I had been living next door to the Kegans for almost four years, and we had become best friends. I don't think I've ever seen a couple as much in love as Duke and Doris. I was so jealous of their relationship. It was the kind of thing I wanted for myself, but never seemed to find. Maybe I was incapable of love.
I had dates, of course, but they never seemed to go anywhere. And some of them were very pretty girls. But I never felt anything. If I kissed them it was more out of a sense of duty, than emotion. I would take them home, and then drive back to my own house, sad and lonely.
It was so wonderful to see Duke and Doris together. The fun, the joking, the companionship. They had no children and made each other the only important thing in their lives. I felt honored to be in their company, and I was glad to be able to offer Doris my companionship during the long hours that Duke was at work.
They were an attractive couple. Duke was a big handsome guy about forty years old. He was big-boned and athletic looking. He had been a college football jock and was dripping with testosterone. I had to raise my head a little to look at his thick, glossy black hair, and those unbelievable blue blue eyes. His features were clean and even and he was always immaculately shaved and dressed.
Doris and he had been in the same class in college, and she had been the school's leading actress, appearing in all the school plays. She had long flowing blonde hair, and also had blue eyes, though not as intense a shade as Duke's eyes. Everybody thought she would end up in Hollywood starring in motion pictures, but then she met the football hero, and that was that.
You would always see them holding hands when they walked down the street together, which I found so romantic. I would lag back a step or two just to watch them together, and Duke would turn around and laugh, "Get a move on, Jack. You're such a slowpoke." And then Doris would laugh. And then even I would laugh and take a few quick steps to catch up.
Duke had his own construction company, and he was doing very well, which of course left Doris all alone during the day, and I know she was glad to have my company. How often she would walk across the lawn and ring my doorbell. "Come on, Jack," she would say. "Let's go down to the stores and see what's on sale." And I would always go with her. I was a wallpaper designer and worked at home, so my time was pretty free. I could do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted.
We had such fun on those trips, and Doris always picked up a few knick knacks for the house, most of which she didn't need. I was always worried that Duke would think I was trying to make time with Doris, but that was ridiculous. She could never have been interested in a little guy like me when she had that big handsome gentle brute. I was even an inch shorter than Doris, who was eight inches shorter than Duke. I had neat brown hair, smooth skin, green eyes, and though I thought I was nice looking, I was far from being the handsome hulk she was married to.
Actually I was more Doris' friend than Duke's, though I know he liked me too.
Doris and I had so much in common. We both loved music. We both loved the movies. We loved to go shopping. We watched soap operas together. Duke was the alpha male. He liked watching football games, baseball games, basketball, golf, tennis, the Olympics. I had never been athletic, and in high school the other kids would make fun of me. When we played baseball, they would put me out in right field where I could do the least harm, because no balls ever went into right field. After a while I would get bored and sit down on the grass looking for four leaf clovers while the game continued. A real loser. Nobody wanted me on their team.
But even though we had nothing in common, I knew that Duke liked me, and treated me almost like a kid brother. And that's exactly the way I felt about him.
As if he were my great big brother, my protector, my role model. And he was twelve years older than I. He was forty and I was only twenty-eight.
And then we found out that Doris was ill. She hadn't been feeling well, and our shopping trips were getting fewer and fewer. Finally Duke insisted that she see a doctor, and after all the tests, the news was not good. Doris had a terminal illness. Duke was devastated. He took as much time off from work as possible, and when he couldn't be there, I stayed with her. Finally Doris went into the hospital, and in three days it was all over.
I sat in the waiting room, while the Doctors took Duke into another room to tell him what had happened, and offer their condolences. When Duke reappeared at the waiting room door he was crying, and I knew right away. I ran over to him and wrapped my arms around him, and let him sob into my neck.
"Oh, my poor Doris. My poor beautiful Doris," He sobbed, and I was crying too.
Finally we got control of ourselves and drove home in silence. It was Duke's car, but I drove. He just was in no condition to drive.
I helped Duke with the funeral arrangements, and so did his two sisters, Ethel and Evelyn. He called Doris' parents in Florida where they were now living. And there were tears on both ends of the line. Doris' parents were making arrangements to fly right up for the funeral.
It was a small funeral. Duke and Doris hadn't been that social. They were too wrapped up in each other. The family sat in the front and I sat towards the back where I could hold my handkerchief to the tears dripping down my face without everyone seeing me.
Doris' parents stayed with Duke for three or four days and then flew back down to Florida, and Duke was alone. All alone. My heart was breaking for him. This was the rest of his life. Where could you find another Doris? I looked out the window and watched him leave for work in the morning. And I thought to myself,
"I can't let him come home to an empty house. I can't."
I drove over to the supermarket and picked up some steak and some potatoes to bake, and I bought corn on the cob. Doris had given me their key to water the plants when they went on vacation one time, and then insisted that I keep it "in case we get locked out," she had laughed. When I drove home, instead of going into my own house, I went into Doris'. I spent the day watching game shows and soap operas on television, and then around five o'clock I went into the kitchen and started to prepare dinner for Duke and me.
Duke got home around half past five, and when he opened the front door, I was standing right there. I had heard the car pulling into the attached garage.
"Hello," he laughed in surprise. "What are you doing here?"
"I'm cooking you dinner," I answered.
"That's so nice. But you didn't have to do that. I could have opened a can."
"That's exactly what I was afraid of," I said. "I have to make sure you eat properly and keep up your strength. It's what Doris would have wanted," I added.
He hung his head and nodded. "Well, thank you so much. You're such a good guy." He walked over and patted me on the shoulder.
"Now you just sit here while I get everything ready," I ordered, and marched back to the kitchen. The potatoes were baking. I put the steak under the broiler and began to boil water for the corn. Meanwhile I set the table with dishes, glasses, silverware, napkins, as I shuttled back and forth between the kitchen and the dining room.
