Discovering Myself

My name is Mike (not my real name) I'm considered by most to be attractive. I have an athletic build. I have somewhat short brown hair and hazel eyes. My skin is tanned. I've been told by my Sister and many other ladies, that I could have my pick of women. Hearing that made me feel good but I haven't let it go to my head.

I recently graduated college. I always give it my all whether it's school or work. But don't get me wrong, I'm no work-a-holic. I decided to begin dating again now that my studies are behind me. I ended up dating a few ladies. A few years go by and I meet one who checks all the boxes. We seemed to hit it off and soon married after a year and are off on our honeymoon.

My Wife is considered attractive by most. The sex she and and I have is good. But I feel there is something missing, something more I desired and needed. After a few years of marriage, I found myself not completely satisfied both physically and emotionally.

My Wife works evenings three times a week and 5 hours on Sundays too. I'm always horny most of the time and end up jerking off when she's not home. Just so there is no evidence or mess to clean up, I always jerk off into the toilet. I was curious what my own cum would taste like so, I jerked off and caught some in my other hand.

I held it up to my mouth put a little on my tongue so I could taste it. I found it to be very, very warm, whitish and thick and a bit salty. I liked it. Tasting my own cum sent my mind in another world. Yummy!

I couldn't wait to taste it again the next chance I got. It was late afternoon again after she left. And as usual, I was horny. I made my way to the bathroom again. Pulled out my cock and began stroking it. It didn't take very long and I was hard. I stroked it even faster. I started breathing heavier and I knew I was about to explode as precum began oozing out the tip of my shaft.

I gathered some of the precum and anxiously put it on my tongue. I licked my lips as they were coated with it. My precum tasted great! But it was just an appetizer. I hold out my other hand and shot entire my load. Only this time I shot my jizz into my cupped hand. I could barely hold it all. The excitement of it all was intense. And again, put it in my open mouth. I quickly slurp it up as if I was dying of thirst. I soon felt my warm cum sitting in my mouth once again. Mmm so good.

Not wanting to waste a drop, I tilt my head backwards a bit. I feel my cum slowly make its way down my towards my throat then I swallowed. I swallowed my entire load, of warm, juicy, thick cum for the first time. The taste lingers on my tongue for several minutes. I soon realized I loved the taste of my own cum.

One thing I knew for certain and that was nobody knew how to satisfy me better than I did. At this point anyway. Several days pass and I find myself jerking off this way and swallowing again and again. Yum Yum. But I realize I'm still not totally satisfied. So a week goes by and I decide to take a chance.

It was late, about 8:00p on a Friday night. I found a cheesy place in my home town that has several rooms inside where you could watch porno's for a quarter on a small color TV in private. This place is located on a quiet street downtown. So I didn't think there would be a chance of anyone walking nearby to recognize me going inside. I slowly opened the door. I felt my pulse start to pick up pace.

As I enter the place, I find it to be dimly lit. With the walls painted black. It had a musty smell to it. I could barely make out the face of this clerk who was behind a desk. He acknowledged me and went back to looking at something. Probably porn I thought. I look around and notice there is a narrow hallway to the left of the clerk. I began walking down this hallway and noticed there were six doors on each side.

I couldn't help but hear the sounds of porno movies being played. I tried opening a door on my right. It was locked. I tried the next one down, same thing, locked. Crap! About 5 doors down on the right of the hallway I finally found one that was unlocked. I nervously opened it. Whew! Thankfully nobody was in the room.

So, I quickly close the door behind me and made sure it was locked. Once inside the room I look around. I hear a mix of sounds and moans coming from all around me. It made me feel like I was in the middle of an orgy! The size of the room was about 4ft square. These rooms were walled, at about 8ft tall. There was nothing above but the ceiling for the entire building.

There was a 12 inch TV monitor and a bench against the wall to sit on while you jerked off watching porn and nothing else. It was so dark, I couldn't tell if there were any wet spots from anyone jacking off before me or not. But I wanted to sit down. I had thought ahead enough to bring a disposable wet wipe that I stashed in my pocket just in case. Not to mention, I like everything to be clean before sex including myself.

