Important info!
This is the
SECOND CHAPTER
in my Ginger series, please read first "Ginger: How it all started" because you won't know what's going on here. It's short, don't worry! :)
--------This chapter directly follows the event from the airplane----------
I was led to my new computer and sat there with a bit of an unhappy face. It was an understatement - I was majorly crushed.
The guy I fucked on the flight to LA turned out to be my... new boss.
Director Ashen introduced us, and while we both behaved professionally, the atmosphere was tense. Of course Rory couldn't have known it was me. I remembered on the flight, he mentioned that he was a new team leader, having taken up the position after the previous guy - who left the company. So I wasn't surprised he didn't know I was the new employee in his department.
As I sat down, Rory stood by me for some time, while explaining the basics of what I needed to know - logins and passwords, database access and so on. He also gave me the time of the meeting he scheduled for the team. He wanted to brief us on what we needed to know about the development of the project and what was expected of us.
It was a fucking weird, almost surreal feeling, that he was talking to me, in such an official way, like to some regular employee, and not to a person who fucked his ass 24 hours ago.
I avoided his gaze, only obediently nodding my head, fixing my eyes on the keyboard and saying things like "Yes, of course", "Okay, I will remember that", "I'll do that," and so on.
When he was done, I still had an hour 'til the scheduled meeting. I logged in and stared at the screen blankly. Soon the help desk guy appeared and gave me my e-mail address in the company's domain name, so I could open my inbox, which was empty for now. I continued to stare at the screen, waiting for the meeting time.
Only once I darted a gaze at Rory.
He was sitting rather stiffly, at a diagonally positioned desk. As he didn't have his own office, he was with the rest of the team in the same room. He was wearing a black long-sleeve shirt and navy-blue jeans, very different to the suit pants and white, buttoned down shirt I saw him wearing on the airplane. He looked more casual here.
Rory's face was rather tense as he focused his eyes on the screen. But the moment I stared at him, he rapidly glanced at me and our eyes met. I quickly lowered my head to the keyboard.
Fuck, I didn't know what to think or what to do! I took my phone and checked my text messages again. I still couldn't believe that earlier this morning that man who I met on the flight - had agreed to meet up again. But now, he turned out to be my boss, so our date was probably canceled. It was so... screwed up! I had such high hopes, and now it was all turning into dust. I was convinced, he surely would reject my invitation to meet up again.
It was still half an hour before the business meeting when he suddenly stood up, startling me.
He approached me and said loudly, so others could hear:
"Dallas, I would like you to come with me for a short talk before the main meeting, as we don't know each other and I would like to know more about what you did in your previous job."
"Of course," I nodded and obediently stood up.
It was a perfectly normal request from a new team leader, so none of the other employees paid attention to us leaving.
In total silence, he led me toward the small conference room at the end of the corridor.
I walked pretty stiffly and as soon as we entered the room, I sat down, with my head low, staring at my hands. I was purposely avoiding his gaze.
Rory closed the door and sat on the opposite site of the long table.
"Well, I guess neither of us expected that," he said with a rather neutral tone, obviously trying to keep his reserved attitude.
"Yes, that's true." I nodded, still not looking at him.
Silence. Finally I couldn't help myself, and raised my eyes and glanced at him. He was looking at me attentively, his face... impossible to read.
"What now?" I asked quietly. "How do you wish to proceed?"
"Well. You know it would be... inappropriate if we engaged in anything other than a professional relationship," he said it - again - in an unreadable tone of voice.
I almost admired his calmness.
But I couldn't help it - my own emotions were all over the place. I tightened my lips.
"I understand," I hesitated, before adding, "But I would be lying, if I said it does not... sadden me. Because... it does. I kinda... started to like you."
For the first time something flickered in his eyes. He looked aside, toward the window, almost like he was forcing himself to keep quiet.
Another long silence crept upon us.
"We both are in a way... new. You are freshly employed, and I've just started a new position. It would be unwise if we endangered our jobs. And I worked years for this promotion."
I didn't respond. It just wouldn't come out of my mouth. Another, even longer silence filled the room.
"What a terrible day," I whispered finally, "I was so fucking happy in the morning, when you agreed to go for that beer with me. And now I guess it's no longer on, right?"
He still looked at the window, and didn't comment on it.
So, I only sighed.
"I will try to behave professionally, Rory. If you wanted to ask me about my previous projects, I can tell you about it now. If that's what you wish."
Rory swallowed and said quietly, "Please do."
I started to elaborate on my past assignments and the mobile apps projects I was part of, and while he looked like he listened, I kinda knew that he wasn't fully focused.
He asked a couple of questions about stuff I felt I was the best in, obviously wanting to give me something to work on from the field I was most proficient in. The conversation was calm and professional; we both left the "flightfuck" out of it.
Soon the rest of the team joined us, and he started to talk about the app as a whole and summarize his meeting with data analytics from Sydney.
I was actually impressed by how precisely he spoke and how knowledgeable he was about the topic. He was really good at it. The other employees discussed their assignments and the progress of the work that was already done. They had some parts of the coding finished and soon Rory discussed it with them, and analyzed their solutions.
I was sitting there silently, just listening and trying to remember every detail, promising myself to do the best job I could do, at least not to look bad in his eyes.