I was finally alone. My family was off to visit relatives out of state so I was left to myself. I had quite a list of projects to tackle while I had the house to myself so it wasn't like I was just on vacation. I also had a full work schedule. With so much on my table I decided to head straight to the bar as soon as their tail lights faded in the distance.
I sat down and immediately began flirting with the bartender. She was a gal I'd know for a year or so and a gal I'd like to date if I wasn't married...but I am, and she knows it. I still enjoy getting some of her attention once in a while.
I love my wife and family but my sexual needs and desires had been left unattended for years now so at least on some level I was hoping to find someone to share physical intimacy with again. I'll admit I'd been fantasizing about taking the opportunity this week. I was hoping to find another lonely soul to share some no strings attached sex. I knew it was just wishful thinking but here I am right now, opening myself to the universe and hoping for a connection. Really hoping to hook up with Irina - but knowing in my heart that it won't happen.
The fellow that I sat next to at the bar seemed to be in a very similar situation. We struck up a conversation that quickly confirmed my assessment. He too was quite stricken by Irina's beauty and charm. We both laughed at each other since we were both much older and neither of us would really be in her league even if we were closer to her age.
"I'm Colton" he said "can I buy you a drink?"
"I'm James" I responded "but you can call me Jamie. And yes, I'd love another drink."
He was a well dressed man in his mid 50's, like myself. He had a full head of salt and pepper hair, neatly trimmed. His face was clean shaven and very handsome. When he smiled his hazel eyes sparkled. He was very well mannered and spoke slowly in a soft, deep voice.
We continued to talk and he bought me another drink.
Our conversation eventually turned to our real reason for being here today. He too was feeling physically lonely and had come to see Irina even though he knew it would never be...
"Jamie" he said as he ordered me another drink "let's move over to a booth where it's a bit more private."
He picked up his drink and reached over to me, helping me out of my seat and directing me towards an open booth. He kept his hand on the small of my back as we made our way across the room.
I set my drink on the table and sat down while Colton stood beside me. He motioned for me to slide in further and he took his seat next to me instead of across from me.
It was at this moment that I felt my first flash of my femininity. Up to now in my life I'd always been the "man" in any sort of intimate scenario. I felt so pleasantly confused by this bizarre turn of events. I was afraid- but at the same time I was really enjoying the treatment I was receiving. After all, it was physical intimacy that I was searching for and it seemed like my needs were being catered to, even though it was a man who was treating me this way. Despite that fact I felt a twinge in my loins. I've never been attracted to a man before but I'll admit to feeling as though I wanted to please Colton in some special way for treating me so graciously.
"Jamie" he said as our eyes met "tell me why you're really here tonight."
Although we'd both talked earlier about being here to see Irina, it seemed now that we both knew that the reasons for us being here were much deeper. I opened up to him in a way I haven't done before. I told him how I craved the human touch and how I longed for some intimacy in my life. I felt so comfortable talking with Colton about my physical loneliness.
He also opened himself up to me as well and I found myself genuinely interested in his story. He had been widowed a little over a year ago after a 24 year marriage. He was really just now opening himself up to the prospect of physical intimacy.
He finished his drink and asked me if I'd like to continue our evening at his condo.
Without even thinking I responded "Yes, I think I'd like that."
I finished my drink as Colton went up and settled our tab with Irina.
He returned to the table and took me by the hand helping me to my feet. "After you" he said. I passed him as I made my way out. I felt his hand on the small of my back again as he guided me towards the exit. I swear I saw Irina wink at me as we left...
Colton stepped around me and opened the door. We walked to his car, his hand guiding the small of my back again, and he opened the passenger door for me. I got in and got situated. He closed my door gently and got himself into the driver's seat.
We were quiet as he drove.
I was nervous as we headed into the darkness. He was focused on his driving while I was taking this opportunity to study his facial features and look at his body. He was similar in size and shape to me but a couple of inches taller. His hands were strong and his arms were long. I couldn't help glancing towards his lap. I was becoming curious about him sexually. I was experiencing a flood of feelings and curiosity that I've never felt and certainly didn't anticipate...
We pulled into the garage at his condo and parked.
Colton turned off the engine and I started to reach for the door handle...
"Wait Jamie..." He said as he put his hand on my thigh.
I froze.
He pulled his hand back and got out of the car and opened my door for me. I felt so special. For the first time in my life I understood why women like that so much. It made me feel pretty. It made me feel appreciated.