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Leander walked into the bar. It was pretty empty, not a lot of people went out drinking on a Thursday. He walked over to one of the booths and slid in, waiting for his companion to arrive.
Leander: I am here x
He pulled his hair into a loose pony tail and leant back. He needed some relief and he knew he wouldn't get it from Nile or Jason, they were too close to the problem.
"Hey sexy." Noah slid in opposite him and placed a bottle of beer down. "What's the problem?" Leander groaned and explained his sudden, reignited interest in Jason, Trevor's reluctance to try new sexual things and his insecurity.
"I love Trevor it's just..." Leander waved his arms. "I don't know."
"It's just that you're fucking crazy about your ex." Noah said flatly. Leander looked over at him. "What? Don't you look puzzled at me. We've known each other a while, you'd just split from him for good when we met if I remember correctly." Leander smiled, they had met outside the club one night, Leander had driven him home and they had made out for a while though it didn't go far as Noah told him he didn't bottom and Leander responded the same, but they had stayed close friends. "You were crazy over him then, on the rebound fucking everything that came your way. Now you've got this boyfriend who fills the need for a boyfriend but your heart is still with Jason."
"Is it that obvious?" Leander frowned, asking his beer more than Noah.
"Yes." Noah nodded. "At the club he's the only person you look at. You watch each movement, each step, everything he does. When you talk to someone else you still look at him. All that sexy dancing makes you overly horny and it's Jason you focus on."
"What should I do?" Leander looked miserable.
"Well." Noah drawled taking a drink from his bottle. "You either focus on Trevor and get on with your life being with him..." Noah stopped. "Or you leave him, as loving someone else isn't that nice for him."
"Yeah." Leander nodded slowly.
"Plus you need to sort yourself out, it's making you look drained and tired. It can't be good for you." Noah put his hand on his lightly. "So. How's Nile?"
"Urgh!" Leander laughed. "So I come here, drinking on a school night, to ask for life advice and you just want to check up on a potential fuck!"
"No! No!" Noah laughed. "I have talked with you, I have told you what I think wether it's what you waned to hear or not. Now I lighten the mood by asking about your severely hot friend."
"Nile is good. He has a date this weekend so I am not sure you'll be getting anything off him." Leander smiled. "I am not sure he'd put out, he's never really been with a guy. Obviously he had a brief fling with Jason but I am not sure if he'd let you top him."
"Aah but that is the fun in trying!" Noah smiled naughtily. "Its great to turn them."
"Well you better hope that his date doesn't work out!" Leander said. "But I hear he's pretty much on a promise."
"Bleh. Straight sex. There's nothing worse!" Noah shuddered and they laughed. They stayed for about an hour more before they parted ways. Noah said that he's see them Friday if they were out, Leander told him that it all depended on Trevor.
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Thursday had been hell. Trevor was still a little needy and Leander was feeling confused and worn out. Nile and Jason pretty much kept themselves to themselves, Nick sat with them and Jason stroked his side softly, feeling Leander's eyes on him. He knew the beautiful blonde had some issues to resolve and he wondered if his own feelings would come into play. Jason reckoned that he was probably just horny, he had loved the sex he'd had with Leander, raw, primal but it was more than that. He felt loved, he felt completely and totally loved and he'd loved him in return. He maybe should've said it more. That is what he missed with Nick, there was a type of love there but it was more lust with them. By the time Leander returned to his house with Trevor he was exhausted. Trevor seemed to be in a happier mood, he snuggled up on Leander, grinding onto his lap and kissing at his neck. Leander held him and kissed him back, pulling him close. Trevor slid back and began to feel at Leander's crotch. Normally he'd be hard by now but there was no growing bulge there. Leander just didn't feel up to it. He was confused and unhappy with how he was feeling and the talk with Noah hadn't helped. He had hoped Noah would just tell him what he had wanted to hear but being a true friend, he hadn't. But he didn't want another argument with Trevor, so he focussed his attention to another attractive black haired boy and let the guilt wash over him. Trevor seemed happy when he felt Leander's cock grown under his touch. He freed it and stroked it for a while before wrapping his lips around it.
"Ohh yeah." Leander moaned, leaning his head back on the wall. Trevor was good at giving head, very good for a first timer anyway. Leander congratulated himself for being such a good teacher. But by the gods Jason was the best. His lips, his tongue, his tongue stud, his deep throating skills. It was amazing sliding into that throat, feeling him pressed against him, humming his own pleasure at sucking cock. Oh so good. Looking down on that beautiful face when he'd come into his mouth, knowing he swallowed it happily, seeing his lips swollen from his cock sucking, shiny with spit and his cum. Swooping down to kiss them, tasting his cum on his lips, feeling his own need burning between his thighs. "Oh god Jason I'm going to come!" Leander moaned loudly and started to shoot. He felt Trevor's mouth leave his cock and looked to see him, the jets of cum had landed on his face, he looked pissed.
"What the fuck did you just say?" Trevor scowled.
"Huh, what?" Leander looked confused.
"You called me Jason." Trevor wiped his face with his shirt.
"No I didn't." Leander shook his head.
"You fucking did." Trevor snapped. "Were you thinking of him?"
"No!" Leander sat up, tucking himself away. "I wasn't at all!"
"Then why did you say it?" Trevor was close to tears again.
