The following is an expanded version of a story I wrote five years ago. In that story I sought to capture some of the intense closeness some men can feel for other men, a closeness borne out of shared experiences and common struggles that can often leave friends as close as brothers. I came back to this story because I really liked its message that nothing is more unpredictable than love, which may comes early or late, but always slips in by the back door. I got some fantastic comments to my last story and learned so much from them. For those of you who take time to read this story please consider leaving a comment, no matter how short. I know what I mean to say in a story, but I'm not always sure that comes through until I hear from readers.
Thanks, the author
Mike Kronos had made all the stops on his rounds except for one. In the course of one of day he had managed to work his way from one end of Baltimore's Old East Side to the other, tracking down his customers, cornering them, cajoling them, and all too often taking every cent they had. Today, Monday, was a busy day for him because it followed a busy weekend loaded with sports; but the fact was that every day was busy for Mike because he was at the beck-and-call of his clients twenty-four hours a day. In the course of a week he could easily see more faces than the average doctor or priest would; and he had to keep careful track of every one of those faces, not to mention the various sums large and small he regularly handed out or took in. The work consumed his days and nights, and Mike had been at it for longer than he cared to recall—longer indeed that most in his line of work. He had made a handsome profit in the business—but at what cost to his private life? He wasn't at all certain he wanted to continue doing it. But then, somebody had to. Such was the life of a bookie.
Mike Kronos was a tough guy, everybody on the East Side knew that. He had grown up on some of Baltimore's meanest streets. He had been on his own since the age of 17. He had worked the docks. He had been a marine. For five long years he had flexed muscle for Tommy Medina's gang. And he had made book in this working class corner of Baltimore for nearly eleven years. He wasn't afraid of anybody or anything—but he did dread what awaited him on this his final stop, which is why he had saved it for last.
He mounted the steps to the second floor walkup of his good friend Jake Tarnowa's crumbling old apartment building. Jake was the best friend Mike had ever had, closer to him than his own family. But now Jake owed his good friend money. By the standards of some of Mike's flashier, more freewheeling clients, it wasn't much—pocket change really. But for Jake who lived on a small disability check, it was a fortune.
For several years Mike had chosen to look the other way as Jake's debt mounted, preferring to keep his old friend safe and close to home. The expense of Jake's small weekly wagers didn't amount to much in the great scheme of things, Mike reasoned, and it was a small price to pay to keep Jake away from those sharks downtown that would have swallowed him and his monthly check in a single gulp. The only stipulation in this very special arrangement was that under no circumstances could Jake tell anybody about it. Time and again Mike had hammered this point home to Jake, emphasizing the disaster that might occur if he didn't keep it secret. And his friend seemed to understand. But then a little over two-and-a-half weeks ago when Mike was making one of his regular rounds, one of his most reliable customers begged off paying his tab, offering as an excuse, "The Jake Exception." With those three little words, Mike felt like someone had ripped a hole in his heart while simultaneously delivering a blow to his gut. Instantly, he was thrust into the painful process of damage control.
No bookie can survive a reputation for going soft, for cutting special deals for his friends or looking the other way on their debts. The long sordid history of street corner wagering was littered with the remains of bookies who had lost sight of this truth, and Mike was determined not to be one of them. But now he was confronted with the situation he dreaded most. As much as he hated to, he would have to impose a payment plan on his old friend and actually enforce it, that or cut him off entirely. Any way you cut it, no way was this not going to be a damned unpleasant conversation. Of course Jake knew what was coming. Mike had let him have it big-time on the phone right after he found out; but otherwise, the two had not talked since then. Mike had avoided Jake and the problem for as long as he could; now there could be no more delay.
How much damage this would do to their twenty-five year friendship Mike didn't have a clue. He could only hope it wouldn't end for good. But what other choice did he have? He was trapped. He knew it. And Jake knew it too.
Mike swallowed hard and pounded on the door. He was dying to get this whole ugly chore over with. He had his speech ready, it only waited to be delivered. When the door opened he launched into his spiel.
"O.K. Jake, now listen up . . ." But instead of Jake, there stood a tall, lanky, loopy-looking kid with a big grin and a shock of curly blond hair.
"Who the fuck are you?"
"Wow, you don't remember me. Gee, Mike, I sure as heck remember you. Come on in."
Not entirely certain he was at the right door, Mike peered in before taking a step inside. Sure enough, it was Jake's ratty old apartment.
"Where's Jake?"
"Towson. He went to see Unca Armin."
"Armin: that goddamn two-bit shyster lawyer, self-righteous son of a bitch," snarled Mike. "What's Jake up to going to see that asshole brother of his?"
"That's pretty funny coming from you, Mike. Can't you guess?" The youth's grin seemed to grow even wider. Mike noticed that the kid had not stopped smiling since he entered the place, and it was really starting to rub him the wrong way.
"I wasn't born with a lot of patience, boy. I would strongly suggest you answer the damned question."
"He went to earn some money, of course. So he could start puttin' a dent in that boatload of dough he owes you. Look, dude, he knows he messed up, like big-time. It really crushed him to see how he let you down. I swear he's been on the phone for days trying to scare up a loan or a part-time job or somethin', just so he can maybe buy back some of that trust he pissed away. He hasn't talked about hardly anything else lately. Callin' Unca Armin was like his last shot. Everybody knows Unca Armin's pretty tight and all, so Unca jake didn't really expect anything come of it, but somehow it did. Unca Armin told him to come out to Towson and he'd find somethin' for him to do for the next coupla weeks. It probably won't come to much money—but every little bit helps—right?"
"Wrong!
—you empty-headed little mop top," yelled Mike, driving his fist into his palm. "That's the absolute last thing I would ever want Jake to do: go crawling to that tightfisted sleazebag begging for help. Armin's a pig. He's always looked down on Jake because he didn't become some hot-shot piece-of-shit ambulance chaser like him. He'd love to get Jake up at his place and rub his nose in it by making him do every shit job he could find. And then probably wouldn't even pay him minimum wage. Call him. Get him back here. We'll find some other way to work this thing out."
"Too late for that, Mike. It's past five o'clock. Day's over. Unca Jake was doing some kind of painting in Unca Armin's house, but now he's finishing up. He called right before you got here and said I should keep you here if you showed up. I think he means to surprise you with a big check or somethin'. I'm tellin' you, guy: he's super psyched."