As I lay in bed, I tried to recover my sanity. Jake said nothing in the morning. Trying not to show too much affection, he just helped me get up from out of bed and helped me stand. And that was all.
I couldn't even walk properly after last night, with my soft bum in pain and having to hold my pants closed, as the beast tore it off last night. He was of course in a great mood. All the others sniggered and laughed at me as I walked around in prison tamely and awkwardly, my torn pants stained with my blood and his load. It was so embarrassing. They all watched last night as Jake had sex with me. Jake's theatrics convinced them that he raped me, though it was far from it! Nevertheless, I had to keep up this embarrassing charade for him.
At breakfast I didn't know where to sit. Jake directed me loudly "Bitches sit there", as he pointed to a table where regular rape victims sit.
"Welcome to hell bro," one of them said.
"I heard he used lube on you", "He kissed you?", "You were very lucky". They all said.
"Lucky? What the fuck? He raped me!" I scolded them, even though it wasn't true. Despite the pain, I enjoyed every minute of it. If I hadn't prepared and psyched myself up, it would've probably been hell. But instead, I was in heaven last night!
"You don't get it. He never does that. He's as rough as they come. He even helped you out of bed. No one else has even approached you yet. He hasn't swapped you for another."
I was confused. But then I realised my worst case scenario actually exists here. I've read that in prison, the bitches often get passed around from thug to thug mercilessly. This is the worst possibility that I had psyched myself up for. But ideally, my aim was to enjoy sex, and try to ensure that only one man "owns" me here, so to speak.
Thankfully after being with Jake, no one else had even tried to grab me as yet and use me. Perhaps he warned them that I'm his. A small smirk creeped out of me as I thought back at his kisses on my neck as he ravaged me.