It was a full week before the voice in my head finally went away.
No, I wasn't possessed by a demon or anything super-natural. It was the voice of my girlfriend as I watched her body violently shake underneath Bruce's friend, Doug, as he rammed his hard cock in and out of her open pussy.
"OH DOUGY, FUCK ME HARDER, SWEETIE, GOD I LOVE YOUR BIG COCK INSIDE ME!!"
"MAKE ME CUM," she shouted. "GOD, I MISSED YOUR BIG COCK WHEN YOU WERE AWAY AT SCHOOL!"
"I'M CUMMING, SWEETIE," she shouted. "CUM WITH ME -- SHOOT YOUR LOAD INSIDE ME, SWEETIE!!"
"OH GOD, DOUGY -- I'M CUMMING-I'M-CUMMING-I'M-CUMMMING...."
Those were words I never heard when she and I made love.
Watching my girlfriend bouncing on the bed in the throes of orgasm was not only the single most humiliating moment of my life, but served as a wake-up call for me to finally face reality.
"Johnny, you need to understand that my sister loves you very much as a friend," Bruce said to me on the night I caught Lori and Doug in bed.
I had let him in the apartment and we were sitting on my sofa. His strong arms holding me made me feel safe and secure. My tears had subsided, and now I was trying to make sense of what I had witnessed.
He continued: "...this may not help, but she has always said 'John is my very best-est friend in the whole wide world' - and she means it...but I have to be brutally honest with you, my sister is kind of a slut -- she loves sex and she loves big, uh, you know, men...."
"Bruce," I said, "Lori and I have been seeing each other 'romantically' for over a year...are you saying she cheated on me with not only Doug, but other guys, too?"
When he averted his eyes from mine I knew the answer to my question.
I guess I only have myself to blame for what happened next...the moment I can look back to and say changed the course of our entire relationship.
Bruce was kind and understanding; he gently stroked my back and shoulders; I even tolerated the kisses on my neck and cheeks.
I don't know at what point I glanced down and saw the bulge in his shorts, but I did feel a sense of responsibility for getting him in that condition.
I mean, yes, I knew he liked me 'in that way' and also yes, only a couple days prior I had let my guard down and we somehow ended up masturbating each other; but still, that was no excuse for what I did next.
I can't explain why, and to his utter surprise, I placed my hand on his bulge and squeezed it then slowly moved my hand back and forth over his erection.
"Oh Johnny," he moaned.
He kissed me passionately on the lips and the next thing I knew his shorts were open and his hard cock was in my hand. What could I do but stroke him to orgasm?
**
I don't know what I would have done without Bruce being there for me the entire week.
After work every day, we would be together for the rest of the night. Well, until my roommate, Mike was due home anyway. I didn't think Mike would understand my special relationship with Bruce.
We had decided since Lori needed 'their' car to get to work, Bruce would have the use of mine. So Bruce took my car home each night, and would drive me to work in the morning and pick me up afterwards.
It worked very well so it doesn't matter to me that Bruce always drives now whenever we go anywhere.
That first day after work I climbed into the car and naturally sat close to the passenger door.
He looked at me with his beautiful smile and said, "Sweetie, no one can see us through these tinted windows, sit next to me and give me a kiss!"
I blushed but did what he wanted. There was still a part of me that cringed whenever he called me "sweetie," and quite frankly, when we kiss, I am acutely aware of how 'gay' it feels.
When we walked into my apartment, he frowned at the mess. I hadn't been in the mood to clean since the day of the 'unfortunate incident' as we now called it.
"Maybe you can tidy up the place before you cook dinner," he suggested, and I readily agreed.
After dinner, once I had the kitchen spotless, I joined him on the sofa. We talked for awhile then one thing led to another and he kissed me and I kissed him back.
I was still uncomfortable having these make-out sessions with him on my own sofa, but if it hadn't been for him I don't think I could have survived the week.
"Sweetie," he said, "why don't you strip to your cute little undies."
"Oh, okay," I said somewhat surprised.
He has been such a good friend, how could I possibly refuse?
When I stood before him wearing only my string, bikini briefs, he smacked his lips and said, "My God, sweetie, you are sooo sexy! Why don't you undress me now!"
I flinched but quickly recovered and said, "Oh, okay."
He had me begin with his shirt. When I opened two buttons he stopped me and said, "Kiss me!"
"Oh, okay," I said and kissed him full on the lips.
I opened two more buttons and again he said, "Kiss me!"
My blood began boiling. I was starting to enjoy this sexy and erotic game.
By the time I removed his shirt, he noticed the boner in my briefs, smiled and said, "How cute!"
"Now my shoes and socks!" he said.
I dropped to my knees and took hold of his left foot, removed the loafer then peeled off his sock.
"Sweetie, would you do something for me?" he asked. "Would you kiss my toes?"
"Oh, okay," I said. Who could resist that smile?
I started with the big toe, kissed it then moved on.
"No-no, sweetie, take it in your mouth and give it a good sucking!" he said.
Oh my hell how my hard-on throbbed in my briefs!
"Oh, okay," I said hoarsely.
I began sucking and licking his big toe. I heard him say, "Sweetie, I want you to look me in the eyes while you do this for me!"
"Oh, okay," I said and obeyed him.
Oh my hell -- the intensity I felt - how sexy is this? My balls now aching.
I performed the same action with each toe and when I was finished with his pinky toe, he raised his right foot and I repeated the whole process one more time.
Having to stare into his eyes while I sucked his toes had an overpowering affect on me.
He was no longer the boy who was just a year older than me. No, I now saw him as a wise and mature older man who was getting me through the most difficult time of my life.
I felt such joy and warmth in my heart, I knew I could do whatever it took to please him without getting caught up in the whole 'it's so gay' thing.
By the time I was finished sucking the toes on his right foot, I couldn't help but notice the large bulge in his slacks. Oddly, I was thrilled I'd been able to excite him. I took it as the ultimate compliment.
"Sweetie, open my pants and take them down for me...leave my boxers on, okay?" he said.
Oh my goodness, I knew what this was leading to - could I go thru with it?
Well, John, you have already crossed over the gay barrier, I thought, you've already given him orgasms with your hand and your mouth, what difference does it make now?
"Oh, okay," I said.
From my kneeling position, I actually found it easier to open his belt, unfasten his slacks then pull them down and off his legs.