WOW, "it" finally happened!!! I had had my first sex, and it was with a fellow monk in the monastery. It was great.
I was a 20 year old virgin and had fantasized about both woman and men. I distinctly remember "wanting" Sally and Roberta in grade school and Cathy and Bonnie in high school boarding school. Never did anything about those feelings and practiced my vow of celibacy to the letter. I had great fantasies about women, and jacked off to erotic fantasies of women. I was hooked on fantasy and self-pleasure.
I had become a monk and was sent to a small town in Indiana for my novitiate. Noviate is a time to ponder vocations and the religious order I was joining. The place sucked. We were isolated, mistreated and just plain miserable.
I continued my nightly jack off sessions dreaming of Sally, Roberta Cathy and Bonnie. I also noticed that another "Brother" who was my classmate was starting to openly "flirt" with me. I did not have any feelings for Brother "TML", but loved the attention that I was getting. It was like "dating" in the outside world. He would shower me with attention and always would take the seat next to me. He would seek me out for conversation and during our limited "rec" time. I enjoyed the devotion and the submissive behavior by Brother "TML". I really hadn't thought about much more than "Sister TML" performing duties which I did not want to do. He would always show up and help with my monastic chores and sit down beside me during REC times and TV times on Sunday evenings. I enjoyed the flirting and Brother's help. I started feeling a "crush" towards Brother. I still jacked off to thoughts of women, but would often have flashes of "TML" blowing me or of me shooting off on him.