It was in the 80's and I was 34 when I found out just how much I loved cock.
I grew up, had girlfriends, fucked a whole lot, got married and was starting out my life. The normal life was good for a while, but it got boring. Something was missing? I started buying penthouse letters magazines and the wife and I would read them and even learn from them. But then there would always be a few stories about man to man in them and I would wonder what it would be like to suck dick or if that man would've fucked my ass that day. Even as I fucked my wife, my mind would be thinking about someone fucking me. We split up after a few years, I was probably to blame as I did want so bad to try man sex, but could not tell her that.
For a few more years it is all that was on my mind, but I was to ashamed to go for it, and my family would never understand if something like that came out. Most of the time I would read those man to man stories and beat off.
Then I was transferred 80 miles away for work and no family or friends. I concentrated more on work at first until things got smooth. I would go home early all alone and just watch TV or read my Penthouse Letters and masturbate.
Then while watching TV, an ad popped on the screen for a local dating hotline. I saw the ad about 4 times before dialing the number. It had a recording with prompts for what type of person you were looking for. Of course when it said "for a male seeking a male press", I pressed it. I heard messages from men with descriptions and what they were looking for. I kept clicking next message again and again, until one got my attention.
"Hi. This is John. I don't want to play games. If you want to suck my dick and get fucked, leave your name and number. No games.".
I was caught so off guard that I just hung up the phone. Then I thought about it for a few minutes and realized that I was so turned on. I called the number again, listened until his message came on, and it was so exciting, but I did not leave a message. I kept thinking about it and trying to get the nerve to leave him a message. Finally I called back. I knew what I wanted to say, but when it came time to record, I kept stuttering, but did leave my name and number. I was so embarrassed but figured he probably would not even check his message and would not call me. Wrong! Within 15 minutes the phone rang and I froze.
Oh shit. That's him. I finally picked it up and he said something like, "You looking to get some dick?" I stuttered and said yea. "I'll call you back at 8:30 with my address." then click.
What the fuck just happened? I was freaking out a little. One because I was finally gonna do this. But 2 because I really did not know if I would? It was only 6:30 so I grabbed a sandwich and a drink while trying to watch TV. My mind kept going back and forth, will I do it? I was convincing myself to not go through with it, but at 8pm I figured I better take a shower just in case I do change my mind. I put on shorts and a T-shirt with slippers. Just in case? I still kept saying I am not going to myself over and over. Then the phone rang. Yep it was 8:30, must be John. I answered and he told me,
"Like I said. No games. You understand?" I gulped and said yes. "Okay, my address is **********, Directions are ********. There's a security gate. dial **** and I'll open it. Be here by 9 or don't call me again." click.
Damn!? This guy means business I thought. I exhaled and said to myself, I can't? But I put my slippers on and walked to my car. Well I'll ride that way, just in case I do get the courage. The whole ride I kept saying how stupid i was. Someone I never met and I'm gonna suck his dick? No way. I need to turn around. But I kept heading to his apartment. I told myself, well let me just see where he lives, then I'll turn around.
I got there in 15 minutes which was too early. Okay that's where he lives. I'm going to go by that store I just passed and get a drink, before I go home. I got my drink and started driving out of the store parking lot, but instead of turning toward my house, I turned the other way toward Johns. What am I doing?? I pulled up to the gate and sat for a few minutes as I was still early. I still told myself don't do it. But I got out of the car and dialed his number.
"Hello".
"Yea is this John?".
"Yea is this Greg?"
"Yes."
"Pull in, turn right and pull into the fourth parking spot on the left. I'll open door when you get here.".
I was shaking like a leaf. So nervous, My stomach was doing flips. I pulled in the spot and sat there trying to build up my courage or backing out. last chance I thought. Then he opened door and just waved me in. I jumped out and rushed over to him so he would not get irritated with me. All he had on was a short bathrobe as he pointed to the living room. I passed him to go to his couch, when he grabbed my ass and told me, "Nice."
I sat down facing the TV as he sat in a chair next to the TV. He had a porn playing showing one guy sucking another guys dick.
"You like gay porn?" he asked.
With my mouth partially open, I just nodded and said uh huh. One guy on the video kept telling the guy sucking what good bitch he was and how good he sucked cock. I got an instant erection. John was just watching my reaction for a little bit and then opened his robe and started stroking his cock. I looked at his cock and unknowingly licked my lips. I looked up and saw him looking at me so I looked back at TV. He laughed and told me,
"Don't be shy Greg. Isn't this what you wanted?".
