This is the true story of how I was pushed and seduced into losing my virginity. I have a good amount of background info - feel free to scroll down if you just want to read about the action.
This story takes place in the summer right after I graduated high school. I had just turned 18, as I had a summer birthday.
Growing up, my parents would always drag me and my 3 brothers to church functions. We, for the most hated it.
Our home life was quite turbulent in those years because my Mom was in the middle of a mental breakdown. In her struggle with mental illness she had turned explosively angry and verbally/emotionally abusive to everyone around her. It was incredibly draining dealing with her every day, and the last thing we wanted to do on the weekend was spend it at our stuffy church.
Going from her episodes directly to a place that was supposed to be spiritual went together about as well as toothpaste and orange juice. It felt really two faced having to go there and pretending everything was alright when it wasn't.
That all changed around age 16 for me. I had discovered youth group. At my high school I didn't have any tight friendships. I turned introverted and just wanted to survive it. I didn't do well in school due to having untreated ADHD.
Those youth group activities were really good for me at the time. It was a very emotionally safe place to be, and everyone in the group honestly loved me. I was actually popular there, the direct opposite of my experience in school.
One thing was bothering me, though. My friend Jasmine I had grown up knowing had turned fairly hyper sexual. She would always do inappropriate things at the group activities, bringing up the subject of sex whenever adults weren't around. One time at an event in a hotel she yelled out "don't look back!" as I left her hotel room. I responded with "ok" and didn't look. I knew what she was doing - she undoubtedly had stripped her shirt off and was going to claim it was an "accident". I had turned into something of a true believer, and did NOT approve.
I called her out on it once, and she had an interesting response - " you know, there are good reasons for that..." I never found out exactly what she meant, but I guessed it was some kind of sexual molestation in her past that made her act so hyper sexual.
I had turned into something of a social butterfly by then. I had a really awkward transition into adolescence complete with peach fuzz and bad acne. I hated the way I looked. That all changed for me senior year. I had somehow come out the other side and turned hot. I was slim and toned from playing in my soccer league. I started to get compliments fairly often, like being told I looked kind of like Leonardo Dicaprio. I was 6 foot and athletic looking, with green eyes and longish blonde hair.
Given that background, I would definitely describe myself at the time as "hot and doesn't know it". Jasmine, on the other hand, was a bigger girl, with a good amount of extra weight at the time. She was persian, but had really light skin, making her look more like a white girl. She had a pleasant and sweet face and absolutely HUGE boobs. I've always been a breast man and I would guiltily masturbate thinking about those humungous boobs.
Jasmine started acting strange around me. She became really vigilant about the other girls in the group, picking up on the fact that I had a crush on some of them. She would always disparage them to try to check my interest. Basically patrolling my interests.
After graduation, Jasmine started to tag along any time me and my group of friends got together. Thing is, she had continually pissed me off and made me irritable over the last year. She constantly told me I must be gay. I definitely wasn't, I was just trying to stick to my beliefs on chastity. She would, without any tact or humor badger me and test my limits. She also took any opportunity to touch me, like pretending to "keep me safe" by throwing her arm across my chest whenever the car stopped short. Basically copping a feel. I got to the point where I just didn't want to deal with her at all. Secretly, I thought about how ironic her behavior was, since I knew she might have a chance with me if she wasn't so mean to me all the time.
She was not the most subtle person in the world.
Of course in retrospect, the reason she was always so abrasive and obnoxious was because she liked me. She was basically on the level of middle school boys, being mean to the girls they liked because they didn't know what else to do.
At one point, we were at a friend's house watching some anime. The setup of the room was that there was a top bunk bed with no bed underneath it. My little brother, who was still really young at the time, was on the top bunk. Jasmine had managed to maneuver things so that we sat next to each other on the floor underneath the bed.
I felt resigned - she was inserting herself into everything, but at least she wasn't being abrasive at the time.
She showed signs of excitement, breathing quickly and with a flushed face.
I don't know what possessed me, but as I sat close to her with my arms crossed, I stared to kind of ripple my fingers along the side of her breast. I guess I was worn out by trying to be a chaste angel, and by her constant pursuit. I was 18, and my sex drive was through the roof.
She got more excited, grabbing my face and saying "you're so bad" and started to kiss me intensely. I was a little surprised, since - with my dumb teen reasoning - I had convinced myself that she probably couldn't feel my subtle touch through her shirt. As we kissed, she reached down and stroked my hard on through my jeans. My poor little brother. He couldn't see us from where he was, but he knew something was up from the way we were acting strangely.
After that, the floodgates were basically open regarding sex. Neither of us could hold back any more. (Not that she ever did, lol). I had to masturbate non-stop thinking about my first encounter with breasts. Huge breasts, at that.