All characters are over 18. This is a suck and fuck story more than anything else. If you want plot or character development take a look at one of my other stories, though there are plenty of readers chuckling at that advice. If there's something you like or hate, let me know, politely of course.
Enjoy.
Thanks to LarryInSeattle for his help with the editing.
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"You like that?"
Robin's voice startled me. My face flamed. I was too flummoxed to even try to make a reply or offer an excuse. I had been staring at the tight crotch of his blue jeans. I'd been busted. What can of bullshit could I have spun to get my ass out of that sling?
I'd known Robin all my life, or all of it I could remember. He hadn't been in any of my classes. He'd graduated before I started high school. I had recently joined the ranks of the graduated. Unlike Robin, I would be getting out in a couple of months. In our small town, you either stuck around, worked your dad's farm and odd jobs, waited for him to get out of the way and leave the farm to you, or you got out. I was getting out. Robin was choosing to stay.
It made sense for him. He had a couple sisters. At that time, only widows farmed, no single women. The farm would be his. In the meantime, until he was needed on his own place, he hired himself out. He'd help my dad put up hay since the only job I could be trusted with was letting the tractor idle along in a straight line while he and Robin bucked bales.
My old man wasn't working that day, not in the hay field anyway. He worked full time. You couldn't make a living off a quarter section, and half of that wooded. He kept a few cows. If he thought the price would be good he might put in corn or soy beans but mostly he planted hay. What we didn't use was easy enough to sell. Early in the week I had cut and raked the alfalfa. We had been lucky. We'd had no rain and it dried quickly. I spent yesterday baling. I could have hauled the bales myself but it was slow work. Park the tractor, buck whatever bales seemed to be a reasonable walk from the tractor. Move the tractor. Park the tractor. Repeat.
Two people wasn't ideal. Four was perfect. One person drove and the other two walked along each side of the wagon and buck the bales and the fourth on the wagon, stacking. Four was ideal but we were doing it with two. There was still an interminable amount of stopping and starting but with two of us we could each take a row. We'd been at it hard all morning.
We'd been sitting on the bed of the wagon, in the shade of the growing stack of bales, eating lunch when Robin busted me for staring at his crotch.
God, he was hot. I had been fascinated with him since before I was old enough to know I was even fascinated with him. It was the first haying of the season but he was already deeply tanned. His nipples were almost black. A sparse diamond-shaped patch of black hair perched in the middle of his chest. His body was dusted with chaff. My eyes had followed a line of dark hair from his belly button down to where it disappeared beneath the waist of his faded dusty jeans. And I was trapped.
The bulge of his cock, lying along the inside of his right leg was clearly visible. His balls lay tucked along the inside of his left leg. I tried to imagine how he would look naked. How would his cock look? His balls? Did they ride up high and tight or hang low?
By eighteen I had given up on wondering why I thought about guys and cocks and what it would feel like to feel coarse whiskers against your lips when you kissed. If the word "gay" was used to describe men like me back then I had never heard it. As far as I knew I was "queer". I hadn't even heard the word "faggot" until I was in high school and only slowly had I realized it meant the same thing as "queer" or "pansy".
No one else knew I was queer. Of that I was certain. If they did, they would have kicked my ass and I would have been put out of the house. I didn't admit I was queer, even to myself. Living out in the sticks is isolating. I had no idea other boys watching reruns of "Flipper" didn't love those shots of Porter Ricks' son Sandy wearing cut-off jeans, or better still walking around shirtless in his swimming trunks.
I was an only child. My best friend at the time showed me how to jerk off. I had been, out of earshot of adults, calling my buddies jerk offs for years. Gary showed me what that meant.
I'm not saying those thoughts ran through my head that early afternoon on the hay wagon. I'm sure they didn't. I'm sure all I was doing was tormenting myself with imagined visions of Robin, of Robin's cock, of Robin naked. I wasn't even totally aware of the fact he was getting a hardon. I noticed, of course. I was fascinated by the way it bulled its way down the inside of his jeans. I loved the sight. I was so busy loving the sight that I missed the fact that his eyes were on me. When he spoke, I think I might have jumped, so isolated had I become in my thoughts.
"You like that?"
I have perfect recall of the terror I felt at having been caught staring at his cock. To be discovered as queer was a fate worse than death. My brain fell all over itself trying to come up with a response that might save me from my stupid blunder.
I remember starting to stammer a response but not what the response was, probably something along the line of "Huh? What you mean?"
Before I managed to produce a single garbled syllable, Robin pushed himself up and leaned against the stack of bales. He reached for the zipper of his jeans.