Spoiler: I had sex with my best friend. On the day of her wedding.
Suzan and I met 30 years ago in college. Romance studies. I was the only man among a lot of women. Now, of course, everyone thinks: great, cock of the walk. But fiddlesticks. My female fellow students were mainly interested in literature and linguistics and were obviously not interested in me. Except for Suzan.
It quickly became clear that she had a crush on me. I found her likeable, but nothing more.
In the many years we've known each other, I've met a few of her lovers. Then 10 years ago she met Thomas. The two are, it can be said and seen, a happy couple. He is an engineer and she is a PR professional. He is down-to-earth and she is creative. They complement each other perfectly.
Then last year came the announcement: we're getting married. I was happy for them. And at the same time I was a little envious. In my own relationship, things tend to go up and down.
The wedding takes place at a mountain lake. Suzan looks gorgeous in her wedding dress. After the wedding ceremony, Suzan and Thomas each give each other a declaration of love. Honest and emotional. I am deeply moved.
Afterwards appetizers, toasts, and the usual small talk with the other guests. I am just talking to my partner when Suzan come up to me: "Could you please help me carry presents to our room? The gift table is getting too full."
"Sure." I say. I jam as many gifts under my arm as I can and follow her to the bridal suite.
There is restful silence after the noise in the ballroom. I put the gifts down.
"I have to go to the bathroom for a minute," she says with an apologetic smile und closes the bathroom door behind her.
I look around the suite. Clothes clutter, plates of leftover food, the bed unmade. "Interesting," I think. I only know Suzan as top organized.
I hear her pee and I realize: this is the closest I have ever been to Suzan in all these years of our friendship.
She comes out of the bathroom, her pantyhose in her hand: "Way too hot!". The pantyhose lands on a pile of clothes.