"I just don't fancy diving in there now, babe"
My heart sank, my face tinged with slight blushing embarrassment. I knew things moment had been coming, but still, it stung like hell. It was now out between us; Darren, my partner of 25years -- since we first met at 18 in fact -- with whom I shared an occasional open but increasingly solid and devoted relationship -- just didn't find me that attractive any more. And -painful though it is to admit it -- the feeling is now pretty mutual. Darren isn't the boyish blonde jock I met and fell smitten with in '99. And I'm not the slim, pretty dark haired twink of that time either. We're just two middle aged guys. I had wanted to surprise Darren with a flash of revival of the kind of enthusiastic, energetic, constantly horny love life we had back then, on this his 43rd birthday. I had been waiting naked, legs spread, arse out, leaning over the couch to greet him when he came in from work. I suppose I thought I might stir up some last embers of our once ferociously hot desire for each others' bodies. But...
He gently, playfully (almost pitifully) smacked my ass.
"its alright Simon, I still love you.. just..em.. let's have a drink!"
He wandered over to the kitchen and grabbed the Smirnoff, pouring us both healthy measures and tipping them up with coke. I was despondently re-robing. I slumped down beside him on the couch. We embraced, kissed and snuggled up with our drinks. We still held each other with genuine affection. It's just we couldn't... well, rather we just didn't want to.
"I know you wanted to please me, dude. Seriously. I still love you. And I know you love me. But we can have fun -- just like we used to -without, well..
"Without ploughing each other our arses?..."
"well yeah..."
We both laughed.
"you remember when we met first? I saw you - you were still in school! You came over to my flat in your school uniform! I had just dropped out of first year at college. I was up in the city, not knowing what I was doing. Just hanging around. Then I saw you. You were just stunning; like an angel. Black hair, pale skin, with the cutest, firm little ass. I was smitten! You came over in your uniform. I thought I was living in a porn movie! You did a little strip-tease and I almost shot my load there and then. Just beautiful!'
"So were you, Darren. I couldn't believe what was happening. I hadn't
thought I'd ever have a shot at a tall, ripped jock like you. I hardly