Matt was late coming home. The lobby was unusually quiet as was the elevator. Nervously, he paused outside the door. He didn't know what he was walking into. Seamus was upset, Matt knew that much. He knew he had done nothing wrong but he could understand how Seamus might've felt a little blindsided. Matt had mentioned his summer plans more than once, but they hadn't explicitly talked about Matt moving out.
Surely Seamus knew they would not live together right off the bat? That would change if things went well. Matt could see them reevaluating their living arrangement in a more romantic capacity down the road. But not now.
Matt slowly opened the door. The apartment was dim and the TV was on low. Seamus was sitting on the couch folding laundry. That was bad news. Matt set his bag down and pulled off his jacket. Cautiously, he walked to the couch, moved the laundry basket from its spot next to Seamus, and paused the TV.
"Hey," he whispered.
Seamus tossed the sock he was working on into the basket. "Hey."
"I think we need to have a proper talk."
Seamus let out a loud breath and slouched against the couch. "No need," he said. "I overreacted."
"Possibly," he agreed. "But I thought about it after you left, and I get why you're upset. I could've talked to you about this earlier."
"I never went home for the summer, it wasn't something I did. That's not to say you leaving wasn't in my face. I
knew
it was coming, I just didn't want it to. Summer is really long. When you finally come back, you'll be in your own apartment. It just sucks."
"I moved in because Aidan needed his own room, right? I wouldn't have moved in otherwise," Matt reminded Seamus, albeit cautiously.
"I was going to ask you, anyway."
"Okay, but both know we shouldn't live together, right? When we were just friends? Sure, let's be roommates. But boyfriends?" Matt shook his head. "That has 'terrible idea' written all over it."
"I enjoy having you here."
"And I enjoy being here."
"Then why not stay?" he asked. "We get along great, it makes shuffling Aidan around easier when we're coming and going from the same place, and we both save money. We're going to spend all our time together, anyway."
"For one, we
just
started dating and, I'll be honest, I'm not ready for that. I just moved away from home less than a year ago. I want to be on my own. I want to have that experience. It's already complicated since you watch Aidan all the time
and
you're my boss. There is a difference between knowing I
can
rely on you and
having
to rely on you. Right now, I feel like I
have
to rely on you. Living with you, working for you, and having you watch Aidan, that's a lot of relying."
There was also a difference between understanding and accepting. Seamus
understood
where Matt was coming from, but he was having a hard time
accepting
it.
"I'm not really your boss. Denise is. You're the one that said I did nothing except intimate people and hold a baby all day."
Matt leaned back and laughed. "Semantics. You're my boss's boss. That makes you my boss. Kase calls you Boss Nanny and I think that paints a pretty clear picture."
"Boss Nanny?" he repeated, smiling proudly. The fucking weirdo liked the name.
"Do you understand, though? You're the boss nanny, my boss's boss, my boyfriend, and my roommate for who's roof I live under. That's too much. I don't want to feel like I'm on the wrong end of a teeter-totter. I need to hold my own."
"What do you think 'holding your own' looks like? From where I stand, going to school full time, working, and taking on your brother is a lot of weight. You're doing an incredible job."
When it's said the way Seamus said it, all star struck and impressed, then yeah, it seemed like Matt was doing a kick-ass job. Matt grinned. He liked the way Seamus made him feel.
"I like you, a lot, and I have a good feeling about us." Seamus pulled Matt closer. "I understand where you're coming from. I really do. But I may need a minute to come to terms with the change."
Matt straddled Seamus' lap. "We're still gonna see each other all the time. Aidan and I will come over and you'll come to our place. I'll even have Kase watch Aidan so I can come over here, alone."
"No kid?"
"Just us," Matt confirmed.
"What else?"
Matt ran his hand along the side of Seamus's head. "You won't have to pick up my wet towels."
"Yes, I will."
He chuckled. "Okay, maybe you will."
"When do you think you could move back in?"
Matt leaned away. "We've been together for like, one day."
Seamus raised a brow. He didn't give a fuck if they'd been dating for one hour, he wanted to know when Matt was moving back in.
"Could we talk about it after graduation?"
Seamus sighed, then frowned. "You're really going to move away for the summer?"
"Yes. I have one year before I need to find a real job. I want to go home and spend the last bit of my childhood with dad before I grow up."