Addicted to Porn and Then What

For me it started when I worked the middle shift and got off work at 11PM. I would go to a local adult bookstore that had arcade booths that had porn videos, both gay and straight, showing in private booths. The booths were about eight by six feet in size, enough room to be able to sit down and watch the porn shown on a mini screen against the wall of the booth. Most of the booths had holes cut in the walls, circular and usually round enough for a man to stick his cock thru and let someone suck it for him, or wide enough to look thru and see what was going on in the booth next to you. I began to stick mine thru the hole and let someone get me off by jacking me off or sucking me off.

All I knew was that I loved watching porn and seeing others having sex and then feeling the sensation of someone else satisfying me and getting me off. Sometimes I would watch the porn and get real horny and then go home and make wild love to my wife. It was so hot to go home and have her in the mood to suck me and then let me give it to her. Even if she was not in the mood, I would soon have her in the mood to take me inside of her as I kissed her all over her body and then slide my hardness into her and make love to her.

I just know that watching porn was really enjoyable to me anytime of day but at night no one would see me going into the adult book stores.

Sometimes a guy would stick his hard cock thru the hole into my booth but I was not interested in satisfying them, not yet anyway. I was 21 and just getting started with my active sex life. Married only one year and making love to her often and going to the bookstores for more and more sex, letting other guys get me off.

Sometimes I would get a blow job at the bookstore and then go home and get another blow job at home, or make love to her. Getting off twice in the evening, late at night.

At times I was sitting in the parking lot of an adult bookstore at night and a guy would walk up to my car and start talking and offer to blow me in my car. I would let him in and take out my cock and he would suck me off right there or I would drive to another location where he would get me off.

Wanting it so much, I would go to the bookstores in the daytime too. Even ran into other guys I knew...and we always ignored each other. Well, usually..;until one time I ran into the pastors son. He was in the booth next to me and I saw him sucking a cock on the other side of his booth. Wow, that was so hot to see him doing that. So, I stuck mine thru my hole and. soon felt his warm mouth on my cock. Boy was he good. I really enjoyed his mouth. I made sure that when he walked out of his booth I walked out and said, "thank you" to him. He was scarred but I stopped him and said his secret was safe with me as long as he took care of. me. he agreed and I met him lots of times after that.

Some guys told me about places in city parks where guys went to give head to other guys so I would learn about them later. Right now I was interested in watching porn and getting off.

On two separate occasions I was getting sucked thru a hole in the wall and the guy would stop sucking me, wait, and then begin again...or at least I thought it was his mouth. But it felt different. Being new to this life style I just didn't know....but soon found out that some guys would suck me and then slide my hard cock into their rear and I would be fucking them in their ass. I realized this when I looked down and I could tell where my cock was going and I stopped. I did not want to do that.

One time I was driving home from the bookstore and picked up a young hitchhiker. I asked him where he was going and he said, "wherever". I did not realize what he meant and told him so and he said, "park anywhere and I will suck you off". OH, that would be hot, to have this young stud suck me. I parked behind a building as he went down to my lap and unzipped my pants and took out my cock and started sucking me. Oh it felt so wonderful. Such a cute and good looking guy with my hardness in his mouth. I soon shot off into his mouth and he swallowed it all and thanked me. I let him off back on the road.

So, after that I would drive around looking for hitchhikers to satisfy me. I found lots of them, usually good looking young guys wearing shorts. Most wanting to suck cock and some wanting me to suck them. But I was not into pleasing them, yet.

I did get curious about sucking cock a few years later. And one night I drove to a local park with condoms in hand. I parked my van in the park and slid the side door of my van open and just say there. The first guy came over to me and took out his cock, no talking, he just took it out and as I sat there in my van, with my legs on the ground, he walked up to me and pulled my head down to his cock. I asked him to put on a condom and he complied and then thrust his hard cock into my mouth. This guy was about 6'0" 190 with 7" cock about 30 years of age and loved being sucked as much as I did.

It felt wonderful to finally have a cock in my mouth and I eagerly sucked it for him, I felt compelled to satisfy him and give him sexual satisfaction. This being new to me I really did not know what to expect. I was just experimenting. As I sucked him he started moaning and soon had my head in both of his hands and he filled the condom he wore with his cum. He pulled out, removed the condom and left.

The next guy soon came over and asked if I sucked cock and I replied "oh yes sir" and he took it out and I handed him a condom. He was young also, about 20. 5'10". 170 and had a nice 6" cut cock that was soon in my. mouth. He started talking to me, telling me how much he appreciated being able to fuck my mouth. He told me I was the best cock sucker he had ever had and said he had let men suck him since he was 10 years of age. He soon was filling the condom and pulled out, removed the condom and threw it on the floor. He asked how long I had been sucking and I told him that this was the first time and he was the second one. He complimented my passion and told me it felt good to him. Then he kissed the top of my head and left.

