Although, I have been happily married for well over 30 years, I have known from a very young age that I had, and still have, feelings for the male sex but have always been very confused over my true sexuality. My wife and I used to have a good sex life but in recent years this has become almost non existent as she finds it so very difficult these days.
With more or less no sex life now, this set me on a different path in that although I love my wife so much, I need to relieve my own sexual desires. As a result, I started watching porn and increasingly Bi and gay and well as threesome films.
Ultimately, I started to research places that I could attend away from home to satisfy my desires. I have now visited and continue to do so, a number of gay saunas and found this a way of getting my sexual relief. However, I often think back to my first man to man experience. One of which I will never forget and more-so wish it could happen all over again.
Many years ago, I was self employed running my own business. Like a number of businesses, the majority of our work was local. But as the business grew, I decided to get some help. I employed a beautiful young man aged 18. His name is John and he lived locally. At this time, I was approx 22.
John, quite tall, always extremely smart, with nice short light brown hair and with a gorgeous fresh complexion. He always had a nice aftershave on which made him even more attractive. A beautiful boy who I feel could have easily been a male model. Needless to say, he was very pleased when offered the job and couldn't wait to start.
John took to the role easily and after a few months of getting to know each other, I don't know why, but we somehow had a real bond going between us both, almost reading each others mind and becoming more like brothers. Whilst the subject of sex was never brought up, some of his ways led me to believe he might be gay or Bi sexual. I never embarrassed him or quizzed him but I certainly thought he was.
Anyway, A job came into the office involving an overnight stop. Hire van loaded and bags packed, off we set off from Newcastle to the Bristol area. A good number of hours later, we arrived and managed to get unloaded. During unloading, John seemed to pull his back slightly.
"Ok John." I asked.
"I'll be ok." he replied.
It was then off to find accommodation for the night. The B&B we found only had a twin room left with breakfast. Out of courtesy, I asked John if that was Ok, before I booked the room or if we should look for another place. He replied,
"No problem, that would be nice."
Fresh-end up, it was then off to a local hostelry serving evening meals. We chatted like we had never done before and later got round to the subject of sex. He disclosed that so far in his life, he felt somewhat uncomfortable with girls and to date had not really had a girlfriend to speak of. With his looks, I was a little taken aback at that and realised that my initial thoughts may be true.
Confused about his sexuality, I was not surprised when he said he felt more attracted to men. Even though I had thought of it before, I was very pleased hearing him say it, especially having the same feelings myself and specifically for him. To be honest, I think I was falling in love with John and my mind was going mad. I told him not to worry about, it really didn't matter. He was a nice young man and would find out all in good time.
John then said,
"Since we started working together, don't you think we seem to be bonding very well with each other."
"I certainly do John." I replied.
"Have you ever been with another man John" I asked.
" Not yet, but I have a feeling it might not be long before I do" John said.
"Oh, hows that" I said.
"Well you have to admit we do get on really well. The bond we have together and the looks that I get from you, tells me you yourself might feel the same way. Isn't that so" John asked.
I was shocked, as I had obviously tried not to consciously show my interest in him and he as was normally so quiet, so I had to think quick.
Being honest with him, I said,
"Yes I do" and "what about you John"
"Well, I would love to try my first experience and see what it's like, but I would feel safer with someone I know." John commented.
I couldn't help notice, but by now, I could see that he had a nice bulge appearing in his trousers. And likewise, I could feel myself getting aroused after hearing his comments.
"Hows your back now John." I asked.
"Still a-wee bit sore." he replied.