It was going to be his last night in Colorado for awhile. His head distant from the quantity of beer, weed, and tobacco he'd consumed that night, Jon looked at the aspens growing on the hill across the road from the cabin deck. The skinny trees looked like a choir of old men in the starlight. He wondered what they would sing, if they could.
"You all right, Jonno?" asked a dreadlocked young man from the ragged couch. Jon didn't recognize him. He must have been someone's friend.
"Yeah, fine." Jon headed inside. A sadness that he couldn't name sat on his stomach. Stumbling slightly over his own guitar case, he headed inside to the kitchen table where he last remembered seeing the bottle of rum. Cobalt was at the table, trimming his nails with a pocketknife. Jon remembered why he was sad: leaving Colorado would mean leaving Cobalt.
"Hullo there." Cobalt looked up at Jon with a glint in his eye, as though he were addressing a girl. "I found your vest. It was buried under PJ's bass drum in the van," he said, handing over a ball of red fabric.
"Thanks, man." Jon put it on, and took a shot of rum straight from the bottle. He felt dizzy, and started to stand up to walk to the couch. He stumbled again.
"Easy, easy." Cobalt held his arm, and helped him over to the living room sofa. He sat beside Jon as he rolled himself a cigarette, and took a puff. Silence, but for the snores of the dreadlocked guy outside. Jon's sadness fell deeper in the presence of his friend, settling down in the pit of his stomach with the liquor. Suddenly his thoughts slipped out of his mouth.
"Fuck, dude, I'm gonna miss you when I leave. I'm fuckin' sorry that I'm leaving, I'm fuckin' sorry. I don't wanna leave the band but I'm so fuckin' sick of staying in Boulder, dude..." Cobalt laid a tentative hand on Jon's shoulder to silence him.
"Dude. I understand, and I'm not mad at you for leaving the band. When we played our first show back in '03 we decided that there wasn't gonna be any drama if someone decided to take off for awhile, remember? I know how you feel, man. There's nothin' wrong with...with what you're gonna do." Cobalt struggled to find the right words, scratching slightly at his bare chest. Jon broke down into sobs, digging his hands into his long, thick hair. He curled up with his head in his hands, and stomped his foot in frustration at what he couldn't say. Finally, he said it.
"Look...I love you, dude," he said to the cheap shag carpeting on the floor. Cobalt looked at him, wide-eyed, and threw an arm around his friend's shoulders. Jon sat up, and the two looked into each other's eyes.