After only sucking one cock following a naΓ―ve hitchhike when leaving a party too stoned to drive, twenty years later, after marriage and two grown kids, I made a decision to give in to my desire to suck cock. Since the very first time a cock passed my lips I was sure I was a cocksucker. I feared people would discover I played with men. I feared being called faggot. I feared my own desires.
I never felt great desire looking at men on the streets or when I was working with them. I didn't day dream about any particular male. I did fantasize about a cock in my mouth when my wife gave me a blow job. I loved when she kissed me after so I could get a small taste of the cum. I talked her into allowing me to go down on her after we fucked so I could clean the cum from her pussy. I rationalized I was giving in to my submissive side for her. Even though she was pretty passive in initiating sex she exploded when I went down on her or played with her clit as I fucked her. Her body would almost levitate when she came. She arched her back from her feet to her shoulder while screaming out in unintelligible moans and gasps. She really couldn't fake it or I was one dumb fuck.
But like many marriages, and like a certain bluesman sang, "the thrill has gone away". Time, work, kids routine and lack of energy made sex secondary. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe next week. Then a month passes and we'd wake up and spend less than an hour with foreplay, me eating her pussy, then fucking her or her blowing me. If I came in her pussy she would get another pussy eating and orgasm. And then it was back to routine with a promise to make it more often. That seldom happened.
I really didn't want another woman. I love my wife. Love the life we have made except for the decline in sex. Of course, most males with me included, only think about sex at least a few hundred times a day. I found myself thinking about that one and only blow job I received from a man. More importantly, I found myself fantasizing how I had reciprocated by sucking that man's beautiful cock. I could still imagine the texture and feel of it in my mouth. Still remember the taste of it and the taste of his sweet cum spewing in my mouth, on my teeth and down my throat.
So, with the internet going strong when I had reached my mid-forties, I started searching more than all the good information and neat web sites. I discovered porn was a big thing on the net and I was all in. In the process I discovered personal ad sites, there was chat rooms on several browser services that had turned in to sexual talk of any fetish or vanilla thing possible sex-wise. I often got into conversations and gradually drifted into M4M rooms. Next thing I knew I was talking to so many married guys feeling like me. Or men who would love to have me suck their cock. But, I was wary of meeting someone until I ran across a personal ad site that I could send and receive posts a certain number of times each month. It was a gay male site but seemed to have more bi men posting. I found the local ads right away and ended up meeting Phil, a fifty something guy who was looking for someone to worship his cock. After many posts back and forth over a two month time, we did get together at his condo. He had me on my knees, hanging my head over the bed and face-fucking me as I laid on my back. I rimmed his ass and jerked off in his ass crack. He made me lick my own cum from the crack. I swallowed two of his sweet loads of cum and my desire to suck cock was all I had fantasized and more. I was a true cocksucker who wanted more.
After Phil and I had finished our sexual fun, he mentioned he had two male friends and a woman who he knew from his church that like to get together for sexual play. He asked me if I'd be interested in joining the group the next time they met. It was like throwing a hungry dog a bone with meat on it.
About two weeks after our first meeting Phil emailed me to say he'd gotten in touch with the two guys and the woman. The two guys could come in 3 days but the woman couldn't make it until the next week. He asked if I'd like to just meet with him and the two guys in 3 days. I quickly said yes. We arranged a time. I wondered if there would ever be a woman. But the thought of three cocks I could suck at the same meeting was good enough. I really had developed a passion for cock I realized. And, just as quickly, I joked to myself...a guy's gotta have a hobby.
I arrived at Phil's early in the morning. He and his two friends were waiting for me. Phil came to the garage door dressed in a robe and flip-flops. When I walked into the condo two nude guys were sitting at the kitchen table talking. They looked up as I came in with smiles on their face. One was a dark-haired guy who appeared to be in his early fifties. He stood up with his cock dangling over the table as he reached his hand out to shake my hand. His cock drew my attention right off.
"Looks like my cock may interest you." he laughed.
"Don't worry, I want to get you the chance to know it really well. I'm Don by the way."
I answered him " Yeah it does draw attention for sure."
Don was a little over six foot, slender with a smooth body and a shaved pubic area. He had a tan, weathered face that indicated he probably worked outside a good deal. His hands were calloused and his small finger on the extended hand was bent from an obvious injury in the past. He wasn't drop dead handsome at all. Rather plain looking guy like myself. His abdomen had a bit of a pouch but otherwise he seemed to have a firm body that had done some work. His cock flaccid was around six inches and uncircumcised. The foreskin loosely covered most of the head. The head was prominent and the girth looked to be large but I didn't have much to go by in experiencing men's cocks. Comparing it to my cock which is very thick, Don had a cock slightly less so. Don's eyes were brown. They were easy to look into. Seemed to have a kind look.
The other guy at the table, was slightly balding with a widow's peak common to fifty year old guys. He had auburn colored hair on both sides of his head. His scalp reached only three quarters forward from the back. He was stocky, working on a beer belly but only in beginning stages. He was a bear with thick brown hair covering his chest. He stood up to greet me and reached across the table with his very thick cock on display hovering over the table top. His crown was a very large mushroom shape. He was circumcised and he also had shaved pubes. He was probably around five foot nine inches tall. His legs like his chest were thickly covered with "fur". I estimated his cock to be around 6 1/2 inches.
"Hi, I'm Bob." he said. "Good to meet you. Glad you can join us."
He offered his hand. It was soft and like Don, he didn't try to get into a grip contest when shaking my hand. He had blue eyes. They seemed to look at me with interest.
After shaking hands with introductions, Phil suggested I strip. And he suggested I strip like a male dancer not just hurry to get undressed. He had dropped his robe and was also nude. His cock was semi-erect.
I laughed, thinking he was joking. But he repeated he wanted me to do a strip. And reminded me I was the cocksucker today and needed to get their cocks ready.
I'm realized I was going to once again have my submissive side exposed. My cock started getting hard. I slowly started unbuttoning the top button of my jeans and made a show of unzipping. The jeans fell to the floor in a pool around my shoes. I reached down to untie my shoes, making sure my ass was facing the table. Once my shoelaces were done, I slowly removed each shoe. Then stepped out of the jeans around my ankles. Still bent over with my ass in the air I removed my socks. Standing back up I pulled the bottom of my tee shirt above my head and pulled my arms through. That left me standing in front of the three men in my tight boxers. Knowing Phil wanted something special I reached down to play with my cock from outside the boxers. Rubbing on the bulge until it grew. After reaching almost full growth I reached on each side and slowly pulled the boxers down, letting my cock spring up on its own. I stepped out of the boxers and stood before them naked. I reached down and grabbed the shaft of my cock to point it toward them. Releasing the shaft, I swayed my hips so my cock was moving horizontally in tune with my hips. The three men smiled and whistled at my dance. Don told me I should be in porn with "that cock". Finally, I stopped and let my cock stand alone, erect.