"That sounds good, I have a few more revisions to finish up before I leave. I should be out of here by 6:30." I responded to my wife via text when she asked about our dinner plans for the evening. I glanced at the clock, 6:05, and my heart gave a jolt as I felt my old android phone in my pocket buzz. I sat my new phone on my desk and pulled the old phone out of my pocket. The notification on the home screen read "Do you want me to come over?"
I could feel my heart pounding in my head, my hands nervously shaking. I just told my wife I would be out of the office in 25 minutes. I stared at the keyboard willing myself to respond "No", now was not going to be the time that I finally gave into my urges. I had already gone too far in secretly downloading the app on my old phone, just to talk to people I convinced myself. I scrolled back up in the conversation to find out how I had let it get to this point, re-reading how I slipped further and further into his seduction. My gaze lingered on the picture he sent as I felt my heart skip another beat. I scrolled down, brought up the keyboard with the intention of saying no, and typed "Yes".
After 2 minutes he responded that he was on his way, and asked where to park. After relaying the parking instructions I began to pace my office. How did I let this happen? I still don't have to go through with this. I can just tell him I changed my mind, text the wife I was leaving a few minutes early and head home.
6:10
6:15