It had been close to six months since my friend Casey set me up with his friend Jack for an erotic massage. I had confessed to Casey quite some time ago that I had curiosities from way back about touching a man and seeing how that felt, but that I would never be able to act upon those desires with another man. I was straight and didn't feel for men like I did women. I adore women, but I also had curiosities I couldn't explain.
Casey was a good friend who came out to me several years before, and he was the only person on earth with whom I had confessed these thoughts. Casey's solution was for me to meet his friend Jack who gave erotic massages and see where things went. He said Jack could help me explore my thoughts, so I took him up on it and Casey scheduled the appointment.
I learned a lot about myself from that massage. Jack was gentle and non-threatening and let me decide if and what I wanted to do. The massage could be just a massage. If I wanted I could let him touch me erotically. And I could touch Jack if I wanted. I ended up doing both and had an incredible experience. But it had been months since I was able to act out my desires and it consumed my thoughts ever since.
I met Casey for lunch at our usual restaurant. It was an Italian place that had outside seating and the day was glorious. The sun was shining, but not too warm. We tend to get together for lunch about once a month, but this time it had been three months since we had seen each other. "Jack's been asking about you, John. He wants to know if you will ever come back. He said he really enjoyed the massage he gave you and he is worried he traumatized you."
"I know I know Casey. I said I would come back and I've made excuses not to call him. I really want to. I've been thinking about that experience for months, and maybe I'm just afraid of what I would do the next time if I saw him. I'm not sure so I have just avoided it. But I know I've been shitty not to even call or email him."
"So he didn't traumatize you then?" Casey replied. I know Casey was egging me on trying to get me to call Jack. He wanted me to try it again and not go through life wondering what could have been.
"No, of course not. You know that," I said. "Then call," he replied. "You know you want to touch Jack's cock one more time."
"Shush!" I said looking around to see if he was heard. Casey had a big grin on his face and made me smile, and then we started laughing. I looked around again and thank God nobody was seated near us! To shut Casey up I agreed I would call and I did so just after we left the restaurant.
Jack was very happy to hear from me and we agreed to schedule a massage on Saturday. "So plan on stopping by around 3PM? I don't have anyone after you so there will be no rush," Jack said.
"Sure, that sounds great," I replied. I was a bit nervous and was about to say goodbye when interrupted.
"Oh!, I forgot, I have another therapist here who is helping me. I'm expanding so I hired another guy and he is training with me now, and then he will have his own place not far from here in a couple weeks. Do you mind if he is present? It's ok if you would..."
"No, it's fine," I blurted out cutting him off. "Sorry, yes, it's no problem at all Jack."
We said goodbye and my heart started racing immediately. "Another guy," I thought. "What does that mean?" The last time I was with Jack it got very personal. "Well maybe this time it will just be the massage then," I thought. Saturday was tomorrow, so I tried to get it out of my mind as I went back to work. But I couldn't of course. All I could think about was that moment when Jack let me take his cock in my mouth. It was the first time I had touched another man, let alone another man's cock, and the experience was incredible. Jack's skin was silky smooth and soft, and he liked the way I touched him as he massaged me. I let my hands stray to his chest as he leaned over me, working on my chest and abdomen. As Jack rubbed me my fingers went to his chest almost as if they commanded themselves to go there. He moaned his approval as his hands moved down and touched my aching cock. He then offered to allow me to extend the session and touch him more if I liked and this voice within me, subconsciously I suppose, agreed.
"John!" came a voice out of nowhere.
"What?" I replied. A bit dazed, I then realized I was in a conference room at work.
"Did you hear the question? You seem to be out of it today.
"No, sorry," I replied. "I was just thinking about something..." After I made an excuse I got my focus back and finished the meeting and then rushed out as it was the end of the day. All night all I could think about was Jack's body, his hands stroking me, his cock in my hands, and then...this other guy in the room watching us. Ughhh! No, I definitely could not do the same thing again with a trainee in the room. This was just going to be a massage.
Saturday morning I started with my usual routine. I went to the gym and worked out for about 90 minutes, then went for a run at a track nearby. I try to keep fit and I worked out extra hard since I was getting a massage in the afternoon anyway. As my thoughts continued on what might happen in the afternoon I convinced myself again that this would just be a massage. Maybe there would be something erotic, but it would be one way. With another therapist in the room learning the ropes, this wouldn't end up like the last time. How could it? Maybe the other guy will just watch. Maybe he will give the massage while Jack watches and instructs.
I went home, showered, and had a bite to eat and then it was nearly time to head over to Jack's place. It was about an hour drive and I didn't want to be late. I was still nervous, but not as nervous as last time. It may be that I was disappointed a little. Part of me wanted to continue what I did the last time when I let Jack put his cock in my mouth. I mean, this is what I had been fantasizing about for months. And now that seemed like it was no longer a possibility. I would have to go again if I wanted Jack alone.