This happened about ten years ago. I'm married now but while I was in college I was forced to acknowledge something I had kept hidden since puberty. I am attracted to men. In high school I was your typical jock. I played football, basketball and baseball. I hung around with the cool crowd and dated my share of the popular girls. In fact I'm married to one of them right now. Maggie, my wife was the prom queen and cheerleading captain. She's still pretty hot but I digress.
In high school I often fantasized about the guys I played sports with. Some were good friends. Others were guys I thought were attractive. I'd take those mental images of them while we were in the showers after practice. I'd remember their bodies, how strong they were, and the size of their cocks. And then at night, while alone in my room I'd fantasize about how great it would be to run my hands all over them, feel their cocks between my lips, and maybe even have one of them slide their dick inside me and fuck me while I moaned like my cheerleader girlfriend. In fact, I kind of wished I was a cheerleader.
I never acted on those fantasies. I'm pretty sure none of my guy friends in my high school knew I wanted them to face fuck me or be their cum slut. I stole plenty of glances in the locker room but I don't think anybody noticed. As far as my hometown knew I was a pretty regular guy with good looking girlfriend.
Not much changed at first when I went to college. I was at a big school. I wasn't a good enough athlete to play at the varsity level and neither were the guys I hung around with. But we still were pretty active with intramurals and club sports. By my junior year I ended up in an off campus apartment with four other guys. I still dated my girlfriend Maggie, though she was exploring her options as well (a whole other story). And my fantasies of being fucked now included guys in college I had met as well as a couple of my roommates.
Remember how I told you I liked to sneak a peak. Well with one of my roommates, Jay, it wasn't hard to do. He'd stand in the middle of the living room toweling off after a shower. He'd be reaching behind his back and stretching showing off every part of his body. We'd all make fun of him for his exhibitionism but he didn't seem to mind. If you were built like Jay you would probably show off a little bit. He had dark hair and a handsome face. He was about 6' 1" with a chiseled body. His balls were heavy and his cock was long, thick and beautifully circumcised. It wasn't long before I was imagining how good it would feel to have him inside me.
In addition to his standard after shower posing Jay had a habit of lounging, sitting back in a big chair wearing only a sheer pair of gym shorts, often sporting morning wood. Believe it or not this was first hard cock I had ever seen and there was little left to the imagination. He was huge. I was mesmerized and the glance I was stealing lasted just a little bit too long when Jay called me out. "Geez Brian you must like what you see.. you keep staring at my dick." Everybody laughed and I tried to brush it off but there was no denying it. His dick made me horny as hell.
Jay would continue this over the next several weeks and I'd try to be more careful watching him but I know he caught me a few times. Sometimes he'd say something and everyone would laugh again. Sometimes he'd just look at me. Letting me know he knew. I'd try to deny it but he'd just make fun of me.
I had another roommate whose name was Bill. He was wrester in high school and still had a lean build. Bill had sandy blonde hair blue eyes and was about 5'10". Bill didn't show off his body as regularly as Jay did but when he did I'd look. His cock wasn't as big as Jay's but it to was also beautifully circumcised.
Eventually Jay and Bill would be the ones making the biggest deal out of me checking them out, especially Jay. It became a running joke with them. Anytime there was a good looking guy on TV they'd say things like hey Brian I bet you'd like to see his cock too or when Jay was getting in the shower Bill would remind me, "Brian, showtime, five minutes". I did my best to laugh it off. It was embarrassing, never more so than the night they told my girlfriend Maggie that they caught me staring at their cocks all the time. Now I was pissed, even though it was true, and told them to fuck off.
I took Maggie back to her college across town and came back to see Jay and Bill on the couch smoking a joint. Our other roommates were gone for the night. I was still pissed when I came in but both Jay and Bill seemed somewhat sorry. They took the edge off me and when they invited me to get high with them I sat down and we started sharing a joint.
