Authors notes --
- This story contains a consensual sexual relationship between two adult men that consists of a slow build romance, and BDSM (including bondage, dominance and submission, whips, and various sexual encounters). Not all chapters will contain sexual encounters, but many will. If you are uncomfortable with any of these elements, please pass on this story rather than placing yourself in an uncomfortable situation and/or rating it unfairly. Thank you!
-Sorry for the delay with this chapter. While most of this story is written, it is in its rough form and each chapter needs to be cleaned up and fleshed out before publishing it here.
These men are the result of my need to lose myself in something spicy in order to clear writer's block as I work on a longer novel. While I'm thrilled to say they have indeed managed to assist with this, it means I stepped away from their story and back to the novel for a bit.
I'll get the rest of their tale here for you in the next few weeks!
-The next two (?) chapters will be fairly sex heavy before slowing down a tad for the final two (?).
While this is certainly a BSDM inclusive piece, it is at its heart, a love story. As a result, the remaining chapters will include both BDSM elements, and a bit more focus on the story itself (including a few softer sexual interactions). I have no idea how readers will respond to that, as it might end up with a bit too much BDSM for romance seekers, but a bit too much romance for a BDSM piece LOL. I guess we'll see!
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The following few weeks were some of the most enjoyable I'd ever experienced. As a result, they passed far too quickly. We ate most of our meals together, and Alexander spent each Friday and Saturday night at my side at the club. Despite our busy and often conflicting schedules we found time for 3-5 play sessions a week. During each of these, we incorporated elements we had already found we enjoyed while continuing to explore our new sexual and power dynamic relationship.
Given how much I'd already enjoyed our short time together, it came as little surprise that as we expanded our activities, Alexander's boundaries seemed to pair perfectly with my own. We found he greatly enjoyed being bound, including some level of pain or discomfort during our sessions, and playing with pressing his own limits. He was also incredibly sensual and responsive, seeming to find equal enjoyment in moments of soft touch and aftercare.
We spoke in depth about the two exhibitions I wanted us to engage in during our time together and we agreed that the first would be relatively similar to our first hard session together. He'd be lightly bound while I used whips or floggers for a short time. He also expressed a great deal of interest in exploring emotional submission, and very much wanted to attempt a touch-free exhibition like he'd witnessed on our first night together at the club. While there was no guarantee he could learn to finish hands free, we were both fascinated by the idea of working toward it and decided that if the next few months went well in that area, that would be our plan. It felt as though everything was settling into place perfectly and easily for us.
Three weeks later as we sat quietly at dinner he spoke hesitantly after a long silence "Can I ask for white?"
I smiled kindly, nervous about where this was headed. "White is a safe word. You never have to ask to use it."
He nodded and his eyes searched mine for a long time before he spoke again.
"Have I done something wrong?"
My fork fell to the plate. I was dumbfounded.
"Wrong?" I barely stammered out the word. I wasn't sure how to process what was happening.
He nodded once.
It broke me. I'd been more comfortable and found more enjoyment in our brief relationship than I had with any other sub, or any purely romantic partner for that matter (if I counted my youthful forays when I still believed such a thing might be possible for me).
"You are the most engaging, responsive, and amazing sub I've ever had. Please Alex. Tell me what I could have gotten so wrong that it could have led you to feel you may have done something incorrect."
He cringed as I spoke and peddled back as he began, "Don't get me wrong Grey. My time with you has already been the most erotic, insightful, exploratory time of my life. And I know every dominant is different. Hell, every person is different really, so I suppose it's possible that it hasn't even crossed your mind."
I rose as he spoke and made my way to his side, crouching beside the table and taking both of his hands in mine as he turned to face me. It was not the move of a dom. It was simply the move of a confused man.
"Alex. Please. What am I not giving you that you need? Tell me so that I can offer it."
"When I read through the contract, I was excited, honestly I was relieved that intercourse was listed."
My heart dropped. I knew I'd been holding that back, but it had nothing to do with him. I was simply trying to hide from the intense feelings I'd already developed for him.
"A relationship like ours is just so...intimate." He continued, "That it sort of feels...incomplete in a way for me without it."
I shook my head and sighed deeply. "I am sorry Alexander. I never meant for it to feel that way. You're right. Our relationship is one of the most intimate that can exist in my opinion; the way we bare ourselves to one another; showing needs and desires that most people would be appalled by. In a way, this type of relationship is somehow even more intimate than a traditional romantic or sexual relationship. For me, intercourse is the most intimate act we'll share. And if I'm being completely honest, it's always been a bit of a hang-up of mine. I simply never want a sub to feel that I take it lightly or that I'm taking advantage of what they offer. I never once considered that my delay could be interpreted as you having done something wrong."
His face softened, and his fingers tightened around mine as I spoke. The smile he offered was tender and thoughtful as he replied. "That was.... beautiful. Thank you for sharing that with me. I had never considered that it could be interpreted that way."
I grinned as he used my words in return.
"But now that we're on the same page, I'd like to formally let you know that you would certainly not be taking advantage of what I'm offering."