How I Lost Control of My Life

This is an older story I wrote with my wife 14 years ago and submitted to another site, dusted it off and submitted here.

I am currently 34 years old, and I am Bi. I have a girlfriend who I have been seeing for a while, but she has no clue I am bi. Back when I was 21, I experienced my 1st guy and loved it. Over the past 13 years I experimented with different guys usually just J/o, oral, and I would sometimes fuck the ones who were into it. I was always safe, and as soon as we got off, I left, and months would past before I would hook up again.

Last March I was alone on a Fri night and very horny, it was months since I had a cock and I wanted one bad. I met a guy online on CL and after a couple days of talking we agreed to meet. I met him at a public parking lot and then followed him home. When I got inside, he told me to strip, he then proceeded to call me names and give me orders to play with myself and follow his orders. This was very new to me, but I loved it. I was told to follow him into his room and when I did, he pointed to the bed and told me to put these things on now. I looked down and there were panties, stockings, and a bra, I laughed at it, and he yelled and said to put them on now or else. He scared me and I did as he said. Once done he started to call me a fag and pussy.

He then ordered me to my knees, and he started to fuck my mouth. He then pulled me up bent me over and pulled the panties to the side and started to finger me, I was getting so excited and feeling great he grabbed lube and put it on my ass. I was then shocked when he tried pushing his cock in my ass, I was still a virgin and always practiced safe sex and here I was letting this guy try to bareback me, he got the head in, and I then said stop now and get a rubber. He said he was safe, but I pleaded with him to stop. Finally, he pulled the head out pushed me down and said I will pay for this he then fucked my mouth hard until he came and made me swallow it. He then told me to strip get my stuff and get the fuck out. I was still hard from not coming but left fast. On my way out he said to hit him up tomorrow and he will get rubbers to fuck me. I got in my car and left drove home fast got in and jerked off. When I was done, I couldn't believe what happened. I felt guilty and proceeded to delete his email from my computer and said I was done.

A couple weeks passed ad I started to think how I loved being ordered and wanted more; I couldn't find this guy's info since I deleted it, but I had the will to try again. I kept thinking about being a sub for months.

In June I met a guy online for a one niter, I was so horny and just wanted to be with a guy. I met him out and followed him back home. He was like any other encounter, we sucked each other off and I left. The next day I was on my computer and this guy hit me up and said he enjoyed last night; I told him I did also and would love a regular guy for hookups. He said then if I wanted to come over now for a quickie. I drove over we 69 in his living room until we came and then I left. He and I started to talk every night and became friends to the point where we went to a bar one night just to hang out and watch the game. One night we were talking online, and he asked me my fantasies with a guy. I began to tell him of my encounter with the guy who ordered me around and wanted to fuck me. I told him that's all I was thinking about and would love to try it again.

We made plans that Fri night for me to come over and we would try. When I got there, he ordered me to strip, and he played it out like I told him what happen with the other guy. We did just like I experienced before, but he wore a rubber, and he fucked me. It hurt bad but I got used to it. After we both came, I just laid there and he and I got worked up again where he fucked me again, this time it was great. Afterwards he said he loved it and always wanted to act as a dom. I finally left, went home showered and hoped back on my computer, my GF was away on a shopping weekend, so I was alone. I then received an IM from him telling me how he liked this and wants to do it again with me but for us to even step it up. I asked what he was thinking, and he said a little bondage, he had me so worked up and I told him yes. He said good be here tomorrow Sat afternoon at 3pm, make sure I was clean and to wear my GF panties, stocking, garter, and bra under my clothes. If I didn't show don't hit him again, he then signed offline. I was so excited and wondering if he was serious or not.

The next day I was thinking about whether I should go or not. I dreamed about this, and this was a guy I knew and even went in public with so in my head I finally agreed and showed up at his house at 3 sharp. When I got there, he opened the door and told me to come in and not talk. I was told to strip and hand him my clothes, he put them in a bag, and I was standing there in a black bra, stocking, garter, and matching panties. He laughed and said wow I did obey like a fag. He then stood behind me telling me to relax and this is what I always wanted, to lose control to a master. He kept talking about how he enjoyed fucking me last night and telling me how he liked when I sucked his cock. I was so worked up I didn't even notice that he was cuffing my hands behind my back. He then told me that I have given him full control of me, and I will enjoy this. He then proceeded to put a bar between my ankles with a little chain enough for me to barely walk. He then stood up behind me and asked is this what I always wanted, I told him yes and he said good, I will enjoy this next, he then proceeds to put a ball gag in my mouth and tie it around the back of my head.

He then said I was now fully his and to follow him. He led me through his kitchen to a door which was his basement. I started to get worried, but I had no choice. We went down 2 stairs and he stopped to close the door and lock it with a bar. I was now very nervous, what was he doing, was this for show. It was dark down there and cold. He led me to another room down there and opened the door. I was shocked as hell when I saw 3 other guys in there. I tried to move but couldn't and yell out, but I had a gag, next thing I knew there was a hood pulled over my face and tied around my neck. I was helpless, scared and crying, what did I do, why was he doing this. I was then uncuffed and dragged over to what seemed like a table and bent over it.

My hands were then somehow chained to it, the bar between my legs was removed, and my ankles chained to this table. I then heard my new master say my car keys were in my clothes upstairs. He then put his mouth near my ear and said he picked up that I was a fag cunt when he met me, and he put up with being my friend to get me to submit to him like this. He then untied and pulled the hood off. He said one last thing, "your life is over as you know it" I then felt someone put something in my ears to block sound and the hood was pulled back over me and tied. I was so scared and crying. I then screamed into my gag as I felt my ass being torn apart, I was being fucked roughly and can tell he was fucking me bareback, I was praying he pull out and not cum in me, but I was wrong he shot in my ass, he pulled out and I could feel it dripping out of me. I then felt another cock invade me and did the same thing; this went on for a while until I passed out.

