Final chapter! As par for this series, multiple sex scenes present but a lot of story between.
Quick review of characters: Dylan (MC). Noah (conservative bf/ex). Alexander/Xander (hook up/revenge bf).
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"Hi, honey!" Noah opened the door smiling.
I couldn't bring myself to step in. "Noah, you need to break up with me."
"I beg your pardon? Come inside."
"I don't think I should."
"Are you okay?"
Ugh! He was concerned about me! "I cheated on you, like 30 minutes ago."
He laughed. "That's funny. Are you going to come in now? I'm too hungry to play along with your jokes in the doorway."
"I'm not joking! Today, when I asked you to visit me at my internship, I wanted to make out with you in one of the unused closets. I sent you the room number, remember? So, I waited for you there and didn't see your message that you couldn't make it until after... I thought you came, but um, you turned off the lights..."
"That wasn't me."
"Yes, I know that now! Well, I knew then, well, not the whole time. Just... at the end." I think I felt my cheeks pinken.
He grabbed my shoulders. "Were you forced, Dylan? Fucking shit!! I'm calling the police."
"No, no! I wasn't! Really!"
"It sure sounds like it."
"I wasn't forced. I thought it was you. I mean some things felt off, but I had been soooo horny all day, and he would have stopped, but I... it was too late." I gulped. I sounded ridiculous. But I had wanted to be honest.
"He made you feel good?"
I barely whispered out, "Yeah."
"Shit." He hugged me! I definitely didn't deserve that. "It's okay, honey. You didn't know."
I opened my mouth but didn't know what to say.
"How did you realize it wasn't me?"
I was red as a tomato as I answered quietly, "He played with my hole."
His fingers dug into my skin, and he took deep breaths. "I'm sorry it wasn't me for your first penetration."
Eeeeww why did he say it like that? And, darn it. I had to come clean about the other thing too.
"Um..." I pulled back. "This wasn't my first time."
"What?" The shock and brevity of his question almost came out bland.
"I'm not a virgin anymore. When we broke up over the summer, I..."
He let go of me as if burned. "Double shit!! With fucking who? No, don't tell me. What the fuck, Dylan?! I thought we had agreed to wait."
"Um, I never said I wanted to wait. But that's not the point. It was with-"
"No, don't tell me." His eyebrows drew together. "You're a slut."
Those words hit me like a slap to the face with how vehemently he said them. He looked fine when I said I cheated, but when I said I'm not a virgin anymore, he looked at me like... Like he was angry like a normal person. His hands balled into fists and relaxed, then balled into fists and relaxed again.
"I forgive you. I'll help you repent for your indecent behavior. We don't need to change things. I'll just have to watch you closer."
"Are you serious right now?" My bottom lip wiggled with emotion.
"Yes."
"I'm apologizing for being unfaithful today, but I'm not apologizing for having sex when we were broken up. That was my choice, and I don't have to 'atone' for that. Your beliefs don't have to be mine-"
"Just come inside already."
"Noah, this isn't-"
"I said it's fine! I forgive you!"
"Stop cutting me off!! And you shouldn't forgive me! I was with someone else! Twice! But I don't need to 'repent' for consensual sex."
"It was the same guy both times?"
"Yes, it was-"
"Don't tell me!"
"Xander."
"Who's that?"
"I mean, Alexander."
"You have a pet name for him?"
"Not really..." Was that a pet name or like a nickname between friends? I couldn't think of anyone else that called him that, though.
"I knew he had a thing for you! He's always watching you. But we're not breaking up. He doesn't get to have you."
"Uhmm, I wasn't thinking of dating him. And no one 'has me.'"
"Obviously. You're my boyfriend."
"I don't think I should be. For multiple reasons."
"Stop saying that. Everyone says we're good together."
"You want to keep dating me, because people say we're good together?"
"You're just looking for an excuse to shack up with Alexander, aren't you?"
My jaw dropped, but maybe I deserved that. I gulped. "I really think we should break up, Noah."
"Fine, I don't want to date a slut anyways." He shut the door in my face.
I had trouble falling asleep that night. The conversation with Noah was so awkward and weird. I can't believe I cheated. Who am I? Honestly, I deserved Noah's anger, but I didn't think I deserved... the other stuff. I didn't want his forgiveness, and also... I didn't want to be his boyfriend anymore. The worst part between the guilt was that I also kept having intrusive thoughts about Xander... and his cock. I wish the closet hadn't been so dark so I could've seen it! I'm a horrible person. But not in the way Noah kept pushing on me...
The next day, I avoided Alexander like the plague, but it was difficult, because he showed up wherever I went! He waited by my locker, trapping me with an arm.
"Why do you keep running away? Afraid your boyfriend will see?"
"Noah and I broke up. How could I still be with him after what we- I did?" I ran off.
When he found out I was single, he upped his chasing game. He intercepted me in the hallways on the way to class, but I made a 180 turn every time. Eventually, he got the point.
After that, the next few days, I could feel Alexander's eyes tracking me, but he didn't purposefully get in my space. I went about my days as normal as possible, throwing my energy into homework and club activities and sports practices.
Noah basically ignored me. Our mutual friends were starting to catch on that we weren't together. I could only make up so many excuses to miss lunch with them. This break up felt worse than the last time.
More than a few people made snide comments. I didn't retort back anything. That seemed to cause the most confusion.
Until, one day, I showed up at school, and everyone was whispering about me. I heard more than a few derogatory terms thrown my way.