I kneeled in the temple and wore my ceremonial garb. A white robe clothed my body and stuck to my skin due to the sweat that clung to it. The temple was modest, a small idol of a bull holding a snake as it tried to bite at him while crushing another one under hoof. It was Fentrin; the God of Elders and Elder of all Gods. He was always my favorite when I was a young bull and I still found myself coming back to his shrine.
"Still here pondering and not out farming on your last day of adolescence?" a voice said off to my side. A shadow moved in my peripheral, stepping over the kneeling pillows with careful precision. "I see you moved the pillows to your liking."
My ears swiveled in the direction of the sound and I gave a small sigh.
"Hello Shrine Mother."
"Hello again, Tysius."
The Shrine Mother walked forward with such grace and elegance that it cemented the fact that she was blessed by the Gods themselves. She came down next to me and kneeled, her own robe fluttering for a moment and she smiled softly at me. Her hand moved down to clutch my own and I gripped it tightly for a moment.
"I can feel your heartbeat..." she mentioned off-handedly, her voice as soft as morning dew.
I shuffled awkwardly, my body large and lumbering. The robes were tight on my muscles and clung to me as her golden eyes looked me over.
"I am...scared."
I looked at her for any signs of disappointment or was preparing myself for a long lecture about what it meant to be a bull but it did not come. Her eyes simply gazed into my own and she gave a wise smile. My heart leapt in my chest and I was waiting on her every word. I adjusted my kneeling posture once again and she clicked her tongue.
"You know, I raised you from birth," the Shrine Mother replied calmly, clutching my hand. "Me along with seven other clergy. We know you."
She turned my hand over and her fingers began to trail down my own. She passed my palm and moved to my wrist to find my scar. It was unique; the pattern was a circle with a cross through the middle and her fingers then traced across it with practiced precision.
"Look at the statue in front of you. Study it closely. Look where my fingers lie."
I sighed. We did this a thousand times. I looked at the statue's wrist and noticed the mark along it. Fentrin shared the same scar as me. Every time I looked at the scar and then to Fentrin's eyes in the statue, a familiar shiver shot up my spine. The Shrine Mother noticed it and smiled.
"Do you see it or do you feel it?"
I said nothing at first and continued to stare at the shrine in front of me. As I breathed in, the smell of incense followed with it. The great pines that stretched across our beautiful and bountiful valley were productive this season and the cones that they dropped had a pleasant scent when burned. The oils that were burned with them filled my lungs and gave a soothing coolness before I exhaled and in a puff of air, the oil lathered air was removed from my body. I repeated the breathing exercise that the Shrine Mother taught me.
"Both. What does it mean, Mother?" I said after the long pause.
"All will be revealed to you when you go to the Elders, brother. For now, continue to pray and know this will be the last day you are out toiling in the fields or fighting with a spear in hand..." the Shrine Mother replied.
The thought calmed my mind and I took another deep breath before rising upward. I continued to look at the statue, my mind now brought under control. The fear that once lingered was gone and I turned to look at my Shrine Mother. She was smiling from ear to ear and knew full well what the twinkle in my eyes meant.
"I do not wish to pray anymore. I want to start the Choosing..."
The Shrine Mother smiled. "You have already started it, brother. Go to the Elder's Cabin and you'll find that some have already arrived. Hurry forth and come back a man."
I made my way out of the room feeling like a force of a thousand winds. I ignored the other private rooms of the temple and continued my way forward. Bulls of every age and stature lined the room. Hooves echoed off marble and all were dressed more casually. They cleared out of my way when they saw the red garb that flowed across my body and showed that I was ready to take the next step forward.
Exiting the temple, I walked underneath the towering columns that held up the temple's entrance and was immediately welcomed by the mountain's freezing winds. My hide was tough, however and my resolve was tougher as I went forward dressed inappropriately for the weather. The elders instructed to wear no underclothes. My loincloth and shirt were discarded back at my hut and folded neatly on my bed back at home.
At first I felt ashamed of my nakedness under my robes but that swiftly turned to excitement .I felt liberated with each step, The freedom brought forward confidence and added a swagger to my pace.Snow blanketed the ground and made my brown fur stand out as the light flakes fell from the sky and dotted the log cabins we made from the pines that stretched across the range.
When I finally made it to my destination, I noticed there was no one outside. A light flickered underneath the doorway which was covered by an ornate cloth and I could hear what sounded like chatting going on inside. It was light and sparse, but made me feel confident I had found the right place and strolled in.
Immediately, heat hit me. The room was well lit and large enough for all the Elders and initiates to have plenty of room. On the far end of the wall, statues to our Gods were set up in order from importance and hierarchy.