[This is chapter one of a completed seven-chapter novella that will complete posting by the middle of November 2016]
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"I don't believe it. That must be photo shopped."
"I assure you it happened. The Office of Training officer assures me that the two of you rutted around just like that in the woods not far from here." The senior agent who had been at the graduation ceremony shuffled the photos about, but it didn't change anything. Each photo was more damning than the preceding one.
"I can't remember anything like that," Trent Wilson declared, but the disclaimer slowed down as he neared the end of it. He had gone on a drinking binge with Stan, the covert ops trainer—and, yes, the two of them had gone out in the woods he was now staring at, through the window of the office he'd been sent to at The Farm training center near Williamsburg, Virginia. He'd been brought here right after they'd had their Ops officer course graduation. It had been like no other college graduation—the successful candidates, dressed in gym clothes, had gone through an obstacle course before they'd had their graduation ceremony. Graduation wasn't guaranteed until they passed on the obstacle course. It had been a course found nowhere else but in spy training. And there wouldn't be any certificates—just initiation into the Agency covert ops ranks.
"I wasn't conscious. I was drunk on my tail. I've never . . ."
"
Something
was happening with your tail," the senior agent, who had identified himself as Maurice, said. "And you obviously did do 'it.' It's quite clear that he's covering you on all fours and that he penetrated you. It counts even if you choose not to remember it. You have been deflowered. You no longer are a virgin to male-on-male anal penetration—and, the ops trainer assures me, internal ejaculation. And he didn't wear a condom. Do you want to look at the photos of his withdrawal from you again, of the residue of his ejaculation?"
Put that way it sounded so clinical—and sordid, Trent thought.
Bits and pieces were coming back to Trent. The instructor had suggested a break from a class segment—that they take their lunches to the words surrounding the training facility and see if they could get lost and then find their way back to the base camp. The agent's idea of lunch had included more vodka than sandwiches.
Yes, now that the photos were there, Trent could pull out the encounter in his memory. The instructor had told him that nothing had happened and that they should just forget it, and Trent had latched on to that and let it work in his brain until he told himself it was the truth.
But the truth was that Larry had fucked him in the ass—that they'd both had too much to drink—but not in that order. Well,
he'd
had too much to drink. Larry seemed to be able to maintain control. Larry kept talking about how the job required trust and close relations between agents—that they'd had to totally commit to each other. Trent had accepted it hook, line, and sinker, and when he'd gotten completely blotto he'd found himself on all fours, with Larry crouched over his back and holding him close and the excruciating pain-pleasure of Larry's dick inside him.
Trent had fought the urge of that, but he'd always been aroused at the thought of a man possessing him with his cock, and, when it had happened with Larry, he had not abandoned the urge of arousal of it.
"So, what now?" he asked. "Why did you let me go through the graduation exercise? I know the Agency has zero tolerance on that. But I assure you that it was the first and only time. And it happened after I applied and was accepted for the program. It wouldn't happen again—if that makes a difference."
"We want it to happen again, Trent," Maurice said in a low voice. "We have uses for all kinds of people in our operations. And that wasn't the first time. You apparently are highly capable of blotting events out of your mind that you don't want to accept."
"What do you mean that wasn't the first time?" Trent asked, his voice tinged with shock.
"You were thoroughly vetted. There was a fraternity initiation incident. Once again alcohol was involved. Perhaps alcohol has a memory erasing effect on you."
"Fraternity initiation?" Trent answered. "That was just jacking each other off. It didn't go as far as . . ." But then he stopped. Somewhere back there in the memories he had buried deep in his mind, he had the sense that it hadn't stopped with the jacking off. "Fuck," he said.
"Precisely. Fuck," Maurice agreed. His voice wasn't judgmental. He seemed to be quite sympathetic.
"We learned of the fraternity incident when we were vetting your application. And we still pressed ahead. You have certain attributes—your looks and size, and our technicians say they can easily ratchet up the arousal effect it's evident that you naturally have. The instructor who fucked you as part of our research into you was extremely complimentary. It would appear that, thanks to drink and your brain's capability to compartment experiences, you have lost your virginity to men twice already. Our agent said you reacted as if it really were your first time. We have a use for that capability in our covert programs—for someone who can lose his virginity over and over again to a target we want to cultivate."
"I don't understand."
"I'm saying that we won't separate you for this—if you don't wish us to. But only if you put your talents to use for us. Now that you've had an opportunity to admit that the encounter with the training officer happened, can you admit that you took pleasure in it?"
"Yes . . . I guess so," Trent answered, unable to look at the middle-aged, but well-conditioned senior agent.
"You guess so? Yes or no?"
"Yes," he admitted, letting out a long sigh as the secret he had sublimated flowed out of him. It didn't matter much if he were honest about that—the worst that could happen was that he'd be fired, which was the logical next step here anyway.
"We want to train you to go with targets as if each time is your first time. You will receive training in that, and you will be doing very useful work indeed. Do you think you will be willing to do that?"
Trent paused, but he didn't see what the other options were. He had planned and trained hard for this position with the Agency, and, now that it was out in the open that he had lain under two men—and not even admitting that encounter in a rest stop men's room that the Agency's investigators evidently hadn't ferreted out—he realized that denying that need in himself had become a major frustration for him.
"Yes, I can do that," he answered.
"It means you will have to give up full control to your handlers. Do you understand me?"