This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance between the characters depicted here and real individuals is coincidence. All characters are over age eighteen.
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A young woman down the block makes a mature decision.
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I hardly noticed Bettany as she grew up. She was so shy and quiet that she just seemed to fade into the background. Then one day a few months ago I was outside cleaning my car and wondered who the young lady down the block was. Somehow, little Bettany had reached age nineteen without me noticing.
She was still shy and quiet, now in jeans and hiking boots, t-shirts, old sweaters, and no makeup. Most people would describe her hair as dusty blond, perhaps with a bit of red. Her eyes were greyish and she had a few freckles. Bettany was a bit on the tall side and somewhat athletic. Her face was gentle, but she didn't smile often. She had grown up to be the very antithesis of glamorous.
As I worked on my car, I caught myself looking down the street at her and realized she had become quite beautiful, but not in a way that most men would notice. Ordinary BABEDAR couldn't detect her lack of makeup and outdoorsy clothing. Bettany had become a stealth hottie. By the time most men noticed...well, it was too late.
What was I doing? I reprimanded myself for checking out not my neighbor's wife, but worse, my neighbor's daughter. My neighbor's daughter! What the hell? So I went back to cleaning my car, then noticed I had missed several parts.
Days later I saw her while out walking in the open space near the house. A dirt trail wound through the sage and pines and beside the creek. "Hi, Bettany," I said.
"Hi, Mr. Donlin," she replied.
"Oh, Kent will do. What have you been up to lately?"
"Just college."
"How's that going?"
She said nothing, but her face said, 'Lousy.'
"Uh, oh. College not going well?"
"College is fine; it's the people, my sorority sisters."
"Sorority? What's the problem?"
"There's a lot of pressure to dress a certain way, look a certain way, act a certain way. They even taught us how to enter a room so that the men notice you. They're on me to wear heels and makeup. There's a lot of pressure about sex...too. The boys are awful and, and..." I could tell she needed to vent, yet embarrassed about actually saying it.
"Reminds me of when I was in college and asked a girl out. Only after she agreed did she tell me she lived at a sorority. When I came to pick her up, she came to the door and spoke through a crack. She said she was sorry but she couldn't go. A day or two later I called and asked what the hell. Her sisters would only allow her to date fraternity boys, and not just any fraternities. I didn't belong to one at all let alone the right one. I think I may have asked her what right they had to do this. All these years later I'm still pissed off."
"It's worse than that. They want me to have sex before my freshman year is out. And..." Bettany's face sunk. I tried to think of something helpful to say, but she spoke first. "They keep score. I mean about sex. And they're on me to 'get on the scoreboard'." Bettany turned red, "I'm sorry," she said and left. I called after her twice, then figured I'd better not push things.
Weeks went by and on a Friday afternoon, I saw bringing in a laundry basket from her car. "Hi, Bettany."
"I'm glad you're here, Kent," she said. "I'm sorry."
"Mmm, okay. For what?"
"I just ran off last time."
"Of all the things in the world to worry about, that should be last. Forget it."
"I just don't have anyone to talk to and I dumped on you."
"What about your mom, or BFF, or..."
"Oh, both my parents keep telling me how important the sorority is, how it will help me get established in life. I just want to run away, maybe quit school."
"I'm really sorry to hear that, Bettany. Puts you in a rough spot. But last time we spoke, you said you liked school. Are you sure you want to quit? Can you quit the sorority? I mean, if it's really not working for you... Have you told your parents about the pressure?"
Bettany shook her head, "I'm scared to death they wouldn't back me up."
"Oh, crap. Bettany, I'm so sorry."
"They call me zero."
"Zero?"
"Meaning I've never, you know."
"Another last thing you should worry about at your age. Everybody has their own time." Bettany looked at the ground. Clearly, college didn't get off to a great start for her.
"I'll try not to worry about it."
"At least you have options, and I think your parents would have an easier time if you left the sorority than if you left school altogether."
"Yeah. Mmm. Can you help me with something? My browser is really slow."
"Sure, Bettany."
I helped her clear her cache and cookies and so on. But when I went to clear her history, "Oh, no! No!" she cried and pushed my hand a little. "Oh, shit!" There were a number of porn sites coming up on her history. Bettany turned beet red and began to tear up and exclaimed, "I was just trying to educate myself. I don't know anything. The girls laughed at me and grilled me one night about all these terms..."
"Frank Zappa was right, ladies can be assholes too. It's alright. Another last thing to worry about. Really."
Bettany bent over sobbing with her face in her hands.
The pressure was on me now to say something helpful. It took me a few seconds and they felt like years. "Hey, Bettany. Good on you for educating yourself. Nothing at all wrong with it. And it stays between you and me. I won't say a word to anyone." Then I lifted my arm to put it around her, but stopped myself.