That's why I believe you are a closet gay waiting to be released, so do you, which is nothing to be ashamed off. Are you willing to explore this with me today to see if you are, or not? I can show you what it is like to be gay without actually having sex together or I could fulfil your curiosity."
I knew Bjorn was right, in part at least, so I confessed.
"Inwardly I think I might be gay, my co-worker Zac whom I shared a work pod with and work with on a day to day basis is openly gay, not camp or anything like that and I somehow feel attracted to him, possibly I even overcompensate for it.
We go out for beers together after work on a Friday afternoon as does most of the office, one day he invited me to join him, his partner and friends at a beach barbeque, subsequently we all went out for meals as a group which I enjoyed. Some of his friends thought I was gay too and hit on me for casual sex as they thought there was more to my relationship with Zac than work. Zac and his partner have an unusually open relationship.
At a bar one night one of his friends came over to speak to us called Thomas who I thought was gay, Zac introduced me to him and he joined us for the rest of the evening. Apart from both of us being reserved we seemed to get on very well from the outset and had some common interests, it was one of those fate things, we both had tickets for an open air all night music festival the following night just outside Utrecht and agreed to travel to it together.
We both lived in the same part of town so we traveled home together that night on the tram and we seemed to bond further, even after we got off the tram we stood talking for a while, both of us reluctant to part. But we did, that night I didn't sleep thinking about him, the following Monday I found out from Zac he had the same sleep issue.
We met the following night at the same tram halt, Thomas had suggested as it was a gayish type music festival we go dressed in short tight fitting shorts, tops and trainers. It took us about an hour to get there only to find it had been canceled at the last moment, something to do with an amplifier failure. Took us about the same time to get back to the tram halt but Thomas was very quiet and distant unlike our outward journey where we were engrossed in each other, initially I thought it was the disappointment of the music festival being cancelled.
No it wasn't; he didn't know if he wanted to get into a relationship with me although he initially thought he might like to; the Zac influence. He even went to Amsterdam the preceding Sunday like me provocatively dressed with the intention of being picked up, but wasn't. Now he was less sure if he was gay I didn't know what to say we parted and went our own ways."
I said to Bjorn "here and now, like Thomas I don't know if being openly gay was something I wanted but I do feel a sort of attraction to you."
I tried to change the course of the conservation as I was losing my confidence by commenting on it being a hot day. Bjorn said his hotel had a roof top swimming pool and spa area and did I want to go and sit there in the sun and have a beer with him. I knew I had lost trying to redirect the conversation and said "yes" still don't know why, but I did.
It wasn't far so we walked there crisscrossing over the canals including crossing over the famous Skinny Bridge, talking as we went about anything and everything but being gay. In part, I was still hopeful of diverting away from his intent behind us going to his hotel, but I was getting more and more excited about it. It was then that I said that I didn't have any swimwear with me, which was obvious.
Bjorn said "ok I can arrange it at the hotel."
We arrived at the hotel's impressive entrance retrieved his key from reception then he took me over to the hotel shop, there was plenty of swimwear for sale, but, were all rainbow or gayish colours and alluring in their cut. It turned out it was an exclusive hotel like I thought but with a predominantly gay clientele.
Two very camp in speech and mannerisms shop assistants came over, Bjorn told them what we wanted and we were directed behind some screens and asked to strip off almost naked as they started to measure us up. I had never experienced anything like that before when buying swimwear it was quite an enchanting and exhilarating experience as we stood there facing each other. A few minutes later they brought two pairs of matching bikini type rainbow paneled swimwear, after trying them on behind the screens we found they were a perfect fit. Bjorn charged both to his room key card.
He then invited me up to his room to get changed and go to the pool somehow after my confessions I felt comfortable in his presence and went with him to his roof top room, which turned out to be an executive suite. It had a private veranda and entrance to the pool area. We changed together in his bedroom avoiding exposing ourselves to each other and were soon standing there together in only our swimwear.
He looked at me smiled and gestured with his hand inviting me to join him in his big bed, somehow I now felt ok about it although I didn't know what to do next. I slipped off my swimwear first, he followed, and we both stood their naked facing each other our anatomies betraying our mutual intension's as we embraced then fondled each other before we lay down on the bed together.
By now my heart was palpitating and I could feel wetness forming.
Bjorn recognising my nervousness, insecurity and lack of confidence came over and embraced me with his warm naked body. Starting off with hands-on foreplay exploring my body curvatures, hardness and crevasses which I found seductive and arousing, he could feel my approval as I pressed on him. He then invited me to explore his body intimately we quickly got to know each other, his hand rubbing and gentile touching had an endearing way about it.
It wasn't long before I felt him reach down and slowly start to stroke me, instantly I felt this was what I wanted him to do quickly becoming aroused and wet by it, my body language inviting him to bring me fully on. I was so engrossed by the sensation off it I didn't notice he had leaned over me until I felt him start to nibble my nipples, my ears, my lips then our tongues touched as we embraced each other, it was then I started to climax over his hand, as out tongues touched again I fully climaxed.
We froze together as we relished that moment, I was very conscious of his hand still holding me as I drained out over it our tongues still seductively embracing each other. It must have been the excitement of being propositioned, laced coffee, being outed, the slow build up and being selected to have sex for the first time with a complete stranger. The extent of my load was prolific and copious which Bjorn seemed to relish. We separated and lay there together still holding each other knowing what would come next.
Bjorn slowly rolled me onto my back placing pillows under me, pushed my knees up as he lent over, all this was new to me so I allowed him to prepare us for pleasure. He fitted protection, pulled and adjusted my steading pillows into position and to rest on, then applied warmed oil which was my first time and it was an erotic experience as he applied it. I lay there still tense about what was going to happen next but had confidence in him, I felt him press gently but firmly. I had read that this first time experience was challenging, what happened next was over in a moment, I had overheard Zac say once it felt like what velcro sounded like as it opens.
I felt him slowly engage, ever so gently no pain just a smooth gentle pressure creating an infilling experience which was unbelievable as we fully engaged. I felt him touch inside creating a solitary moment of ecstasy for me I had never felt anything like that before. Slowly slowly he started to undulate it felt like a single continuous movement of unparalleled joy, my ecstasy was now inducing me into undulations in harmony with him as I sought more and more moments of ecstasy.
Gradually I started to feel intermittent signs he was about to cum, and he did with two or three final lunges as he unloaded. I could feel the pressure of it expand, linger then drain, it was a wonderful experience, as we parted he rolled over lay alongside me smiled as he gestured my turn.
We lay until I had calmed down from my first gay sexual high, once I was relaxed we changed positions. I was so unsure of what I should do next, as he tutored me he positioned himself in readiness. I started not being experienced a few times he said slowly and gentle. After we engaged which was not as difficult as I first thought it would be but seemed to take a long time, I started to undulate each time plowing deeper but it took me a few times before I finally touched him.
Before long I started to establish a slow relaxing rhythm, this I had done before, not gay though, and athletically too. I started to feel I was about to cum I was wrong it was a phantom cum I persevered savoring the erotic sensation until I was able to fully cum. I felt a great moment of achievement, ecstasy and joy at that point, it was then I knew that Bjorn had correctly outed me as wanting to be gay.