In the last couple of months, I've started going to CrossFit. It's not that I want a super muscular body, but I've seen CrossFitter's asses and I think one of those would look great on me. Turns out, I also really like the sport itself. Burpees and sit-ups will never be a hobby of me, but I love the feeling of destruction and pride once I'm done. It reminds me of a different activity..
Adam joins me a couple of times a week. That's nice, because we have to do exercises in couples a lot. I'm not necessarily shy - you've been reading about my social life here - but it feels you have to work even harder when you're coupled up with someone. Something about that takes me back to high school and more specifically the feeling of incompetence in every gym class. CrossFit actually helped with a lot of that insecurity, but some things are rooted deeply.
Today Adam couldn't join me and unfortunately there is an exercise we have to do in couples. The instructor told us to team up with someone that could front squat around the same weight as you. One guy that I've seen before in classes walks over to me and kind of just announces we should do it together.
'What's your name?' he demands.
'I'm Ben, hi.'
'William.'
I assume he is in his forties and he is handsome in an unassuming way. I've never really paid attention to him, because this gym normally is filled to the brim with exceptionally mouthwatering men. William also looks tired. I remember him complaining in the changing rooms about how little sleep he gets with two kids.
Most importantly, I am pretty sure he can't squat the same weight as I can. I've been working on my lower body for the most part and I'm proud to see the results are there. I decide to give him the benefit of the doubt. He is taller than me, there might be some power in there.
He suggests I start and I put on a reasonable amount of weight. After 10 squats I put it in the rack. He gets in position and starts the movement. After 8 squats I see his knees trembling, but he finishes 10 reps.
"More?" i ask him when he puts the barbell back. He looks at me like I'm joking but I keep my face straight.
"Sure.."
This time I feel my legs burning but I do my absolute best to not show it. Every time I push up I make it look like I'm jumping a little bit. The way William looks at me reminds me of the boys in high school; wanting to prove they can run harder, score more goals or jump higher. Oh, how the tables have turned, bud. When it's his turn, he gets to 5 and dramatically puts the barbell back.
"Damn, something is wrong with my knee. I'm also just very tired. I was up at 5 this morning because our youngest was crying. It's hard, you know, doing all that and still hitting the gym."
"Sure, I understand." I say it without conviction.
I do 10 more squats and ask William if he wants to go again.
"No man, I think it will be dangerous to more. I'm sure you have all day to rest, but I have things to do today. I can't get injured."
...Don't entertain him. It's just his injured masculinity talking.
The rest of the class is individual again. It's a tough one with a HIIT-workout that floors me. When it's finished, I sit on the floor and look around. William is across from the room from me and looks out of breath. There is steam coming from his shoulders and his cropped hair is all wet. The instructor says we can do some stretches, but otherwise we're done for the day. William folds over to stretch his lower back, but I walk upstairs to the changing rooms. I'm looking forward to my shower.
This gym is slightly above my budget, but I like the luxury. The showers are individual cabins with a wooden door and the soaps and shampoos provided are from an upscale brand.
Enjoying my privacy, I start soaping up my body. The soap smells like thyme and ginger. My chest is hard from the push-ups and when I rub it, my nipples perk up. I run my hands down my stomach and lather up my crotch. Outside my cubicle I hear the other guys changing and talking about the work-out. All deep voices, hard laughing and elastic waistbands slapping on skin. I can't help myself and tug on my dick.
Not here, not now.
I slip a hand under my balls and soap up my ass. I pause on my hole, teasing it with my slippery finger. My dick twitches up.
No, I have stuff to do. I have to get going.
Everybody in the locker room has left when I step out. I've been taking my time in there. One shower is still occupied. I put on body lotion and start getting dressed.
It's William who gets out of the other shower, giving an awkward look when he sees me. I lower my gaze and see what he's embarrassed about. His dick is fully hard.
I'm not hating what I see. In the locker room I always greedily look up all the muscles, asses, dicks and balls around me. Because there are some true stallions here, my gaze normally rests on them. Evidently, I shouldn't underestimate the plain husbands in here.
It might also be because of the fondling I did in the shower just now, but William is doing it for me. I like older men. I don't mind if they are a bit of a daddy, but William always seemed too boring and suburban. His body isn't bad because he comes here quite often, but it's also not amazing. It's the actual dad bod, not the pornified version we're made to believe is the standard. He wraps a towel around his waist.
'Ehm.. Sorry.. I thought everyone left.'
'Yeah no, I'm still here.'
I make no effort to make this a shared awkwardness. This is all on him.
'Working out always gets me like this, you know. And with the wife so occupied with the kids..'
God that story again.
'Whatever William, I'm almost out of here. Do what you have to do.'
'Yeah.. ok.'
He drops the towel and frees his dick. It's still hard and honestly impressive. He has a thick shaft and he is uncut. His foreskin doesn't completely uncover his dickhead. His bush is unkempt, just like the hair on his legs, belly and chest. I can't help but look.
His exhausted dad image does nothing for me. Too much lamenting and self-pity. His current in-your-face arousal pushes away that persona. At some point he must've been a rather sexual person.
'Uhm.. Ben. Can you stop looking at my dick?' I look up and he smirks at me. He grabs his dick and starts jerking softly.
Damn, he got me there. I don't want to give him this lewd behavior does anything to me. Also I feel like annoying him a bit.
'I meant do what you have to do when I'm out of here,' I complain, proud of my compelling acting.
William let's go of his dick, holding his hands up apologetically.
As slow as I can I start packing my bag. William stands there, looking at his phone.
After a couple of minutes he sighs:
'You're not very quick, are you?'
'You want me to rush so you can jerk of in a public place? You're a class act.'
He laughs loudly. His dick bounces up and down.
'I'm sure you never have blue balls,' he says, 'You gays always fucking around.'