The following story is a little more autobiographical than I thought it would be - most of it is true. If you have any suggestions or comments, I'd love to hear them. I am always looking to improve my writing.
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After my first encounter with Charlie, I was hooked. Whenever I had enough time to make the drive over to see him, I would, and Charlie would suck me off. As the idea of being with another man (and an older one at that) became less alien to me, I began to wonder about the other things we could do. I wanted to know how it felt to kiss another man, to feel his bare torso with my hands, to give him pleasure. After yet another mind-blowing liftoff courtesy of Charlie, I expressed my desires to him while he handed me the customary washcloth to clean up.
"Charlie, you know how much I like all this-"
"But you want to try something else." He grinned at me. "I had a feeling that was going to happen. I've always enjoyed playing ambassador to visiting dignitaries," he laughed. "And there's lots of places to explore in this land. What do you want to do?"
I suddenly felt flushed, my face betraying my discomfort at the frankness of his question. "Well, I, uh-- I want to know about fucking," I blurted out.
"Fucking? Who's doing the fucking, me or you?"
"Well I am curious how it feels to be fucked. I've seen some videos..."
He chuckled. "And you want to know why anyone would want a dick in there?"
I laughed. "Yep."
Charlie replied in an almost paternal tone, "I appreciate your enthusiasm, but I think you're jumping the gun a little bit. You've never kissed a man before, is that right?"
"No."
"And it probably follows that you've never sucked anyone off either, right?" The line of questioning was beginning to sound condescending. Charlie was adept at reading me and quickly reassured me. "Hey, I'm not making fun of you, I'm just thinking out a good road map for you. If you don't have anywhere to be, we could maybe try a few more things..." He grabbed my arm and slowly rubbed it.
I felt the sudden sinking feeling in my chest as my anxiety returned. I took a deep breath, looked up from the floor, and met his gaze. "OK, Charlie, I think that's a good idea."
"Alright, well this time you are the one in control. I want you to go as slowly as you want, enjoy yourself, do what you feel! And remember, we can stop whenever you want to." He stood up and motioned me to get up. When I did he slipped off his shoes and hopped right in the middle of the bed with a meaty 'whump' sound. He looked over at me expectantly with his arms outstretched. "What do you say we start with a hug?"
He spread his legs and I climbed up to him on my knees and let my hands go to his waist, sliding up to his armpits. He smiled and folded his big arms around me. It was such a warm feeling; he rubbed his hands on my back and whispered in my ear, "You're a beautiful young man, do you know that?" I looked into his sapphire blue eyes and touched his lips to mine. In the back of my mind I had thought that kissing a man must be the opposite of kissing women, but I was surprised at how similar it really was. He had warm soft lips that moved in response to mine. I opened my mouth, Charlie took a deep breath and moved his tongue in. I felt the hairs on the back of my neck stand up and a tingly vibration travel up and down my spine. He must have sensed that I had gone limp because he rubbed his hands up and down my back, finally giving my butt a squeeze.
I pulled back finally and looked at him. "Wow" was all I could muster.
He grinned, "I figured you were a good kisser. Your girlfriends ever tell you that?"
"Never" I replied.
The look on his face was a mixture of surprise and pity. "Well that's a real shame. They must not have known how lucky they were." His voice brightened a bit. "Alright, where are we going now?" He asked expectantly.
I smiled briefly, sidled back a little bit and felt that familiar anxiety again; I was at a loss as to what to do next. The fantasies I had had about Charlie all seemed to flow so organically from one activity to another. It almost felt like saying anything out loud would make it contrived and inauthentic. However, even something as simple as hugging and kissing was almost complete sensory overload. Step by step, for me, at least, was the best way. Charlie pulled another pillow under his head and watched me placidly.
"I just want to touch you right now." I said. Charlie relaxed into the bed and said nothing. I ran my hands from his knees and up to his torso, trying to feel every bit of him. I gently untucked his shirt from his pants and loosened a couple of the bottom buttons. I said softly, "Would you please take it off for me?"