"Come on, Mike. It's just a blowjob. No big deal," Ross groaned as he held his hard cock about a foot from my face. His 6'3 frame towered over me as I sat on my bed and gawked at the sight of it.
I felt like an idiot for coming out to him. This was the fourth time this month he had come home drunk and begged me to get him off. I had turned him down but each time I felt a little of my resolve give way.
By coming out, I don't mean a heartfelt admission of my sexual preferences. I journaled a lot. Ross had found said journal while looking for his coding notebook that I had borrowed.
The odds had been in my favor.Β Opening it up to any random page would have revealed mundane observations about life and trivial passages. Yet, Ross had opened to a series of pages where I had clutched the pen with one hand and my cock with the other.Β I had written openly about my love of cock. Though I hadn't at that time experienced one, I was very eager to do so. I was, in a way, a cock crazed virgin if that makes sense.
The passages were full of my fantasies of sucking, being fucked, ranking male porn stars, my shaving routine for my body to be smooth, how I had fingered myself, and more. So yeah, basically all of the skeletons in my closet.
I had walked in to help him find the notebook and saw him grinning while looking through it. I gasped, told him that it was private and snatched it away.
"Hey, it's cool, man. Sorry, it looks just like my notebook, and then I saw...Anyway, no need to hide it, man. I'm cool with you being gay," he had said.
Far from being reassured, I started and stopped a few explanations before finally caving, admitting it, and begging him to not tell anyone.
He said ok and I hoped that was that. But then, the drunken pop-ins to my room started. He had been laughingly apologetic the days after, but I wasn't in any mood to discuss it further.
Still, it planted a seed and I started fantasizing about going down on him. Pretty soon, he was always in my mind when I jacked off. I felt weird talking to him soon after, not wanting to betray any indication that I had been frantically fantasizing about him pushing my slim 5'8 body to my knees and having his way with me.
As far as I could tell, our other roommates, Jason and Bryant, hadn't been told. I was glad about that. It was too much of a pain as is sharing a rental house with all of them while we all tried to eke out affording a place of our own. We were all fresh out of college and landed in the same city, meeting each other and bonding as we moved into the newly built house within weeks of each other.
So, there I was. Trying to calm the situation down and get him out of my hair once again.
"Sssshhh, you're going to wake everyone up! And no! I'm not going to do it!" I whispered back, afraid that Jason and Bryant may investigate the sound and find Ross with his cock pointed at me.
"You know you want to" he slurred with a grin as he stroked his cock slowly. "I won't tell anyone."
The first two times I'd easily turned him down, but the sight of his erect cock so close to me was testing my will. I could feel a hunger inside me that I couldn't force away. I looked up at him with pleading eyes, trying to think of something to say, but nothing came.
He inched forward and placed a hand on the back of my head while positioning his cock at my lips. It was as if he could sense my resolve was breaking. I let my lips part without thinking, feeling his cock slide against my tongue as I exhaled heavily through my nose.
"Mmmm yeah" he moaned as he let it rest in my mouth while I cautiously licked and sucked it. It was everything I had imagined and more. The taste, smell, and texture were frying my brain.
I let some more slide in and felt his nutsack with my right hand. They were warm and heavier than I imagined they would or could be. I lovingly caressed them and let out a soft moan into his cock, happy to be experiencing something I had dreamed of doing for so long.
"Mmm oh hell yeah, Mike" Ross moaned in response as he guided my head a little further down his shaft.
I gagged a little, but he made no effort to release his grip. Thankfully, I was able to will myself through it. I wondered if he was just getting carried away and didn't realize I was struggling.
His cock was about 7.5 inches long and there was no hope of me getting it down all the way. Thankfully he did ease his grip and I started bobbing up and down on it. I found myself obsessed with the head and kept coming back to it. When precum splashed on my tongue, I moaned wildly and slightly picked up the pace.
I was torn between the actual act of giving head and the grand finale. I felt this overwhelming desire to just keep his cock in my mouth until the end of the world.