I then awoke have no clue when, but my arms were tied above my head to the ceiling I guessed. The hood was pulled off and there were the 3 guys and my master. The gag was left in, and I was told to listen, one of the held up my cell phone from my car and said if I don't obey all my contacts would hear about this and get pictures. My master said that he now owns me, and I am his slave forever, they all then laughed. I was then told I would be released from the chains and the gag removed and I was to suck off each one until the shot in my mouth and I swallowed. If I didn't obey, they would send pictures of me to my contacts and if I yelled or said anything.

I was then released gag off; I then was thrown down were I sucked all 4 men to the shot in my mouth. I was then led upstairs to a bathroom where I was pushed in a tub and all 4 men stood around it and pissed all over me, I was then pulled out thrown my clothes and nothing to dry off and told to get out and follow my directions when my master called in a couple days. I ran out to my car and noticed I had been there for over 12 hours. It was 4 am, I drove home hoped in the shower, hoped in bed, and cried to sleep.

Over the next couple days, I was so scared from what happen and was afraid someone would find out what I did since they had my cell numbers. A couple days passed, and I never heard from him and I then though maybe he said all that to scare me and maybe I would never hear from him again. Wed night my cell phone rang, and it was him, I became so scared. He said fag be at my house Fri night at 6 and plan to stay the whole weekend and to tell anyone looking for me that I won't be on cell. He then said if I don't believe him read my email and then hung up. I went and checked my email and the email from him said the same thing on the phone and it also had pictures of me dressed in the bra and panties and of me sucking cock and getting fucked.

Also in the email were numbers of people I knew form my phone that said they will be sent these pictures if I am not their Fri at 6. I was so scared that night when I went to bed and didn't know what I was going to do. I thought about it all day on Thursday and that night I told my girl that I was going to go with a friend on a fishing trip for the weekend and won't have cell coverage. She was pissed since we didn't spend the following weekend together but said OK.

The next day I couldn't even think at work and was so nervous, after work I went to my master's house like he said and was there at 6. He let me in and told me to strip, which I did right away. He then told me to follow him, he led me thru the kitchen, and I figured we were going to the basement again, but we went out another door to the garage. He then grabbed something and came over to me and said not to say a fucking word and listen.

He then pulled my hands behind my back and duck taped them together, He then taped my mouth and put ear plugs in my ears. I then saw him pick up a huge but plug and he roughly put it in my ass and then put tape over it. I was screaming into the tape. He then taped my ankles together and put the hood from the other day over my head and he taped it tight. I was then pulled and from what I could tell was getting put into the trunk of the car in the garage, it was then closed, and he started to drive. He was driving for a while, and it was a rough road. The car then stopped and for the next 10 min I was just in there. Finally, I felt someone pulling me out.

The hood was pulled off and I saw the 3 guys from the other night along with 2 other people. My ankles were let free alone with the tape on my ass and the plug. The plugs from my ear were removed and them my master talked. He said we were miles from anyone who could hear so don't even try to leave or scream. He then said he was going to remove the tape from my mouth and to listen to them. The tape was finally removed, and I was thrown to the ground in leaves, we were in the woods. Each guy stood around me and I was told to suck every cock, each guy came in my mouth, face, and hair.

After all, 6 were done I was then pulled up and bent over on the hood of a car and each guy fucked me hard and rough and came in my ass. After the last guy fucked my ass, the hood was pulled over my head and I felt my hands and legs getting taped again. I was then put back in the trunk and the car started to drive. When the car stopped, I was pulled out and led into a house.

The hood was removed and the guy in front of me was not the master, it was another guy, and it was his house. He said he paid to have me for the night. He then led me to the bathroom and told me to clean up and shower. I cleaned up and when I came out of the room into the bedroom there were 3 black guys there who I never saw before. My new master for the night told me to take care of these guys like the fag I was. That night and till the morning, these guys all fucked me bareback coming in my ass and mouth many times. The next morning when I passed out, I was awoken by being tied and gagged again and put back in a car. I was taken back to my master's house when I spent the afternoon tied and spread to a bed.

I slept most of the afternoon and into the night until I was awoken by my master. He took me into the shower and made me clean up and go downstairs naked when I was done. When I got down there had to be 10 guys all naked standing there. For the next couple hours each man fucked my many times. Sunday afternoon I finally went home. When I got home, I told my GF that I felt sick and just wanted to go to bed.

Monday morning came and I went to work as normal. Halfway through the day I received a call from my mater, I picked it up and he asked if it was all worth it. I asked him what he meant, and he asked my fantasy of losing control. I said it was more fun then I wanted but fun. He then said I would probably hate it once I sat down and thought of it. He then said he was done with me, and I was no good for him anymore and he then laughed and said to enjoy my life and hung up.

After work I got home, and my GF was sitting on the couch and told me to sit down. When I did, I was shocked she put the TV on and there I was on the screen getting fucked and sucking cock. My master dropped off a DVD. She started crying call me a fag and ran out of the house and told me to leave her alone. I was shocked and sat there and couldn't believe it. After a while I made it to my computer and there was an email from my master. It said I was a fag and he wanted to ruin my life, so he gave the DVD to my GF. He then said the attached was sent to everyone on my phone whose email he got when he took my phone. It was clips of me dressed up getting fucked, sucking. That night my email and phone went nuts with people hitting me about what they saw and did.

Over the next week everyone knew about it, family friends, coworkers, I finally had to move away and start my life over. I am in no contact with anyone from my formal life and I regret everyday how I got myself in this mess.