Chapter 12 -- One good day part 1 - Shaving session
I lay in bed, looking at the ceiling and thinking, how the heck did I end up like this? That hot man had me around his finger, even though he was the "submissive" one. If it were up to me, I would leave. Right now, I would probably be fucking some twink to take the edge off. But for some unknown reason, I agreed to stay here and play the game "How to fuck up three lives at once."
Sure, Nate was fantastic, caring, and funny. He could make me cum with an intensity I didn't know I had ever felt. The rage Nate let me express should be troubling, but Nathaniel took it so well it nearly seemed by design. Still, he is risking years of marriage over the guy who fucks him a few days.
I thought about Ash. This is not fair on her either. Yet, I kept doing it, and I was sure if I stayed here, I won't stop until I left, or she won't catch us.
I exhaled in frustration. How easier it would be if I didn't care.
Nathaniel came into the room. His hair was damp, and his hard-toned muscles flexed in the chilled room.
"Can I close the window?"
"Yeah."
"Can I sleep here tonight?"
I just looked at him walking naked in my room, mesmerized by his figure, facial features, and how he was carrying himself.
I reached my hand to him, and he came to the bed. Nate took my hand and kissed it. Then he kissed each finger and moved above my body. Kissed me softly as he sat on top of me. I brushed his chest. There were remaining bruises from the tree bark and slight marks on his neck, arms, and legs. I sat and kissed all those places without thought, hearing his satisfied moans and letting him play with my hair. I embraced him and kissed his lips again. I felt my dick growing again and saw his also waking up.
"You are so beautiful, baby, so erotic and hard. I love it." He said silently, with eyes dazed as he stroked my hair.
"Don't call me baby Nathaniel."
"Why?"
"I call baby only people I am in a relationship with."
"Are we not in a relationship?"
I looked at him. "I am the man you cheat on your wife with. I don't want to call this a relationship."
He seemed hurt by my words.
"I would like to have a relationship with you, Richard."
"What kind?" I raised my eyebrow.
"The real kind."
"Are you thinking of leaving your wife? Or are you just thinking of having me as your stay-at-home dom?" I wasn't saying it in an angry voice. I was just sad and hurt a bit.
"Dom?"
"Dominant."
"Well, don't you like it yourself?"
"I want something real and honestly maybe even some illusion of choice, not just glorifying this because the stakes are so high that we need to persuade ourselves it's worth it."
"It is real for me."
"Yet I seem to be the only one having doubts."
"I don't have doubts. I want you."
"So, when Ashley comes home, what will happen?"
He looked slightly annoyed. But mostly just troubled. Finally, something.
"Richard, I love Ashley."
"I know. Well, I think you do. Yet you are sitting butt naked on my cock, kissing me here."
"And you love it."
"Yes, I do. And I want to keep fucking you every day until I can, but I don't want to share you with my sister. Look, I promised I would stay, but seriously, it's driving me crazy, and still, I will try. I will, but I need you to think about what you want because I don't like the person I am becoming because of all this."
"Can you give me some time, Richard?"
"How much of my rage do you think you can stand?"
Nathaniel leaned to my ear and whispered, "All of it."
I asked him gently to move and went for a bottle. Took a sip and just stated that I was going to sleep. He moved to his side of the bed, covering himself and looking at me as I laid down wordlessly, turning off the lights.
He took his phone and read some articles. I glanced without thinking and got interested. I asked him about it, and then we spent a couple of minutes just glossing over the current crisis. I liked his worldview and opinions (I prefer not to go into specifics, as these times, opinions break more families and friendships than it's good, so I will keep this part vague).
I liked that he had this natural appreciation for different opinions, and we always let finish one another before replying, even in a heated discussion. We had a few minor disagreements about our political views, but all in respect and tolerance. I enjoyed this talk, maybe even more than yesterdays. We diverted into politics, socioeconomics, and minutes added up to over an hour. At first, I asked about that article just out of curiosity, but as this conversation progressed, I was really into it. We talked for a long time and then slowly fell asleep next to each other. Damn, why Ashley? Why did you have to marry her, of all people?
We woke up at about the same time. I felt Nate's fingers closing on mine and then intertwining them together. We looked at each other, and he smiled slightly. I went to him and kissed his forehead, caressing his hair. One last day rang in my head. Let's make it worth it.