"Hey, wake up, we are here."
Josh opened his eyes, his head was spinning. He looked around, he was in the back of a car. Rudi was standing next to him, he opened the door, and tried to shake him to wake him up.
"Where...are we home?" Josh said. He was still drunk, and he had no idea how he got here. Last thing he remembered was in Danny's bedroom, after Danny rejected him.
"Yup. Come on, let's get you inside first, we can talk later." Rudi helped Josh in the house, and they headed to the bedroom.
Josh fell down on the bed, he felt a bit weak and dizzy, and he laid on the bed. He was only in his underwear, and his cock was hard. He could remember his adventure with Danny, he could still feel Danny's touch on his skin, how they shared a kiss, how Danny was grinding on his cock...
"What the fuck, Josh, do you know how worried we are? You just stomped off and disappeared!" Rudi was standing at the door, yelling at Josh. Josh remained silent, he couldn't look at Rudi, he was ashamed with how he reacted.
"We were looking all over for you, if Jack didn't get a phone call from Danny, we would still be out there!" Rudi said, his gaze softened a bit, "Look, Josh if you are not happy with us, just talk to us, we are here for you. This is your party, you can just tell us what we did wrong and we'll do whatever you want, you can't just yell at us and walk out."
"You did nothing wrong. I..." Josh murmured, and paused. He didn't know if he was ready for this conversation. He turned and looked at Rudi, who was staring at him, waiting for him to talk, all the emotions flooded in, anger, jealousy, lust. He desperately wanted to kiss Rudi, but he couldn't cross that barrier.
"It's alright, take your time, you don't need to talk now." Rudi waited for a while, and sighed, "Let's get some rest, we can talk tomorrow."
Rudi walked out the room, and Josh felt a sigh of relief and dreadfulness. How was he going to explain what happened? He lashed out when he found out Rudi was having sex with his friends, which he realized now that Rudi didn't do anything wrong, nor did his friends. What's wrong was how he reacted, how he felt at the time, he was angry with himself. And he couldn't admit that to Rudi, he couldn't confess his fondness with him, he was planning to fuck him for god's sack, and now he messed everything up.
Josh wallowed in his thoughts, his decision to come clean or hide his desire for the rest of his life, when Rudi came back, only with a towel on his waist. Rudi just took a quick bath, and was ready to go to bed after a long day. He walked around the bed to his side, dropped the towel, and sneaked under the blanket. Josh stayed in silence, pretending to be asleep, while secretly admiring Rudi's body. He drank in all the details, the hairy huge chests, pink nipples in the middle of the red fur, defined abs, thick muscular thighs, and his thick penis, veiny and with a red pinkish tip. Josh could feel his already hard cock stirring, Rudi was naked, a few inches away from him, under the same blanket.
The room was silent, except the deep breath of two men. Every breath from Rudi drew in Josh's attention, reminding him with Rudi's present, and no matter how hard he tried to silence it out of his mind, it brought more focus to it. Josh could tell Rudi was falling asleep, his breath was getting slower, and only then he dared to turn his head and sneak a peek. Rudi had his back facing Josh, the blanket was tucked under his strong arm, the blanket was slightly lifted, Josh could see his muscular back, with the help of the dimly lit lamps, faded into the shadow the lower it got.
Every detail drew Josh closer to Rudi, he inched closer and closer, he could smell the shampoo, with the undertone of musk, he could feel the heat radiated from his body, he reached his hand out, and he made contact, his hand caressed Rudi's exposed arm, feeling the hair brushing his fingertips, his hand slid across Rudi's broad shoulder, and down his back, tracing the muscles, he wrapped his hand around his waist, and pulled himself closer, pushing his bare chest against Rudi's back. There was nothing more Josh wanted other than being closer to Rudi, he was scared of losing him, he felt like he was one step away from breaking their bond, as friends, or potentially more.
"I think I finally know what I want. I want you, Rudi." Josh whispered into Rudi's ear. This was as close as he could get to confessing to Rudi, while he was asleep, and perhaps Josh had a glimpse of hope that Rudi could hear him, and Rudi was silently accepting him.
Josh's heart was pounding, in his drunken mind, there was only one thing he could think of doing. Controlled by lust, his hand slid down Rudi's body, feeling every inch of skin along the way, searching through the hair, and he cupped Rudi's soft cock. He fondled it with his fingers, pulling and stretching it, and he rubbed the underside of the tip, feeling all the veins and crevasses. Soft moans came out of Rudi's mouth, his cock pulsed in Josh's palm, enlarging to its full length.
It wasn't the first time Josh held Rudi's hard dick in his hand, but it was the first time he truly examined it, he couldn't help but compare it to his own, it was shorter but thicker, warm to the touch, it throbbed with each stroke, dripping precum onto Josh's hand.
Rudi stirred, squirming under Josh's arm. It was clear that in his dream he was enjoying Josh's attention, he whimpered in his sleep, pushing his twitching cock against Josh's hand, seeking for more involuntarily. Josh held Rudi's hard cock firmly, stroking it slowly, feeling Rudi thrust into his hand. His own cock was throbbing under his underwear, lodged between Rudi's ass cheeks, he grinded his hips slowly, precum was seeping through onto Rudi's skin.
"Ughmm...what...Josh?" Rudi moaned, he opened his eyes, hazy with sleep and lust. It took a second for Rudi to register the situation, before realizing it was Josh.
"I...I want to fuck you, Rudi..." Josh whispered, while panting heavily.
"Am I dreaming..." Rudi said to himself, it was like a dream come true, this was something he dreamed about, but now it became the reality. He rolled over, facing Josh, and leaned in for a kiss, he could feel the eagerness from Josh, he could smell his musky scent, with hints of alcohol.
Rudi pushed Josh away, and quickly got out of bed. "No, we can't...you are drunk...sorry, I can't..." His voice was shaky, he couldn't look at Josh, and he rushed out the door, leaving Josh alone.
