Robert was sitting in tech class, trying to concentrate on the teacher's computer programming jargon. Today's lecture had taken a simplistic turn and Robert got bored.
The Navy officer could not stop his thoughts from wandering to the sex he and the horny white boy Jamie had enjoyed the day before. Indeed, thinking about it gave Robert one of those lightning-strike moments of insight on himself.
He knew he was gay.
He had always considered himself bisexual, that it was an easy way to get his rocks off. He'd enjoyed a glory hole blowjob or sex with a pickup when his ship pulled into port.
Deep down, though, Robert realized he preferred fucking with men because that is what he preferred. Sex with Jamie had made that clear. Tall, muscular black Robert loved having sex with cute, slim, white Jamie. He loved it and he needed it. Sex with men was part of his core being.
He considered the pros and cons of being gay. Fag were perverts that preyed on kids and had sex up the butt; that's what he was taught as a young man coming up.
His folks, the preacher, his coaches, and friends believed that homos had to be driven from the community, even killed, to send a message to any other fags living in the area.
On the other hand, ... hmm. What's positive about being gay in 1978? Well, the sex felt great, natural. No way can I live my life without the fulfilling sex I had with beautiful Jamie.
And Robert thought about guys he knew who were gay, either because their effeminate mannerisms made it obvious, or they came on to him, or he had heard rumors.
Fact is, Robert felt a camaraderie with gay guys. Yes, even the fruity ones. They were open, insightful, funny, sometimes cruel, sometimes kind. Being friends with a mincing fairy didn't mean that's what he was. For that matter, the pillars of the gay-hating straight community were often hypocrites.
He recalled the first time he had seen actual gay sexuality. He was 18 and his mother had volunteered him for a park cleanup project their church organized.
Robert was returning some rakes to the church basement after finishing his work. He heard people talking but couldn't make out what they were saying. He turned a corner and recognized the voice of preacher Burton, the church's hard driving, demanding leader who adamantly warned his flock of the evils of homosexuality.
"That's it son, that's good, you're getting it," Robert heard the preacher say.
Robert quietly put down the rakes and crept up to the spare office where the voices were coming from. He furtively looked around the open door to the dimly lit room, waiting for his eyes to grow accustomed to the dark. The only light streamed from a single, high wall window throwing thin sunlight on a well-used desk, beat up couch and some chairs.
Through the shadows Robert saw preacher Burton but his eyes fell quickly to man's groin. His cock was standing upright, eight, hard black inches with a purple head on a stiff shaft. His golf ball-sized testicles drooped outside his zipper. A guy's hand was stroking the monster, though the person remained hidden from the light.
Robert felt a jolt from his brain to his crotch. He had seen flaccid boy's penises in locker rooms but never a grown man's erection. He felt his cock tingle, a surge of blood making it heavy.
"Boy, I had a feeling you would be a quick learner. Now, take those balls in your other hand. Real gentle boy, take your time," Burton directed his partner.
Robert thought the preacher was 35 or 40. He was a physically imposing dark Black man with broad shoulders, strong legs, and a deep voice he could shift from a whisper to a shout that shook the church rafters.
A second hand reached out from the shadows and gently cupped the nut sack, the balls so big they spilled from the palm. The boy's face came into the light.
It was Terrence Jackson, an 18 year-old, caramel-colored, small, quiet guy. Terrence was in the choir and just last week was one of the teens celebrated by the church for graduating from high school.
"How does that feel sir? Am I doing it right?" Terrence asked. "Your penis is so hot in my hands. Are you OK?"
"It's not a penis boy, it's a cock," the preacher said, his deep voice gravelly with lust. "A big black cock. Say it right son because you are going to get to know this cock real good. We can use words like cock when we're alone together."
"Yes sir. Sir, I like feeling your cock," Terrence said softly.
Preacher Burton looked down at his erection. He touched his thumb to a droplet at the tip.
"See that? It's precum. Taste it, boy," he said and pressed his thumb to Terrence's mouth. "How do you like that?"
The boy sucked. "I like it sir, will there be more?"
"Hell yes, boy. Keep doing what you're doing," said Burton. "This is going to be a good training session. You're going to learn how to pleasure me. The preacher works hard, and he needs a powerful release."
Terrence blushed, "I'm glad you chose me. You're a powerful teacher."
Robert remained motionless in the hallway, his eyes glued to the randy display of masculine sex, his face flushed. Was that due to being sexually turned on, he wondered. He was ashamed for his secret watching but fascinated by the action and the preacher's sexy commands.
He could not stop looking at the preacher's thick meat. It veins swelled and thinned as the boy's hand stroked it. That's what a man's cock looks like, Robert thought. With a sense of pride, he knew he was about the same length and girth.
But Robert was confused. The preacher hated gays, told the congregation that homosexuality was a sin and that it would ruin the black community. Yet he and Terrence were sure acting gay, weren't they? Indeed, he was encouraging Terrence to play with his cock and balls.
Robert's next thought frightened him. Everyone says gays are bad but I'm getting horny looking at that big dick. Does that mean I'm gay?
Preacher Burton commanded Terrence to get undressed. As the boy complied the preacher took off his shoes while leaving on his shirt and pants.
Robert checked out Terrence's naked body. He was a lush honey color, slim, and his cock hung down heavily, looking like it was getting ready for action. Terrence moved his hand to cover his penis.
"Did I tell you to hide your cock? Get your hand away from your cock," ordered the preacher.
The nude boy complied and, looking at the floor, said he was sorry.
"That's OK son. You're learning. But remember, do what I tell you, is that understood?" demanded the preacher.