Looking back on it now, it's hard to believe that age 27 I had never been fucked by another man. As a kid I'd had the usual sexual experiences with neighborhood boys but it never progressed any further than jacking each other off, or maybe licking another boy's maturing prick. In high school sex with girls was the goal of all the guys. Even so, the sex play with a couple close friends continued; secret and limited by the fear of being labeled a "homo" or a "fag" by the entire school. At college wild partying and keeping up the fraternity image led to sex with quite a few women. Although I occasionally found another guy attractive, or sexually stimulating, I had never taken action on my secret desires. My favorite uncle being banished from my family when he came out to my parents showed me I could never allow myself to be gay.
I met an incredible woman in college. Following graduation we moved into together and after two years we were married. We had a great sex life; I'd married my best friend and I thought the gay "demons" of my past had been beaten. Almost two years after being married I realized I'd made a big mistake. The fear of being disowned by my family and friends had suppressed any desires for men, but only temporarily. I found myself being attracted to many men - and often those I was attracted to would make passes at me. I began to explore the gay side of myself in bars, bookstores and bath houses. The experiences only made me feel worse about the double life into which I was falling, but I was becoming increasingly aware of the fact I was a gay man.
Although I'd had been jacking off with other men, and had my moments as a cocksuckee and cocksucker, I had never taken a cock up my ass. The thought scared me more than it excited me. Having seen my share of porno movies at a local gay movie theater, I actually thought the scenes of huge hard cocks going into tight little assholes were trick photography. I couldn't image something that big fitting into something so small. It had to be like sticking a square peg into a round hole. The guys in the porno flicks seemed to be totally thrilled with having their asses pounded. Having had nothing more than a finger up my ass I thought anything bigger would rip me in two. There was no way I could possibly enjoy it.
It was late in the summer and I was spending the afternoon at a nearby nude beach. The section of the beach farthest from the parking area was known as the gay beach, so I thought I'd walk the extra distance and check things out. Being late in the season, not a lot of guys were out enjoying the afternoon rays. I spread out my towel, lifted my tank top over my head and dropped my shorts. I laid down on my stomach and fell asleep in the warmth of the sun.
Some time later the vibration of someone walking nearby startled me awake. I lifted my head and saw a well-built guy with dark brown hair, and an all-over tan on his cute ass, walking away. He looked back over his shoulder, smiled at me, and kept walking until he disappeared over a sandy knoll. Just watching him walk away got the juices stirring in my cock and I had to lift my hips up to re-adjust things. Resting on my elbows I watched as several other guys, of various bodies types and builds, walked up and down the beach totally nude.
After a while I decided to go for a walk myself. Having come to this beach for several years I was totally comfortable being nude and around other naked men. I certainly had learned I had nothing to be ashamed of in the cock or body department. I always seemed to attract my share of attention in the natural setting of the beach. And, if my cock was constantly semi-hard, it didn't embarrass me or seem to bother the other guys.