I was forced to confront my masculinity laying back in a bathtub full of lilac-scented bubbles...my previous experiences with girls and young women flashing before my eyes as my olfactory senses were assaulted with the feminine aroma of my second-ever bubble bath, and the images of a man's hard penis seared into my hands, mouth and mind.
My entire belief system of who and what type of man I am was in shambles as I lay in the tub staring at my handsome Arab antagonist as he bench pressed more than two-hundred pounds.
I marveled at his firm, sculpted chest; his bulging biceps; and ashamedly found myself glancing from time-to-time at the new center-of-my-universe---the bulge in his tight shorts.
I relived what he had me do for him sexually, and with great confusion, and a twinge of sadness, my own small prick became so agitated it forced me to use all the strength and self-control I had left in me to refrain from masturbation.
I knew in a few minutes I would once again be on my knees before him, stroking the shaft of his manly Arab cock while I massaged his huge ball sac; my lips wrapped firmly over his manly Arab cockhead; my tongue working feverishly on his long and thick erection to coax one more load of his thick and creamy manly Arab seed from his swollen Arab balls which I would gratefully accept in my mouth, and greedily swallow every last drop ....
Goddamn this stiff prick of mine---WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?
I'd never been queer before...I dated plenty of girls...and even though I'd never sexually satisfied any of them with my small penis, whenever I was ordered to lick them to orgasm, I dutifully obeyed...isn't that what a real man is supposed to do?
Anyway, yeah, sure, the past couple years I admit my fantasies have taken a slight turn.
I always masturbated to online images of pretty women on their knees giving blowjobs---I lived vicariously thru the men on the receiving end...I'm not sure when or why that changed, but one day I began to focus more on the men's cocks than the women's mouths. My orgasms suddenly became more exciting---much more explosive.
I wondered what it would be like being one of those women...I fantasized I WAS one of those women...they're just harmless fantasies, right? People everywhere fantasize about the weirdest stuff---it doesn't mean they actually want to do that stuff, right?
Yesterday was Sahib's and my first full day together. My jaw is slightly sore from the number of times I was made to accommodate his manly Arab cock in my mouth. By dinnertime last night, my belly held so much of his thick and manly Arab seed, I was not hungry for real food.
He is playing some kind of psychological game with my head. All day I waited to feel his manly Arab cock 'neekni sah rawi' (fuck me in the ass), instead, he placed me in different sexual positions, and used two, and later three fingers to stretch my 'koos' (cunt) wide for him.
I am actually grateful for this exercise, not just for the wonderful orgasms he's given me, but also to ensure my 'qooq' (pussy) is opened enough so when he does fuck me with his manly Arab cock, it will not be quite so painful.
You may think I'm enjoying my new role in life but you'd be wrong!
I have the ability to adapt to my surroundings---I have a logical mind. I know darn well if I don't obey Sahib's every command I will suffer great pain...hmmm, let's see: suffer great pain, or enjoy wonderful orgasms? Which would YOU choose?
"Finish your bath, my little narcoossee (hot pussy)," said Sahib. "I am ready for you!"
"Yes, Sahib---right away, Sahib!" I replied.
I quickly stood in the bathtub, pulled the plug on the drain, and switched-on the shower attachment to rinse the excess soap off my body. I cleaned the tub then toweled myself dry.
Naked, I went to my knees at the end of the weight bench and waited as he shifted his body forward until the crotch of his brief shorts was inches from my face. As he'd taught me yesterday, I pressed my nose underneath the leg opening and began inhaling his musky and manly, Arab aroma.
His body was glistening in perspiration with the efforts of his workout...DAMN---the same reaction as yesterday---my prick rose to full attention as I breathed deeply thru my nose...why do I get so aroused from just smelling his crotch?
And, as instructed, I had to ask him the second-most humiliating question one man can ask another man: "Sahib, may I please lick the sweat off your manly Arab balls?"
"Yes, my little sharmotah (bitch)----you may 'ihass baydeteh' (suck on my balls)," he replied. From the tone of his voice, I knew he was smiling...he enjoyed and took great pleasure in emasculating me.
I tugged at the waistband of his shorts and he helped me by lifting his hips while I peeled the shorts off his wide thighs and down his dark-haired legs.
When he was naked, he shifted forward until his manly Arab cock and scrotum were dangling over the end of the bench. I immediately took a deep breath, then licked the perspiration from his manly ball sac. I then took first one then the other plum-sized ball into my mouth and swirled my tongue around his hot flesh.
My hard-on began throbbing; I felt the familiar ache in my own balls---WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?
When I had licked-off all the salty sweat from his manly Arab balls, it was time to ask THE most humiliating question: "Sahib, may I please lick your manly Arab asshole?"
I wondered if he would just say 'yes,' or if he was in a playful mood and taunt and tease me again...I found out very soon....
"Do you believe you are worthy enough to lick an Arab man's asshole, my little white 'khaneeth' (faggot)?"
I hated this game...it always left me feeling sad and empty inside...I knew this was part of his system of brainwashing me, and I had no choice but to go along with him, but in all honesty, the more I had to say these vulgar things, the more I began to believe them.
"No, Sahib, I am a worthless, little white khaneeth, but pleaseβPLEASE allow me the honor and privilege of licking your manly Arab asshole!"
His laughter of derision brought a flush of shame over my face. He opened his legs wider and shifted forward again on the bench presenting his small, brown puckered anus to my mouth.
"Yes, my worthless white 'sharmuta' (whore)---you may lick your Arab Masters asshole!"
"Thank you, Sahib---thank you for allowing me to lick your manly Arab asshole!"
I wasted no time burying my cheeks between his buttocks and press my mouth firmly on his sweaty anus. I pushed my tongue inside him and licked the walls of his asshole.
He had me in this position for ten-minutes, until his manly Arab cock finally became stiff.
"'Kol ayre' (eat my dick), you worthless white 'bala Il a'air' (cocksucker)," he blurted out.
"Yes, Sahib---thank you, Sahib!"
I was getting quite good at this act...his squirming hips, and guttural moans and groans were all the proof I needed...and judging by how hard my own prick became whenever I had his manly Arab cock in my mouth, I enjoyed it, too.
Once I Heard his "ALLAH AKBAR" and swallowed his manly Arab seed, it was time for his shower.
He stood under the hot spray while I washed and rinsed every part of his manly Arab body. I tried to control my breathing, and hide the excitement I felt when I ran my hands over his hot and firm flesh, but the warm glow on my face, and my raging boner betrayed me every time.