I had thought about it a lot. It would start crossing my mind at random times during the day and I would dwell on it, and play it out in my head. I had always turned away his advances, but I wasn't about to anymore. I started to want it, began to actually crave it. It was worth every second.
We had known each other since our junior year or so in high school. I mean, we'd always been at school together, but never really talked until then. We started to hang out more frequently, go to shows downtown on the weekend, and hang out for a few hours afterwards with the same group of people every time. I had even spent the night at his house a couple of nights, and back massages from him were frequent, and always the best. His feelings became known to me very quickly, but I always looked away. I was with different girls through high school, and he was always in my life in a certain way ever since we met.
After high school was over, we maintained contact on and off over the years. Social networking played a key roll. I went off and started my life, he started his, and we stopped talking for a few years. All of a sudden, after what seemed like an instant, 3 years had gone by, and my life had taken a very bad turn. I moved back home and started over again. We started talking on and off from time to time more often, and slowly worked back up to actually hanging out at late hours of the night, smoking cigarettes and talking. Then the back massages started back up, and I was hooked.
I would start coming over more frequently, and always received an amazing massage in return. Not that I was using him for that at all, I very much enjoyed having someone to talk to, hang out with when the lights went out. We were both always night owls, and having someone to talk with when you could have intellectual conversations was nice. The back massages were simply more of just something to do really, but weren't in any way expected. He never pushed his limits too much, but still managed to make his intentions known. I respected that a lot. It was eventually a main reason I chose to.