I still remember the first time I replied to a gay personals ad online. I was only 18, in the first month of university in a new city away from everyone I had ever known.
Hung looking for younger gay
37yo bwm, masculine, drug and disease free
Looking for someone who likes kissing, sucking, maybe fucking.
I sent him my stats and a face shot taking at an angle extreme enough to hide my identity.
He replied less than five minutes later: "Shooters and cocks, 7pm?"
That's the name of a gay bar. There wasn't much time, so I sent a one word reply, took a shower, being extra careful to scrub out my butt crack, just in case. I wanted to smell good for my newfound lover.
I showed up at the bar about a half hour early, only to find it wasn't open yet. I only touched the knob, gave it a turn to confirm it was locked, and quickly walked along before anyone could notice me.
I waited across the street in a cafe for the place to open. At some point close to 7 I turned my head, actually distracted by a couple girls talking a little too explicitly about their sex lives--who knew they put so much worth in giving guys blowjobs? Like really, what kind of pleasure do they get out of that? When I turned back there was a light on above the door, and it was slightly open.
I went up the block, taking the long way to cross the street, so I could have a full view of the place on my approach.
Right as I put my hand on the knob, I heard a whistle behind me. I turned around to see a cowboy--he was wearing an actual cowboy hat, and he was over 6ft tall, wearing skin-tight jeans and a white T-shirt, and looking me up and down with his preying eyes. Was he some kind of redneck looking to beat up faggots? Scenarios of being outed to everyone back home flashed through my mind.
I almost turned away and hurried off, but I twisted the knob and walked in.
I hurried down the stairs, under the big canopy rainbow flag, and disappeared into the gay bar. It was dark inside, with all the walls and ceiling painted black. There was a big dance floor on one side of the room, a bar on the other side, and booths with tableclothed tables all around the walls. I was the only one in there, other than staff.
I felt like a slut. I also had to go to the bathroom. I asked a beefy guy who looked like a security guard where the washroom was, and went in.
Well, it wasn't some crazy sex dungeon riddled with glory holes. When I came out, that cowboy was sitting at one of the tables, his arms both stretched out on the back of the booth. His eyes were on me.
I ordered a beer from the bar, and then wandered to a stool nearby.
"Hey!" the cowboy called.
I looked over.
"You merichane?" he asked.