After returning from my work trip and the hotel encounters with John, I tried relentlessly to get back to my normal routine. I went to work, the gym, the grocery store, visited with the neighbors, and spent lots of time with my beautiful wife.
Frequently, I would find myself daydreaming about what happened while I was away. I would rewind the events in my mind and replay them over and over. In between frequent bouts with guilt and denial over what happened, I would become lost thinking about John's hard delicious cock and what it felt like to have him in me.
"What is wrong with me," I would say to myself. "Stop this nonsense."
But my own cock would stir and drip with precum from just thinking about it. I would find myself privately scrolling the internet for gay porn and then jacking off quickly wishing I could find John (or another guy) for another discreet hotel encounter. Immediately after I got off, I would be consumed with guilt and swear that I'd never do it again, that my night of man-on-man action didn't happen or was just because I was too drunk to say no to the man who took advantage of me.
Yet, I kept coming back to it.
My urge for dick was so unexpected and uncontrollable.
I was desperate to suck cock again. I wanted to feel the weight of a swollen dick in my hand and stroke it until it got rock hard. I wanted to lick it and taste the sweet musky scent. I wanted to be in complete control and make another guy moan in pleasure. But I also I wanted my ass played with and I wanted to be bent over and feel the pleasure of getting fucked. Here I was, a straight guy and one unexpected evening of booze led to me being completely obsessed with being a little cock slut.
I just didn't know where to start.
John had the most perfect cock. I wanted cock again, but it didn't have to be him. He was easy to fantasize about though since he was the one who took advantage of me and showed me the ropes.
I didn't have any way to contact John though. No last name. No number. No social media.
He was also married and probably living a normal life. And while I wanted his cock again, I didn't want to change my situation or his. I wasn't into the guy... just his cock.
I knew he said that he traveled frequently and often stayed at the hotel where we met and hooked up. So I could go back there and chances are..... maybe...... he would be there. Chances were that another chance encounter with him was not likely.
I had heard about things like Craigslist or Grindr. But the idea of putting out info online scared me.
I resigned myself to just stick with porn when I got the urge for cock. Otherwise, I'd try to put it out of my mind.
After all, I was a straight guy. Before that one night, I had never ever imagined being with a guy. My wife was lovely. My life was pretty good. Maybe we'd try to have kids one day. Work was busy.
Except... no cock.
Then, about 7 months later I had the chance to go on another work trip.
Headed to the same city.
I booked the same hotel.
I wondered if the stars might align. Maybe this was the chance to explore once again. If John would be there, waiting at that hotel bar to get me drunk and take advantage of me, to lure me to his room and fill up my holes with his beautiful dick.
But it was not to be. John wasn't there.
I visited the hotel bar.
He didn't show.
I went to the elevator.
He wasn't there.
I walked past his hotel room where that fateful encounter happened.
No John.
It was sexually frustrating to say the least. I craved cock. I was hooked on it. But the easy meat didn't come. As I laid there in my hotel room bed wondering whether I should just watch porn and jack off, I daydreamed about finding a guy to play with. I was so horny.
I needed a drink.
So I got myself together, tried to put aside the cravings for dick, and walked to the elevator determined to go to the hotel bar for a nightcap. I left my room and turned left to go back to the elevator.
As I rounded the corner, I didn't see anyone coming. I had my head down looking at my phone. (Walking and texting are not a good idea.)
Bam!
I slammed into another guy who was rounding the corner pulling his rolling suitcase behind him.
I went sprawling onto the floor, tripping over his bag.
He staggered back, startled by the unexpected obstruction in the hallway.
"I'm so sorry!" I stammered out, "forgive me I didn't see you there!"
"Hahaha," he said with a good natured humor about it. "I'm okay and uninjured." Looking down at me on the ground on top of his suitcase, he said, "not so sure the same goes for my suitcase. You tackled it."
"Man, I am so sorry!"
"Don't worry. You okay?"
"Yeah sorry again. All good. Unhurt," I said.
And as I sat there on the ground, I was crotch level and my face directly in front of his gray sweatpants. Did I see an erection there or is his cock just that prevalent? Or do I just have cock on the brain?
I looked up at him and blushed. And then he reached a hand down to pull me up and help me get off of his suitcase. But as his hand touched mine, I lingered there just a second looking at his crotch. Did he notice? Not sure. After getting one more glance, he pulled me to my feet and I reached down to straighten up his luggage.
"Dude. Did you see where my phone went," I asked.
"Ummm no. You about jammed it into me and then it went flying when we collided."
We both looked around and I saw a piece of furniture, an ottoman or some sort of couch in front of the elevator. It had to have gone under there.
"Maybe under that," I said and pointed to the piece.
I went over and bent down. Did I just stick my ass in the air and is he watching me bend over?
"Is it there," he asked.
"Yep. Got it!"
"Cool."
"Yeah. Don't know what I'd do if I lost that. My wife couldn't keep track of my ever move," I said and laughed.
"Yours too? Mine is relentless," he said.
Remembering the last time I was at this hotel, I said "you know my last trip here, I got a little drunk and didn't call her back."
"Oh boy!"