"Ive never done this before. God I'm so nervous. What if I mess up? What if she says no? Oh God I'm going to make a fool of myself, I just know it. If it wasn't for Chris, I wouldn't be doing this, I'd be in my room studying as I do every Thursday. He had to drag me out to this party. This is the first college party I've ever been to. Hell, in my 20 years of life, this is probably the only party that I've been too. Oh God, I'm going to blow it. Look at me I'm sweating like a pig. Fuck it, I should just leave now. If I leave nobody will notice. Nobody except Chris of course, who will give me so much shit when we get back to our dorm. Ughh fine I'll just do it. Amy is so out of my league, but if I don't do this Chris will give me shit until I graduate, and probably the years after that as well." These thoughts raced through my head as I walked towards the beautiful blonde that stood at the bottom of the staircase. With eyes so blue that I could drown in them. Her tight pink tube top pulled up showing off her belly button ring. Her beautiful smile as she laughed at the joke that her girlfriend has just said. Yes Amy, she is very out of my league.
"Excuse me, Amy?" I said walking up to her. Oh God what was I doing?
"Yes? Erick is it?" She asked turning from her friends towards me. She looked up at me with those beautiful blue eyes. When I looked into them, I completely forgot that my name was not Erick, and was in fact Evan. I just nodded and smiled at her.
"Yeah, so Amy I was wondering, ummm you know, if you weren't doing anything later, would you, I don't know? Wanna grab some dinner or something?" I smiled sheepishly at her. Why am I smiling idiot? Guys who get Amy don't smile around her. I ran my fingers through my light brown hair. She looked at me and scrunched her face as if she was thinking.
"Hmmm... well Erick...I'm kinda drunk right now so this may be the alcohol talking, but why don't we skip the formalities and head straight for the bedroom?" She asked biting her lip and looking up and down my 6'2 frame. I put my hand over my mouth so that I hid my deep blush and stupid smile. I nodded looking at her. "Why don't you head upstairs and wait for me? I'll be up in a minute. I just have to get some things.
"Okay" I could barely say without giggling like a girl. God I'm such a dork, but this dork is gonna fuck the sexiest girl in my college. I run upstairs and went into the first door on the left. I am finally about to loose my virginity.
"Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit. I cannot believe that this is happening right now. This is insane. I have to thank Chris a million times because of this. I've fantasized about this for so long. Especially with Amy. Her boobs bouncing as she moans my name. Holy shit this is actually going to happen now. I hope that I'm good. I hope she likes it. I don't know? I haven't really researched anything. Hopefully she'll be in control mostly. This is going to be amazing. I can't believe this. Oh Amy where the hell are you?" I think as I wait for Amy. I lay back in bed and take off my shirt. I kept waiting. I heard footsteps up the stairs. Oh yes, here she comes. I sit back in the bed and wait for her to open the door. The door slowly opened. I saw Amy standing in the doorway. He black lace panties and a black bra.
"Hey there." She says smiling at me, her bright white teeth shining in the dark room. She walks in and pushes me down against the bed. My cock is standing at full attention. She smiles and giggles a little bit. "Someone is excited." She says biting her lip.
I nod and smile, running my hands on her soft tan skin. "And a little bit nervous." I admit to her blushing slightly.
"Is this your first time?" She asks laying down on the bed next to me.
I nod "Yeah, I'm glad that its with as someone as sexy as you though." I say softly, blushing a little. I'm not used to talking like this. I hear an uproar of laughter from outside the doorway.
"Fuckin virgin loser." Says Todd walking into the room laughing and pointing at me. I sat up and look at Amy. She was dying of laughter.
"You actually thought I'd fuck you? You're like the geekiest kid ever." She says with short breathe from laughing so hard. I stand up and grab my shirt, shoving my way through the crowd. They all laughed at me as I walked out of the party. Chris was chasing after me.
"Evan wait up man!" He called after me to which I had no reply and just kept walking. "Listen dude, Im really sorry. I didn't think that would happen." He says apologetically. I sigh and turn to him. I mean seriously, if I didn't come in the first place I'd be perfectly happy.
"Fuck you Chris, this is all your fault. Now Im the laughing stock of the school." I say and go back to walking.
"Give it a couple days everyone is going to forget about it!" He calls to me. I don't answer. I know its true, especially because most of them were too drunk to remember. Still that was a very embarrassing moment for me. I walked back 2 miles, all the way to my dorm and then immediately fell asleep, trying not to cry of embarrassment.
"Ugghh fuck life. I hate everyone. I'm just going to go to classes and the library then back to my dorm for the rest of college. Last night was total bullshit. I never want to go through that again. So I'm just going to go back to my normal routine. Class, study, sleep. It works for me. I shouldn't have tried to shake it up. God last night was terrible." I think to myself as I walk to my morning class. It dragged on rather slowly. Then my second class, which was equally as slow, then lunch where I sat by myself, and then my last class of the day which was quicker than the two classes prior. Slowly I trudged to the library to study for my midterms which were coming in a month and a half.
I sat in the back corner of the room studying. Today it is a half-hearted study. I know what I am studying for is kind of pointless for right now midterms don't start for another month. I was happy though, well sorta. I was alone and nobody bothered me. That is until I felt a tap on my shoulder.
"Excuse me, do you mind if I study with you? The boys over there are being kind of obnoxious, and I the girls over there intimidate me. They have been staring at me and whispering to each other the whole time they were here." A short girl with ginger red hair and freckles asks me with a polite and shy smile. I smile back lightly and nod. She sits down in the seat next to me. She smells very pretty. Like fresh picked strawberry. I smile and go back to studying.
I let out a long sigh. The ginger girl looks over at me. "Are you alright? You seem upset." She asks looking concerned at me. Her question takes me by surprise.
"Yeah, I'm fine I guess. Just last night was a bad night for me." I say softly. She looks at me and places her hand on mine. Her touch is very comforting to me. I relax a little bit.