Lavar wouldn't let me "quit".
I moved from Norfolk. I got orders to D.C., taking on a position at The Pentagon working for some big wig civilians that worked for the Department of Defense. I'd worked my ass off while on sea duty in Norfolk, chasing qualifications, working long hours taking care of fellow Sailors, just staking my claim for all sorts of opportunities the Navy had to offer.
"Been a good while since you hit me up. You're not living in that apartment no more? What's the matter, you deployed, and couldn't reach out to me," Lavar asked via text.
I increased my grind to enhance the chance to leave Norfolk, and ultimately Lavar, behind. When he messaged me I'd been six months removed from the threesome we had on the balcony, as that day taught me how much of a versatile slut I really was, and I needed to escape that role.
"What did I do that was so wrong that you went ghost on me? What happened? Did I eat that ass too good? Did I make you cum too hard? Or was it me fucking you, and you actually enjoying it to the point you were screaming like a banshee? Whatever it was, it got you so shook that you disappeared from the frame completely. If I did that much damage, I apologize," he said to me. "I don't even expect an answer. I just wish you well, mijo, and the next time I see or hear about you, hopefully you'll be donning a khaki uniform."
I didn't respond, instead focusing on life in D.C., trying to gain my footing on the professional side, earn my degree in business, and leaving the life I had in Norfolk, in the past.
D.C. would turn out to be a breath of fresh air, so to speak, for military and political figures were plentiful, as well as the influence of being a "mover and shaker" of the world. Working at The Pentagon afforded me occasions of networking, doing community service, and other items of interest that not only enhanced my professional profile with or without the Navy, but gave me another ounce of humility in my path through life. Add the fact the men were an upgrade, stretching from Fredericksburg to Baltimore, for you had your rich, influential, big dick types, to the middle aged, retired, chubby bottoms that couldn't get enough as they outnumbered the tops. I'd charmed, hit on a few, but I was still trying to get right after Lavar slutted me out and had me temporarily abstain from any activities with dudes until I was completely rid of him in my system. A year later, I got another message from him:
"Hey there. I'm coming up to D.C. next weekend, actually Landover, to hit a football game with some friends. I'd like to see you."
"How'd you find me Lavar," I asked.
"Son, you're all over social media. You post when you visited Ben's Chili Bowl, when you went to the African American Museum, when you're hanging on U Street. Oh yeah, I'm very familiar with D.C. because of you, LOL," he responded.
Social media can be the aid to your own undoing at times. He told me we didn't have to engage in sex, and that he'd come to my place to pick me up so we could link with his friends and relax in the exec suite at Fed Ex Field, watching Dallas embarrass the home team. Thing was, for over a year I hadn't touched anyone and now wanted desperately to have sex. Problem was with Lavar it was more than sex: it was a damned movie.
"You know damn well you want to do more than watch the game," I said.
"You know, papi misses you," he messaged as a caption to a photo of him, no head or facial hair included.
I could admit that Lavar had a glimmer, a glimmer that had me looking at his photo salivating all over again. I'd lose reception as he messaged me while I was heading home from work on the train. I just cut off my phone for the remainder of the ride until I made it to my stop, as I was losing juice anyway. I got off at my stop and walked up the escalator, then powered on, seeing Lavar tried calling me. 11 missed calls. I went back and forth with reaching back, settling on waiting for him to try and contact me again as I struggled with getting back involved with this talented man. I made it to my apartment, showered, then put on my robe when my phone went off again.
"So you text me, then you're ducking my calls," he asked via message.
"No, I got caught up in the tunnel, and lost reception," I told him.
"I know how The Metro works, son. I once was stationed in D.C., too. Are you really willing to close the chapter on what we had," he asked me. "I invited you in my home, put my tongue in your ass, and my dick in your mouth, and vice versa. Face it baby, you can't quit me even if you really wanted to. I won't let you," he messaged. "Let's talk like men, I'm tired of this texting business."
I screamed to the top of my lungs and threw the phone across the living room from my couch, and started crying. This man had a spell on me! Pound for pound, Lavar was my champion lover, holding the belt in getting me all hot and bothered, then having me feel an exult when I'd shoot all over the place. After I felt sorry for myself I messaged him.
"Man, what do you want fro me?"
"You know what I want. I want you, mijo, I been having withdrawals," he told me.
He ended up calling me, and I'd pick up.