I jerked off twice so my sex drive would be diminished and I wouldn't have to worry about making an ass of myself when I met with Ashley. But I needn't have worried. Ashley Moore was already wearing a Bikini swim-suit when he dropped his Levis. I had expected to finally get a look at his cock. So, needless to say, I was devastatingly disappointed. We'd gotten together in the athletics department's cafeteria to plan the photographs he wanted me to shoot. Then we went to the pool's dressing room, where I was certain I'd get to see the rest of his naked body. It shocked me to think that, that might've been why he had his swim suit under his pants; however, I couldn't imagine how that could've been, since I had done nothing to give him the slightest clue that I drooled to munch his butt.
Maybe he'd become gun shy, considering how many of his erection wielding admirers relentlessly pursued him. Ashley Moore was the knight in Shining Armour to every gay in the University, me included. Often, when he was in my tiny darkroom, he'd lean over me to watch his photo coming to life in the developing tray. Whenever I turned my head, my mouth would come within two inches of a French kiss; and despite the strong smell of ascetic acid I'd get incredibly horny smelling his occasionally perspiring body.
The number one, all-round, hero of Colliford University, Ashley had been the diving champion for three years in a row, as well as the captain of both the football and gymnastics teams. Impressive accomplishments, indeed, for a twenty-year-old. He was a handsome and extremely photogenic hunk. His devil-may-care, tousled, blond hair gave him the appearance of a lovable ruffian; one that I would've allowed to sit on my face any time he wished.
I had become the official photographer for the school's newspaper by default. I had always attended the sports events and brought along my camera. Eventually, I was expected shoot everything in sight for the paper; thus, Ashley Moore adopted me as his own personal photographer. But that was kool. Just having a legitimate reason to be constantly close to him, and to occasionally rub against him, was all the compensation I needed.
Sadly, though, one day he caused me to crash into a deep depression when he shattered all my dreams and fantasies. It hadn't been that I was sure he was gay. It was only that I had convinced myself that I'd eventually get the nerve to ask if he'd let me suck his cock, something I'd have given my camera for, but now I knew it was only an empty dream.
I happened to be in a cubicle in the Athletics building bathroom when several guys entered the room. They were already deep in conversation and I hadn't heard everything they'd said, but what I did hear, I wished I hadn't. "...and watch out if you gotta pick up the soap. The fuckin' fags are like crabs, the way they try to suck on to ya." I was certain it had been Ashley's voice but I opened the door a crack anyway and saw him pissing with two others at the urinal. Shattered as I was, I still wished I could get at those three, young, pissing cocks; even if only to put my hands in the warm streams.
Though I was still madly in love with him, my fantasies were no longer satisfying. The really crappy thing was that they wouldn't work with anybody else either. I must've tried fantasizing being in bed with every cute guy in the school, but I was too hooked on my diver. I was glad I got the opportunity to go to Toronto, even if it was only for the day. I had a small photo shoot that didn't pay much but it would be a welcomed change.
Eight o'clock was awfully early to go to a bar but I felt like a drink. it was a little, out-of-the-way, gay bar that I'd heard a couple of guys on the bus talking about. They said it was a great hideaway. I was walking along Morningside Avenue, where the bar was located, when I thought I was going to crap. I almost met Ashley head on. I turned quickly to look in a shop window. Apparently he was so consumed with hiding himself that he failed to see me and entered the bar.
Shocked, I remained frozen at the window, wondering If I should go into the bar and confront him. I'd been so freaked that I hadn't noticed I was staring into a window filled with Ladies Lingerie. After careful consideration I decided that returning to Collingwood immediately was the wisest thing to do. The trip would be little more than ninety minutes, during which time I would resume my recently abandoned fantasies. I was now able to see a real possibility of Ashley and me, lips to lips in a scorching, naked embrace.
When I photographed him at the diving finals I saw him through a sharper lens. I was sure he liked me, so I was sure I'd at least get to blow him. A good understanding of the prey makes the hunt much easier. He took the gold in The Provincial Diving Championships this afternoon, and I knew he'd be more anxious than ever to see my shots. I felt incredibly horny in anticipation of him practically rubbing his face against mine, while watching the image immersed in the developer.
"Rickey!" He called after me, "wait up...When are ya gonna develop today's stuff?" He asked.
"I'm going to develop the films as soon as I get home...I guess I'd do the printing right after supper...probably around eight. By the way, congratulations, Ash"
"Thanks, Rick, I'm so happy I can hardly keep still...Will it be okay if I hang around the darkroom while you're enlarging?"
"Yeah," I answered, unemotionally, although it was extremely hard for me to hide my excitement.
I was ready to make the first eight-by-ten but I waited for him to arrive. I cut the white light when I heard him approach. A dim, eerie, red light illuminated the room when I unlocked the door and admitted him. "Did you develop the films yet?" He asked, excitedly.
"Yeah, they're a shitload of awesomeness, wait'll you see this one," I said, switching the enlarger's light on. After exposing the sensitized paper I immersed it in the chemical and the image began to appear, Ashley, as Id hoped, leaned over my shoulder. His cock was so prominent in the tight Bikini, you'd have thought it was touchable. That, along with his resting his chin on my shoulder, and being cheek to cheek, I had developed a very hard dick.
"Wow!" He exclaimed when it had fully developed, "What a fantastic shot."
"Hmmm," I sounded, indicating doubt.
"What's that, hmmm mean?" Ashley asked.
"Hmmm," I repeated, laughing, "I don't think you'll want the paper to run this one-"
"That's the medal winning dive, Rick!" He practically screamed, "the body position is perfect. Why the fuck not?"
"...Ya sure you won't mind if it gets posted all over the Internet, huh?"
"Why the fuck should I mind!"
"Ashley, take a real close look at the your entire body, not just from the point of view of diving form."
"Why don't you just tell me what's wrong with the friggin' shot?"
"Well...for one thing you've got a very erotic, semi hard-"