts. I wanted a girl I wouldn't have gone on a second date with before my injury.
I met Andrea online. She's an overly nice 27 year old in her last year of her masters in psychology. She made me laugh. She shared my feelings on all the key subjects like religion, politics, and money... She's a fan of the same kind of comedy music I like. She even quoted, "Business Time," by Flight of the Concords before I could!
I'm visibly shaking before our first date. I already love this girl. I have that, "this could be the one" feeling that only comes around once every thousand or so encounters. I know she has the personality I like. She's been working for almost a decade to get a job helping people so I'm confident in my assumption she's a nice girl. She's gone punch for punch with my flirting and my confessions so I'm not afraid of any deal breakers popping up in the conversation and I know she likes me... so far...
I just don't know if she's hot... I've done this once before. I completely fell for a girl online. I met her in person and found out she'd misrepresented what she looked like. She was unattractive. I wanted to make it work, but try as I might I could not will myself to feel attracted to her. I called things off and felt duped, I felt terrible. I felt shallow. I thought about it afterword and decided I wouldn't want a girl to date me who didn't find me attractive. I want someone who wants me in every way and the girl I'd broken up with deserved that too. I still felt like an asshole because of it though.
I didn't want to go through that again. So I was nervous about meeting this girl who I'd also fallen for online. I knew if things lined up this wasn't going to be just a few dates. I also knew if they didn't I couldn't go back to being in love with her online...