I would often walk alone in the Park in the summer holidays or at weekends in the fall. I liked being alone. On this particular day I was daydreaming of an incident on the bus the day before. A woman had sat down opposite me with her shopping bags on her lap and beside her. In her struggles she had parted her legs and I had been given a clear and wonderful view of her legs above her stockings and her rather baggy underclothes. The complicated stocking straps fascinated me. She saw me staring and closed her legs, but as she got up to leave she gave me another stare and parted her legs widely. I should have followed her, I suppose, to see if anything would develop. I didn't because I realized that was just desperation for any kind of sexual moment. It wouldn't happen again. That was all I was going to get.
The next day, warm summer day, there I was lying down in the sun, to the West of a big Oak tree. Dreaming of legs, stocking tops, and even the evocative sight of the small bumps that were beginning to show on my sister's chest. I took a quick look around to see if the place was deserted enough for me to try a little masturbation. Those glimpses had lit a fire in my hormones.
There was a man who seemed elderly to me at the time, but who was probably about 50, strolling across the large grass area toward me. I moved my hands away from my flies. He strolled by me and stopped. Had he seen me? Would there be trouble?
'Will you keep a watch out while I have a pee by the trees?' He asked. 'I'll give you a florin.' I gave him a careful look. He was clean, pleasant looking. Not much danger, and I might even get a glimpse of an adult penis to add to my library of fantasies. I got up and we walked to the trees. It wasn't the Florin, or his penis, really. It was the prospect of a new experience, although no glimpse he could offer could compete with what I really wanted -- a woman. We reached the trees and, after a quick look around he got his dick out.
'Why don't you have a pee, too? He asked. I thought that was pretty naΓ―ve, but I didn't mind. I got my dick out, which was already semi-hard and he predictably moved a bit closer. Then he reached out and got hold of it, quite gently. He began to rub me, again quite gently. I got properly hard, but I noticed that he did not. These years later I realize he had lost the ability to have an erection. Then, I didn't remark on it.
After having another look around, he knelt down and took my dick in his mouth. Nice. I had heard of it, but never even seen it, let alone experienced it. I pushed my dick forward and he bobbed. It wasn't long before I came in his mouth. He seemed delighted, and we walked back over the big lawn to a central spot where we were too far away for casual passers-by to see us, and sat down. Then we lay facing on another. I don't think there were any other people in the park at all to notice or be suspicious. He got his limp dick out again and I massaged it for him, but it didn't get any harder. He massaged me, and I did. We talked. I never knew his name although from that point I knew him for two or three years. I now know that 'Penile Erectile Dysfunction' does not preclude masturbation. Then, I just sensed that he desperately needed to cum. I took his dick and began to masturbate him as firmly, but as gently, as I could. Eventually he came quite a lot, spurting over he grass. I had never seen a man cum before and was fascinated. He wanted me to suck his cock, but I wasn't ready. He sucked me off once more and we parted after making a date to meet later the coming week.
Once, during this time, we went to a more private place and he kept fingering my bottom. I was young and unlined then. I thought, well, why not? I knew he was a clean old codger. I dropped my pants and he tried to get enough of an erection to stuff it in me. It just would not get hard enough. The poor devil was nearly in tears. I wondered why he didn't go with one of the sad women who hung about on the High Street at pub closing time, but in retrospect I think he didn't want the chance of a prostitute laughing at his inability.
I was filled with compassion for him, but there was no homosexual 'love' involved. This was sexual relief and experience, and gentle, without threat or extreme passion. I wouldn't have cared for that, and neither would he.