The next guy, and soon after the last one, was older. Standing a good 6'4" and weighing in at 220 he must have been closer to 50 or 60 and still good looking. When he took out his monster cock I just sat there and starred at it in amazement. It seemed to be about 10 inches and fat. He started masturbating in front of me and edged closer to my mouth. I asked him to put on a condom and he said it was too small. So, I played with and stroked his big cock and soon found it in my mouth and he held my head and called me names, dirty names like "sissy faggot and cum slut" as he shoved his big cock in and out of my wanton mouth. I felt violated as he raped my mouth but I wanted it very much. I felt good being able to suck his cock for him.

He pulled out of his mouth and stroked his cock and told me to show him mine. I stood up and dropped my pants as he took hold of my cock and was soon on his knees sucking me. He was very good at it and made me feel so good.

He then played me back into my van as he removed my trousers and shorts and had my legs over his shoulders.

He was going to fuck me with that monster cock. I let him get it close to my ass but soon stopped him and told hime, "no no no, I could not handle it". I told him I had never had it in my ass before and he apologized. He then went back down on me and sucked me until I shot off into his mouth. He thanked me and left.

I was very nervous about almost being torn apart by that big cock.

I drove home and slept very good that night, next to my wife who told me the next day that she had been wanting me to make love to her the night before but had fallen asleep before I got home.

After that experience with the man wanting to take me, use me and fuck me, I started having fantasies and visualizing about being fucked like the guys in the porn videos I so often watched. I started watching gay porn exclusively at the adult bookstores and jacking off thinking about being fucked by men.

One day when I was at a local park cruising for sex with other men, I stumbled across a fence along the river in my home town. There was a section that was cut in the fence so being curious I parked and walked thru the fence. It was a path leading into the woods. I soon found an area that had once been an amusement park, since long deserted. I walked around wearing short shorts to show off my legs.

I soon found several other guys walking around. Young and old alike, all looking for sexual satisfaction.

The first time I took cum into my mouth was when I went down on a black college guy who was in the park. I sucked him while on my knees and as I took his cock out of my mouth to ask him something, he moaned and groaned and shot off onto my cheek and I put his cock back into my mouth and swallowed it all. I enjoyed that very much.

I found an older guy and we started chatting and he soon was rubbing my crotch and I took out my cock and he bent over and started sucking me. As he sucked me another guy, in he early 30's walked up to us and took off his pants and was soon fucking the older man as the 0lder guy sucked me.

The. younger guy told me, as he fucked the old man, that he had fucked him before and that is why the old guy was letting him fuck him.

I asked the young guy if he would consider fucking me, telling him that I HAD NEVER HAD IT BEFORE..

The guy, Scott, told the old man to leave and Scott and I talked. I just told him I wanted to try it, please. So Scott took me to another location where there was an empty building in the park. He told me disrobe and bent me over and licked my ass, to lube me up he said. Once he had me "lubed" he very slowly inserted his cock into my ass. He was so gentle and slow and It felt so wonderful to feel him inside of me. Gawd I wanted it so much. I begged him to "fuck me, please".

As he slowly began a rhythm of fucking me it began to hurt as he got deeper inside of me. I finally had him stop, as it hurts so much.

I left and went on to work.

But while I was at work all I could think about was Scott's cock inside of me. I wanted it so much.

So, on my break I returned to the park. And, three hours later Scott was still there. I told him I could not get this experience out of my mind. So, he had me disrobe and he bent me over again and was licking my ass and lubing me up even more this time.

As I felt his cock enter me I pushed back, to take it even deeper and felt it being shoved into me. Oh it hurt quickly, but I wanted it. So I told him to, "take me, give it to me, please, please"

Scott, still going gentle with me started a smooth rhythm and was soon fucking me deep and penetrating me just like I imagined. As he fucked me all I could think about was how wonderful it was to be outdoors, in broad daylight, being fucked by another man.

Scott had a hold of my hips ad he gave it to me deep and hard now, thrusting it into my man pussy. Gawd I was in heaven. When he was ready to cum he pulled out and shot off, covering my ass cheeks with his cum. I felt his cum run down my legs and loved that feeling too.

We talked and talked and he invited me to his place anytime he wanted it again. He told me about his first time and times since then. About how numbers men would take him, one at a time, one after the other.

I did visit with him at his apartment numbers times just to let him, or have him, fuck me silly. I had my own lover to fuck me and I enjoyed it.

I can only say, for now, that my trips to the parks became more frequent and I wanted to be fucked more and more.

I can remember two black men who took advantage of me, one at a time, by the river at night. Being taken while bent over the hood of my car in daylight, by a young park worker who saw me sitting in my car and came over and chatted with me....leading to him taking me out of my car, pulling down my pants and penetrating me right there in the park. He came in no time and actually came inside of me.

Another time I was walking thru the woods at a park and found to men masturbating each other. They stopped when they saw me until I took out my cock and walked over to them and we took turns sucking each other....then the older one bent me over and filled my ass with his cock as the other one watched.

I was young and cute enough to be wanted by most of these guys and I loved the attention and wanted so much to be used sexually.

When the parks were not patrolled so much b y the police, it was fun and easy to have sex.......today it is still possible, we just have to be careful and not so open about what we want.

When I started crossdressing and going to the parks for sex, it was a different story.....

Mike. aka. Trisha