Over the next week, I couldn't shake that night with Dad from my head. When I closed my eyes, I could smell the whisky on his breath and feel his whiskers on my mouth.
I must have jerked off five times a day, even slipping a finger into my ass a few times to at least partially resemble the fulfilling girth of Dad's cock sliding into me.
Then, after I shot each load, I would quickly remember how it ended.
Dad told me I felt just like my mom, which seemed like a good thing, but then he got up from my bed and stumbled out of my room. A moment later, his bedroom door closed. With one of Dad's cum loads in my stomach and another inside my hole, I was left naked in the dark, wondering what he meant.
The next morning, Dad all but made me think the whole thing was a dream. He didn't say a word about it when I came into the kitchen for some cereal. Instead, he told me to have a good day, and to look for a job. High school was over, he groaned. Then he left.
Day after day, as much as I reminisced about Dad's cock, his avoidance ignited an anxiety in me.
It was back to showering with the door closed, dressing in his room with the door closed, and seemingly having every conversation with a door closed. I was too scared to ask, but I wished if he were mad, he'd just tell me, even if it meant we could never explore like that again.
Eventually, I couldn't stand waiting. I had to do something, but I wasn't sure what.
I needed advice from the only man in the world I knew I could go to. There was nothing I couldn't tell Dad's dad -- Pop.
He was the coolest guy in the world. I trusted him more than anyone, even Dad himself.
Whenever I had questions about sensitive topics, Pop was always there for me. Since Dad was so gruff, it had always been easier to go to Pop when I had questions about my body growing hair in new places, or my voice beginning to deepen, or even when I needed someone to tell me if it was time to start wearing deodorant.
Pop spent his entire career being a coach for college football teams. After all the time he'd spent in musky locker rooms, talking about guy stuff was totally normal for him.
Pop was surprised to see me when I showed up at his doorstep. I'd tried to get out of the house earlier to beat the June heat, but nonetheless, by the time Pop answered, he noticed a redness on my cheeks and a bead of sweat dripping down my forehead.
"What're you doing here?" he asked, not waiting for an answer before he pulled me into the living room. He sat me on the couch and took a seat on the coffee table in front of me.
For being my grandpa, I couldn't believe how young Pop seemed. He looked more like Dad's brother than his dad. But I guess that's the way it goes when you have a kid at nineteen. "Everything okay, Buddy?"
Pop always called me Buddy, ever since I was a boy.
One of my first memories was when Pop would lay in bed with me, rubbing my tummy when I stayed over and couldn't sleep. His hand lightly went around my stomach, and he would tell me I was his best buddy in the world until finally, I'd doze off with a big goofy smile on my face.
He looked the same as he did back then. He was a little more lean than Dad, and sported some silver in his hair Dad didn't have, but he still carried a good deal of muscle like Dad, and he had the same dark chest scruff peeking out of his jersey collar. I wasn't sure if it was because of what happened a week earlier, but I found myself more curious about touching it than ever before.
"Everything's fine, Pop." I moved my gaze back up to his. Unlike Dad's blue eyes, Pop's were a deep green. They looked so serene against his summer-tanned face, reminding me why I'd come. I needed help. "I guess I was just hoping we could talk about something. It's kind of embarrassing."
Pop looked concerned. His palm rested on my knee. I tried not to harden in my shorts as he patted my leg. "Buddy, you can talk to me about anything. You know that, right?"
Did I know that? For sure? Suddenly, I questioned whether this would be crossing a line.
I thought back to when I was thirteen. I found Pop's stash of porn magazines in his nightstand. I lay in his flannel sheets and pulled down my shorts, confused about why my penis was getting so hard as I looked at the naked ladies on the pages. Their boobs and manicured groins were nothing I'd normally think about in bed at home. But for some reason, knowing Pop looked at these same tits and pussies stiffened me up. I breathed in the oaky scent of Pop's cologne underneath me as I reached down and started rubbing myself.
That was the first time I ever jerked off to the point of cumming. And as my first little load squirted out onto my belly, Pop walked in.
He looked down at my measly little penis dripping with semen, and without a word, re-closed the door in front of him and disappeared. It was the only thing that ever went undiscussed between us. Talk about humiliating.