I dared to put my hand along the bench and to my surprise it was dry. That poor clerk up front probably has to keep the rooms clean in between customers. Otherwise, their business would slowly go downhill I thought. I brought 2 dollars worth of quarters with me thinking that would be enough to get off with. I noticed several buttons below the TV. Which I found out controlled what kind of movies you watched.

I grabbed a quarter and put it in. The TV was on a channel playing a straight sex movie with a man and woman. After watching that one for a few minutes, I tried the next channel. This channel was showing lesbian action. I continued watching the women for another minute or so. Then the TV went blank. I soon discovered you would get 5 minutes per quarter regardless what category you watched.

I put another quarter in and tried another channel. This one to be playing 3-some scenes. The next channel was showing 2 men together. I was always curious about other men in a sexual way.

I kept myself in shape working out regularly at a local community fitness facility. I always showered afterwards in a giant shower room. There must have been about 8 showers each separated by a small tiled partition. Each time as I washed off the sweat from working out, I couldn't help but compare cock sizes on the other men across from my stall.

I was by no means ashamed of my own cock. It was longer than average and thick too. None of the ladies I dated ever complained. Nobody had an erection from what I could see at any time I was in the shower stalls. But I did notice all different sizes. I think that was something most guys did. Comparing their own cocks with other men's.

But this was the first time I had ever seen grown men naked on film having sex. And I liked what I seen. My cock was getting hard. And after several quarters worth of seeing two men kissing, sucking and fucking each other, I was getting turned on big time. So, just as I was enjoying the show, the TV went blank again. Rats! I quickly inserted another quarter. I resumed watching that gay porn movie. I was immensely enjoying what I was seeing.

My cock was getting harder and throbbing. I began rubbing myself through my jeans. I noticed a huge wet spot. Then the TV went off again. Darn it! I guess they figured most men will be able to get off in less than 10 minutes. I was about to put another quarter in, and I seen to the left of the TV something moving through a hole in the wall.

Not a very big hole. It was maybe 2 inches in diameter. There was a finger coming through moving in and out. I quickly put another quarter in but this time turned the channel to something other than the gay porn I had been watching. Thinking this would make the person who was poking their finger in and out of the hole to stop.

I had heard of holes like this being referred as: Glory holes. Where men would stick their cocks through and the person on the other aside would suck it. I know that's what this person in the next room wanted. I had yet to be with a man. I enjoyed having my cock sucked. What man doesn't? But up to this point, only women have sucked me.

I took it that the person in that room was another man as this was the kind of place most decent women wouldn't go into. Not to mention it looked like a man's finger. But I was too scared to stick my cock through the hole and soon left. The time was now 9:30p. Upon arriving home, I noticed my Wife wasn't home yet. Whew! So my secret was still safe.

Those images of men having sex with each other were flooding my brain. Being with a man was all I could think about. I as so horny, I quickly went into the bathroom grabbed my shaft and began jerking myself off. I shot out a load with so much cum it spilled out of my cupped hand as well as squirting onto the toilet rim and floor.

Once again, I put my warm jizz to my mouth and swallowed as much as I could. Oh my, it tasted even better this time! Knowing my Wife may come home any minute from work, I quickly cleaned up all the cum from the floor. I went into the bedroom and laid down. I did wonder about the glory hole and how things would have turned out if I would have stuck my cock through.

I thought to myself, could it be that I'm falling in love with myself? While laying there, I asked myself, "Was I gay or bi-sexual?" With as much gay porn I watched over the next few months, it only brought to the front of my mind my desire to be with another man. I realized I might be gay after all. I wasn't bi-sexual at all. I was no longer attracted to women.

There was nothing more on my mind than wanting to be with a man. I ached to be kissed and embraced and made love to by another man. I needed to find out for real. What his lips felt like, what his cock felt like. What his cum tasted like. I want to meet a man now. I just have to.

A smile formed on my face as I soon drifted off to a peaceful sleep...