I stammered, "What?"
He smiled, but this time there was definitely a command in his voice.
"Get. On. Your. Knees."
At first I was annoyed. Who did this guy think he was? I was the one who took charge, I had ALWAYS been the one in charge.
So then why were my knees shaking and my cock creating a bigger and bigger wet spot in my shorts? And in that moment I made a decision - just this once - to listen to my cock, not my brain. After all, I was alone, I didn't know this guy, no one would ever know.
It also wasn't lost on me that I had been out of the closet for a couple of decades and still had homophobic hangups about being submissive and bottoming. So yeah, that shit was all there, but I took a deep breath and quieted my brain.
While I paused and got myself sorted, Mark just watched me with a wicked glimmer in his eyes.
"Well?"
I gulped and sank to my knees in front of him, never taking my eyes from his.
He smiled, "Good man."
I needed something to do with my hands so he didn't see them tremble, so I cupped the backs of his calves, working my hands up the back of his denim clad thighs. He continued smiling and looking down at me.
Then Mark put his hands behind his head, pulling his fleece jacket and t-shirt up just enough that I could see his flat stomach and light trail of hair disappearing into his jeans.
Without thinking about it, I licked my lips again.
"That's it, come and get it."
I stopped thinking about what it meant (or didn't) that I had dropped to my knees in front of this guy as soon as he had asked me to...I corrected myself...TOLD me too, and started thinking about what I wanted.