I was straight my whole life. I was married to a beautiful woman for 8 years. We had 2 sons. We were divorced for about 2 years.
I was never really athletic. I've always been chubby and more into reading books and eating food than sports. It got worse later on in my marriage as I was now in my early 40's and my metabolism has slowed down significantly.
My ex wife Cheryl and I got divorced because she felt my libido was completely gone and I couldn't satisfy her anymore. I didn't argue with her. It was what it was. I knew I neglected her in the bedroom and rarely had any interest in her anymore.
We agreed to be civil and she got the house and the kids but I kept our house but I got the boat and lake house. She got the kids but I got to keep my Prius.
I ended up getting an apartment downtown Toronto where I could commute to work at my office in 15 minutes.
I signed up on Tinder and plenty of fish and even paid extra for E-Harmony. That didn't really end up going anywhere. I noticed most of the thicker, chubby White girls with pretty faces weren't interested in me.
They all said they were only into black guys. Some of them had pictures of their kids who were mulatto.
I started to doubt myself. My buddy Todd from work tried to invite me out a couple time to set me up with girls his girlfriend knew, but they all seems to not be into me because of my belly and obvious loss of confidence.
I ended up spending money on escorts a couple time's just to get my rocks off. I felt empty after.
After 2 years I was still single and kind of disillusioned with women and just spent a lot of time with my kids and buried my head in office work on my computer to keep myself occupied.
I couldn't even remember the last time I had an erection. I felt like my life at this point was just about going through the motions.
One day I was on the subway train to work and I left my briefcase on the train. I didn't even realize it because I was just in a hurry to get to work.
All of a sudden, just before I went on escalator I heard a thick African accent as a man yelled for me to stop.
I turned around and saw a tall dark skinned African man smiling at me holding my briefcase saying I'm his accent "sir, you forgot your briefcase".
I was so thankful I immediately grabbed it and shook his hand. I introduced myself as Walter. He introduced himself as Ezekiel.
He had a very thick accent and I asked him where he's from. He said he is from Nigeria and has been here less than a year. He works at a diamond mining company.
I for some reason was really interested in him. As he talked I looked at him. He was very attractive. He was about 6'4 and very athletic with defined muscles.
His skin was actually the darkest I've ever seen. Most of the black men I have known were from Jamaica and not that dark. Ezekiel was as dark as coal.
He was bald and his head was shiny and I noticed he had really full lips. He also had a really nice smile with big shiny white teeth that stood out. He also had really nice dark eyes that seemed to look right into my soul.
How else can you explain why I'm standing chatting with a complete stranger for like 10 minutes when I'm supposed to be rushing for work.
I ended up telling him I had to get to work. He said to me "Hey I'm new here, I need a friend. How about we go for dinner?"
As he looked into my eyes straight into my soul making my heart race like it hasn't in years. I said yes and he handed me his business card and told me to text him my number.
I got to work 25 minutes late. I told my boss I lost my briefcase as an excuse and since I was usually never late he let it slide. I grabbed my coffee and got to working on clients files on my computer.
I kept thinking about Ezekiel and how I felt so drawn to him. I didn't think it was a gay thing because I wasn't into guys ever.
I have always been into girls and although I never had much luck with girls because they want guys that look like The Rock and I have a build like Danny Devito.
Even my ex-wife kind of made sex seem like a chore because I wasn't what she wanted anymore towards the end of our marriage .
I remember finding a big black dildo shaped like a cock hidden in her night stand when I was looking for spare keys for the lake house.
Sometimes on our computer in our kitchen I'd see all this BBC stuff on the browsing history, I just assumed she was reading BBC news clips about Africa.
It was all coming back to me now and I remembered what all those girls on the dating apps said about only dating black guys.
I thought of Ezekiel and how he was probably the perfect example of what these women were all going for.
I kept on thinking about how he had my heart racing and so into talking to him. Usually I'm very standoffish when I'm riding public transit.
I never ever stop and chat to strangers and make myself late for work. I also wasn't in such a great upbeat mood in as long as I can remember.
In the afternoon after my board meeting I decided to text Ezekiel my number using the business card he gave me. He replied and asked me if I would try a new Greek restaurant he heard about that he wanted to try.
I eagerly said yes without even thinking about any prior engagements that night. That was uncharacteristic of me.
That night I was supposed to take my older son to his soccer game. But it completely slipped my mind.
I texted my wife and told her I had a late meeting with out of town clients and can't take him to his game. She chewed me out for it. I tuned it out and hung up.
That night we went for dinner at Grecco's taverna and ate like kings. I told him all about my failed marriage and my kids and soccer. He said he used to play soccer in Nigeria. He told me that he is 30 years old and has 1 son in Nigeria with his ex wife.
The more he told me about his life the more intrigued I got. Despite our 14 year age difference we meshed pretty well conversation wise.
I noticed when he would say something he would put his hand over mine and it sent electricity through me. I felt kind of giddy around him for some reason and as the drinks flowed I kept looking at him and the more I appreciated his beautiful dark features.
When the bill came he ended up paying for my dinner too. It was a $230 Bill. When I tried to pay the tip he laughed and put his hand around my waist and says "Hahahaha come on we go, I pay." and when he put his hand on my waist I was shaking from the excitement. What was happening to me?